Hiatus, sort of
 

Hi Everyone,

I just needed a day off but that sort of turned into more of a hiatus between being busy and now some family things going on. I apologize if any of you got worried. I had not intended to stay away a week or whatever without forewarning.

The thing is, at this point, I realize I still might not be here much (or at all) for a while. I am fine, so please do not worry. I'll be back... tomorrow if not today, next week if not tomorrow, ... etc.

I send all of you well wishes. Take care of each other.

((( :grouphug: hugs for the room :grouphug: )))

waves

Something just feels missing when you take a walkabout, hugs.
Di:hug:

so glad you checked in. you were missed.
love
bobby and take as much time as you need.

you have been missed already but we understand.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi, Waves, :hug: :hug: :hug:


:Wave-Hello:

'Good to see you.

Mari

Thanks for checking in.

Waves.


Donna :hug::grouphug::winky::wink::)

My heartfelt thanks to all of you for your warmth and understanding.

You folks are the best. :)

:grouphug:

waves

(((((((HUGS))))))))
bizi:hug:

Think we all noticed
 

Thanks Waves for the note. I love reading your replies. We will be right here when things settle down.

taking a break from my break (and from my day)
 

HI again.

I am jittery right now after a call to my cell provider to try to change my plan because my rates are through the roof. The rep suggested a plan which I said sounded good but I was still asking questions...

I said I'd do some math and then call back (first change is free, but a second would not be). She said they would charge me if I called back. Say WHAT??? :mad: She had already changed my plan! :Doh: I pointed out that I was still asking questions... She ended up being able to "undo" the change, and I verified that I would NOT have to pay if I called to requested one later, but all that hullabaloo got me pretty upset.

Breathe.

So then I hang up and my phone starts beeping with what what felt like an endless stream of text messages. There were only 3 :o. The first said my plan was changed! :eek: Oh great, here we go again!! The next said to reply to it to be contacted for further assistance. Yeah, maybe when hell freezes over. The last thankfully said my old plan had been restored... whew but...

ACKKKKK!!!! :mad: GRRRR!!!!! :mad: Throw pillows! :hissyfit:

Couldn't she have just left well enough alone, given me my info and let me go off and do some arithmetic without having 16 heart attacks first?
:confused:

these people are probably minimum wage earners...could you understand their english or what ever language you speak?
sorry for all of the the frustration.
bizi
:Wave-Hello:

Hi, Waves, :hug: :hug:

These things are frustrating. I understand.

M

(((Thank you, Mari.))) :hug:

Yes. You do understand.

Under most circumstances I would probably have only been mildly irritated, but I have been so tense lately with all that is going on. So yes this exchange and then the reprise with the messages got me quite jumpy.

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Tomorrow I have a dental cleaning - No biggie, except the part of
having to get up in time to make it there by 4pm...

My sleep is all over the place. Today my alarm woke me at 10, I shut it off and fumbled with trying to reset it for later.... I fell asleep trying, so alarm was KO. I woke up spontaenously at 3.30pm. :rolleyes:

Tonight so far I've slept badly on and off for about 3 hours. If I could get another 5 or 6 I should be good. Despite the issues/tension or maybe because of them, I've been needing extra sleep lately.

I have taken a full battery of meds to try to help primary sx and also promote sleep:

• actifed 60/2.5 mg - acute decongestant treatment (sinus involved + the stuff makes me sleepy)
• tizanidine 4 mg - muscle relaxer for tenseness in my neck/back/shoulders + makes me sleepy
• lorazepam 2.5 mg - anxiolytic/muscle relaxer (for nerves about all that is going on + relaxes muscles + makes me sleep)
• (aspirin 500 mg - i was hoping to avoid it but... looks like I could use one)

waves ... sigh.

good luck at the dentist hope they don't find anything on the exrays if you have to have those this visit.
Sounds like you don't feel very good.
Would your mom rub your shoulders if you asked her:? Would that even help?
bizi

Hi Waves. I'm sorry that you have had these aggravations,and muscle tension in the back of the neck area.

I have tension that I can feel going around the top of my ears,the back of my head,and down my neck,and shoulders.

Now it's mostly in my chest area. I realize that I still have tension in my neck area,but it hurts when I have it in my chest. Sometimes it's my whole skeletal muscle structure that's tense. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Waves,

'Wishing you luck waking up and getting to the dentist appt.
Your meds plan I hope helps you.

M

Hi....... (((Bizi, Steve, Mari)))

Thanks I am ok. A bit groggy. Probably half the lorazepam would have been enough (1/2 would be 1.25 mg, i posted the incorrect dose above). I was not getting fast enough results then, and did not have all night to experiment soo... oh well. I am ok / functional. That will suffice.

Bizi, I did rub my own neck/shoulders (mom does not do these things) with an essential oils blend, but it made no difference. There must have been deep tension. Re: appointment - I am only to see a hygenist, but Mom said they might still take some xrays. New one to me, but I am bringing extra money, just in case. I guess each place does things different.

Steve, perchance (this might sound unrelated) are you aware of grinding your teeth at night? I have to wonder about this whole body/skeletal tension... wondering about the Luvox.

Still mentally tense about stuff, but more ok. It helps that my parents got some hopeful news that some things can be sorted out. Still stuff to prep though, and no guarantees though.

Not shredding my cuticles this morning. Just getting ready ... figuring out clothes and travel routes.

Thank you all for your support. I gotta go put clothes on now. (Other clothes. :rolleyes:)

waves

Hi, Waves,


Functional counts as a win. And you readied clothes.
Good luck with your trip and your appoint.

Mari

Hi Waves Oh yes. My dentists have told me for years that I grind my teeth. I've been grinding my teeth since the 70's,or before. Probably all of my life. We all probably grind our teeth on the bipolar forum. It has to do with anxiety.

I've had the Bite guards,but I end up taking them out. I hate having something in my mouth at night. I've had the hard bite guards,and the soft bite guards. I don't know.:confused: BF:hug::hug::hug:

Luvox is good. It definitely helps me with my severe OCD. It breaks up the intolerable OCD tailspin. The torment doesn't go on,and on,and on pertaining to a situation that I may be magnifying all out of proportion,and bigger then life,and irrational. It doesn't take it all away,but the magnitude of the obsession is decreased. I can tell if I miss a dose. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Hi Steve,

Well, anxiety certainly causes some of the other symptoms you mentioned before, but when you said "Sometimes it's my whole skeletal muscle structure that's tense," it made me think of a type of med side effect.

Luvox, Zoloft and other drugs of that class (SSRI) can cause this. when I am on one of those anti-depressants, that is when I get the teeth-grinding and sometimes the full-body muscular stiffness. The teeth-grinding is an earlier symptom for me. These symptoms show up only at the beginning or during a dose increase; they may persist if the dosage is too high.

I know you have taken Luvox a long time, so you are probably safe, but would you discuss these things with your doctor next time you see her? She may want to ask if you have other symptoms... just a thought.

Thanks for your support, and keep taking good care of yourself. :circlelove:

waves

Hi Waves! Good to read you. Really miss ya, my voice of reason.
Everyone, you are all my dear friends, love ya all so much!

This is not my meds,cause I never refilled anything for months but every ounce of my being a is mini level of emotionally anxious. A fleeting panic, I know I really should take the Lexapro and know it's the best for me.
I haven't even taken the thyroid or simvastin....not even pain meds.

No wonder I feel the unhappy jitteriness. I want whimper......:o

Thank you Waves. The problem with tension in my whole skeletal muscle structure mostly happened after sitting for a while during a seminar,and when I would get up,I'd find that my knees where sort of locked up with muscle tension,and I'd notice tension all over my body.

When I'm around a great crowd of people I don't respond very well. I dreaded the auditorium in school. I sit in the back row of most places that I go. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Take thy meds, Di! ;) :hug:

(Thus spake thy voice of reason! :D)

Ahhh, ok. That does not sound med-related! :D

Aww, I am sorry, Steve. :hug::hug:

Yes. It's a situation of being in crowds of people. I don't do that very well. Working in a Supermarket for 14 years helped me to overcome some of that kind of stress. I surely learned allot about people in general. Theirs allot of bullying in this line of work. If I don't,and didn't forgive them,and have peace about it,I'd hate them. Hate and/or bitterness is all wrong,and I try to resist it. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Di, :hug: :grouphug: :hug: :grouphug:


:confused: :(

Get yourself back on track please. I am worried about you.

M

Di. Please take your medicines. I don't want you to crash emotionally. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Thanks all, I was just in such a spin.i called to get the refills and going to get a 4 week dispenser so I don't forget. I know I will feel so much better. My dh is too self absorbed to even mention or ask what is wrong or what will help my sadness.......some of it is him, how he complains about my boys. I don't need the trash mouthing :(

And, I don't like the generic Lexapro.....makes me have insomnia. Guess I should suck it up and look for a better Plan D for medications.
You all are gems!
:grouphug:
Di

Hi, Di,

You are going to feel better!!

The four week planner will help.

Do whatever you can to take care of yourself. :hug: :hug: :hug:

M

What I do is put all of my doses of medications in trays so that I don't forget to take the meds. I usually know when I've missed a dose.

We care about you Di. I hope that you feel better soon. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Services aren't really services
 

Waves I get it. I did the same thing w fios. They turned on free HBO for so many mos because I was thinking about turning off cable. They say they will turnoff the free channels (I don't watch HBO and would rather not have it) and I won't be charged a cent. This is how I get in trouble because I forget to make sure they turned it off and aren't charging my bill.....I should have left things alone.

love you di!
bizi:hug:

Thank you for relating, TBI/PTSD. :) Good luck dealing with the cable people. I have gotten snagged by those "with our compliments (until it shows up on your bill" stunts before, and forgetting to cancel in time... sigh. Service... yearright. Ripoff, more like it.

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Di, good job getting the dispenser and I hope you feel better soon. :hug:

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