Need your prayers...
 

Due to our lovely weather here in WI, I've been in a perpetual flare-state for the past week, and it's starting to really wear me down. If it weren't for my upcoming SCS trial a week from tues, I'd really be going insane. So I can see a light at the end of the tunnel, but the pain is still getting me down and preventing me from doing the work around the house that needs to get done before my surgery.

So please, pray that the pain relents enough to at least function in my semi-normal way... or at least be able to sleep or move even! I'm just losing it in this pain level! Please pray for me!

Thank you,

Colleen :hug:

Concerned
 

We pray, dear one, in seeking help to overcome
that pain be placed where naught will hurt
the battle won

'Tis hard for sure to brave the times
when pain would win
so we pray solace be thine

Our Lord lift up your hurting frame
and hold you close
breathing light and life to you the same

We pray your time of waiting pass
Deceiver held at bay
so pain be checked, long lasting help be yours at last.


In Christ's boundless agape
caring deeply as we your friends assuredly pray
Mark56:hug::grouphug::circlelove:

Mark...
 

Mark-

That was beautiful, and exactly what I needed to hear. So comforting. Thank you!

Colleen :hug:

Sometimes,
 

in His wisdom he will allow us to go into the office in a full flare so the doc can really see what we are dealing with. I pray for peace and relative comfort up until the day of the trial and then reflect everything that is going on. Hang in there. You will make it to the finishing line. Hugz and prayers.

:hug:

Spiney...
 

Spiney-

That is an excellent point. I tend to be the type to almost downplay or (this may sound ridiculous) but 'forget' just how bad things really get when I'm not in full-flare-mode... So maybe you're right... and it would certainly make helping guide the leads for my trial stim a lot easier if I were still in full flare like this! I just hope I can make it that long... cuz boy, this is harsh. But your perspective makes it easier to tolerate. Thank you!

Colleen :hug:

and you give it all you got
God is good
listen and pay attention
he is showing himself
in your life in so many ways
look for it
it is as beautiful
as the nose on your face


someone who cares

amen amen amen amen amen amen it needs 10!

Colleen....
 

I'm so sorry the pain has got such a hold on you :(

This is usually when the depression sets in for me.
Keep your eye toward the goal and do whatever you can to get some relief. Sometimes if I can land on a good movie (commercial free!), it'll help to take me outta 'my' world of hurt.... for a bit at least.

Your day is comin :hug:
I pray that God shelters you under His mighty wing, and that relief will come swiftly.

Rae
:hug:

Thanks Rae!
 

Thanks Rae! I'll have to try to pick a good movie and try to do that...just relax. less than a week till my trial, and worse comes to worse, and it doesn't let up till then, at least I'll be all set to help them place the leads perfectly! As my pain is loud and clear! My biggest issue is that I can't get the work done in my apt that I need to, but if it comes down to it, I can always stay at my dad's for the week, as my mom will have my dog for the week anyway. Cuz right now anyway, I'm in no shape to clean ANYTHING! But it makes me feel so lazy... even though I know it's not my fault, it still feels like it sometimes. :(

p.s.
 

that first sentence didn't come out right... I meant I'll have to just try to watch a movie and relax. It sounds like I'm telling you to relax, lol. Sorry Rae! Def didn't mean that!!! :eek:

~Colleen :)

Actually! It would probably do me a world of GOOD if I was told this from time to time! :D I tend to worry over things that really don't matter :rolleyes:

Colleen, PLEASE don't push yourself as you near your procedure!! Your body might end up completely mad at you and revolt! :p I know what you mean tho, I'm the same way.
Just have the mindset that you will be needing help as you recover, so take it graciously when people want to do things for you. Staying at your dad's sounds like a great idea! At least for the first few 'crucial' days, plus you won't be sitting there at your house staring at all the things that 'need done'. It can wait. Then, after the surgical pain lightens up, you'll probably start feeling pretty good since your unit will be covering over your pain.
This is the time to BE VERY CAREFUL! :Clever: Oh YES, take it from ME!
I felt 'good enuf' to convince myself that it was OK to throw a heavy bale of hay to my horses and use an axe to break 6 inches of ice in the pond so my horses could drink!
.......cuz, of course I was 'exempt' from restrictions you see - that stuff only happens to OTHER people! :Doh: yes i paid the price

Rae :rolleyes:

Terrible to Pay the Price....
 

and Not even receive MILES for it......
Yup,
Mark56:hug:

as she is right about it all
i still think i am like a "working horse"
to recoup is precious time lost
as when i feel good i tend to over do it
SHE IS RIGHT

The R&R preacher in the house
 

Colleen,
NOW is the time to rest your mind...NOW is the time to prepare your body (talk to it)...NOW is the time to reflect on your journey...NOW is the time to vision your pain relieved future.

Get my drift...the better you go in the better you come out.
That dirt and mess will wait for you---it will even grow for you...let the world turn without you for a bit...make ready for YOUR changes to come.

I think added to the list of things to get post op...for me would have been restraints.

This lecture comes from someone who suffered terribly from "over doing".

Johanna*

beautifully said
thank you
today i sit and watch my
four children cook
Thanksgiving meal
i taught then well
including Hungarian
dishes
and i get to love my
granddaughter and dog
me i get even more
upset when having to lie
in bed for two or three days
because i over did it
we must remember to enjoy
the days when we feel better than
poop is the time to suck it in
for it never lasts

wishing you a happy Thanksgiving Day!

Oh yes
 

:hug:Yep I totally understand what EVA is saying here. I too tend to OVERDO it when I get started. I keep on going and going and going and then WALLOP I am good for nothing!!! my own fault. A touch of OCD here unfortunately, and of course NOBODY can do it as good as me anyway:eek:....so I might as well just do it myself:rolleyes:

So Colleen....try....just try to take it handy......dont over do it....easier said than done.....but honestly...better in the long run.

Take care

Jackie

I remember the good old days
 

Yep, the week before I would have major open surgery, I would deep clean the house. I mean move the furniture, turn the mattresses etc. :eek: How dumb. My logic was if I did any further damage, the surgeon could take care of it while he was in there. The body needs theraputic care........fresh air, walking if possible and good nutrition. Behave yourself.

Wise Words...
 

Wise words my friends! I have, indeed, pretty much given in to the mess and decided to take it easy...save for the laundry that I'm currently doing (that takes enough of a toll on my body, but I'm literally OUT of clean clothes, so that one I had no choice on). But I'm not allowing myself to go all-out, as I usually do once I get started. It's just not worth it. And you all have helped me keep that in mind- thank you! and Happy Thanksgiving to you all!!!

~Colleen :)

Oh......
 

I have never been gulty of overdoing.......:) and if you believe that whopper, I will TRY real hard to get you to believe I have never overdone it.:eek: The road to recovery is populated by many of us who strive and strive harder to emerge as good as possible from the long course of healing followed usually by physical therapy. My family has become so very adept in the meantime at JERKING my reins or Tattling on me if I appear to be doing too much. This is their "defend Mark" mechanism which is set to keep me from hurting myself in a deha vu all over again moment.

This, I ponder, and realize OK Fine, this frees up more time responding here and lifting up prayer for we who need,
Colleen, this is your thread and your moment of prayer,
Just know you are held securely in the heart of God as prayers are lifted up
ON YOUR Behalf,
So, without overdoing, get ready for what comes,
It will take at least a little healing therafter,
THEN, here is a big dose of Hope all will be well,
Mark56:grouphug::hug: