Here is wishing everyone a good weekend!
 

Hello,

Does anyone have plans this weekend? Things you are thinking about?

I want to clean my house but could be convinced to do something else instead.

Be well.

Mari

That sounds like a good alternative. We are waiting for the weather system to pass to go to an amusement park we have passes for today. A Mothers Day dinner turkey is baked and carved for the Legion Auxillary dinner tonight.

Not sure if I really believe its going to stop raining, or that I really want to go. Grandson is super excited and will do parks in the rain, lol. Maybe we will join them this afternoon.

Have a relaxing one all.
Di. :grouphug:

I am relaxing today. Enjoying some quiet time.

I am really tired and low on energy. Need to figure out how to do
something for that.

My oldest texted me a Happy Mothers day last night at midnight.
About the time he gets off work. And told me if I would like him
to take me out to eat to let him know.

This is a neat thing. Because this son usually remembers mothers
day after the day. He just doesn't think of it before.

My middle son or his girl usually show up on Mothers day with my
present.

Derrick is making breakfast, and he bought me a balloon. Which
is funny because I've been thinking it would be so nice to have one.

And I'm getting one of the ceramic items that is in the art show
next weekend. I haven't seen it yet. But that is okay. When
he was talking about making one, I asked if I could have it and
made are request for the color to be either pink or purple.

Now I can't remember what it is. Heee heee that is my memory.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

donna, sounds like you are already enjoying mothers day!
getting ready to go to the gym then a dinner function tonight. Fancy, music food and fun as our friends will be there.
bizi

Happy Mother's Day
 

Di and Donna, :hug: :hug: :hug:

I hope you each have a happy mother's day! :Heart:
It is beautiful how you both talk about your children with such love. :Heart:

M

Had a great weekend, it was so nice to go to dinner with my oldest, my youngest and my husband.

We went to o'charlies. I had planned to go to a all you can eat. Because my husband and son's all love those places. But I don't but it was just so they
would enjoy the food. I can eat it. And would enjoy it and the company.

But steak places are more a choice for me.

My husband had told my son last night, when the two of them went out
that I don't like that place. And he told me today. That he didn't think
we should go there, because of that.

Wow, my husband has changed a lot.

Donna

ps. We also visited his mother in the nursing home. She hasn't seen
Danny in a while. And his other two brothers were both there. And his
niece. And my SIL's mother. So it was a big nice visit.

:hug::grouphug:

aw that is really nice that your son remembered your day and your husband came through on suggesting what you like... and don't! wow. glad for the big family visit with your MIL that must have been very nice for her.

love

waves

p.s. i love steak houses for eating out. ;)

Hi, Waves,

I hope that you are doing o.k. :)

Mari

hi Mari
 

Hi Mari :):Heart:

overall, i am better than before.

Now, today and yesterday my mood has been way low and I've been in a migraine phase but this one seems light so far (fingers crossed). Just a couple more days and then i'm clear for a couple weeks anyway. This is just run of the mill though.

Other than that, I recently realized I've been having withdrawal sx d/t my benzo switch (to Valium). It was mild at first, and insidious, so it was a couple weeks before I suspected withdrawal. I then up-tweaked my original benzo by a teeny fraction of the amount I'd swapped out, and felt significantly better after 5 days (~1.2 halflives... enough for some re-accumulation). This confirmed my suspicions. It's 7 days from that tweak now; I figure I'll need at very least another week to settle fully. I might have avoided this glitch using a few loading doses of Valium. I'm a little irked that it didn't occur to me, and perhaps even more irked it didn't occur to my doctor (on top of his giving me bogus equivalence values).

Thanks for listening. I don't know why i posted this. Maybe because I have no one who understands this stuff. I think you can possibly relate a bit (I recall your going through worse than I am now), and perhaps get my sense of frustration too, somewhat. I tried talking to my parents but all they see are symptoms and sometimes I get jumped on for it. They do not get how addiction or withdrawal works, nor the fact that even a doctor cannot predict individual reactions for a given drug, nor the fact that "course corrections" take time. I cannot even post the details on forum because I am afraid of being jumped on in one way or another. I would not deal with that well.

I hope your weekend went well. Did you end up cleaning? I had been doing lots of cleaning ... even deep cleaning of some areas. There's lots more cleaning that could be done but I got really fed up. I also needed a break. Did you get a break? You sounded much better in your posts... last week sounded just awful.

Here's wishing you a good week this week. Well, a good rest-of-week. :o

waves

:)

Waves,
Yikes. That was not fun. I am glad that you found a solution to go up a week and stay there for another week.
I discovered that even though the benzos can be discussed as if they are somewhat equivalent, they seem to have different properties as they leave the body. I felt the XAnax leave my body 10 days after pdoc cut it completely (mostly at my urging and added the equivalent klonopin to my already daily dose of K. (The exact day is a little confused in my head because I saw my acupuncturist for a detox treatment that was a little too aggressive in hindsight and I was miserable -- showed up at tdoc's a day later in a major withdrawal syndrome -- i think the withdrawals only lasted 4 days -- prolly due to the acupuncture.
Regarding sharing this with others. No one gets it unless the went through it and remember it. Keep taking care of yourself. You are doing a good job. :)
____
No cleaning. I sobbed and cursed at my tdoc's today. it was early enough in the day that I thought to stop by the beach on the way home. 'Actually went to two beaches-- stopped at one to take pics of plants to text my mom and stopped at another for a chicken gyro at a Greek place on the boardwalk.
The beach is beautiful (and chicken was real --- not like the highly processed stuff in my neighbor hood of over priced junk)
It is 84 degrees, sunny, and breezy at 9 mph winds. We made an appt for me to see her Wed night / tomorrow . . . she said something else that I forget and I told her I have to figure out my bank password to see if I can pay her. I think she and I are mostly on for tom.
'Writing this from my phone. Made a good password guess. Things are good.

Hi, Waves, :heartthrob: :heartthrob: :heartthrob:

Indeed they do.
That is another thing that makes these meds hard to explain to others.
We become learned because we spend so much time studying ourselves.
Occasionally I wonder if I would be different if I had put so much focus and study into something else . . .. . I donno, maybe dance or photography or speechifying or anything else more interesting than what is going on in my own brain/body/ mind.
Mari

Thanks so much for your support and understanding, Mari. :hug::hug:

I am feeling impatient with this benzo thing too, but I do know from experience I MUST pace it out however my body tells me - that's the only ticket to a smooth ride out. It's hard because the withdrawal causes antsiness and, in turn, antsiness(sp?) magnifies the feeling of impatience, LOL. It would be funny if it wasn't irritating?

Interesting observation about how much time we have to invest in "self-study" lol. and yes. but would we have ever had the motivation to put in the same kind of effort on... something else. In my case I don't think I was ever much motivated except in one area - unfortunately the passion that produced the motivation also produced abject fear of failure and finished me before I even started. But ... anyway. I think the effort we put into ourselves and our meds I think is different. It is almost forced on us constantly and we just go with it to whatever extent our mind can withstand.

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The beach sounded beautiful. :) or beaches. I'm so glad you took yourself. ;)

That chicken gyro sounded yumsters too.

waves

glad that you figured out your password!
yay for going to the beaches! that is awesome and it sounds like a perfect day to go: warm alittle breezey, ahhhhhhh!!!!
take me with you next time!
bizi

Beach today at 5:00 p.m.
 

Beach

http://i419.photobucket.com/albums/p...6434b2e290.jpg

a little bit of paradise!
happy that you went!
bizi

Thank you, that is the closest I'm going to get to a beach.

Donna