I think about you so often
 

I have you all in my mind, all the time...

I remember all our talks, the serious ones, the random ones, the funny ones...

I keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

My life has been a real mess for the past months. I tried to avoid people. Even my family. Felt better for a while, but, then, I went back to school, to talk to my family, etc.. and, well, everything has been problems, problems and problems....

Right now Im so stressed with school stuff. IM SO TIRED. I gave them some documents on time, they lost them and now they wont let me signing in for the semester.... THIS IS DRIVING ME CRAZY !!!! :( It is unfair and stressful....

And so many more things like this.... but anyway, wont bother you with a long post complaining about my miserable life.

I just wanted to say hi, to check on you and, to let you know I love you so much.

Majo.

Oh blue, so sorry that they lost your stuff. so frustrating.
sorry that you are having these problems.
thank you for stopping by. We miss you
bizi

Hey Blue. I'm so sorry. We all relate to what you are saying. Have you seen a councilor recently? Don't blame yourself for mental health issues. You inherited this like the rest of us. I got worse steadily from when I was about 5,through 22,and then more later. I'm more stable,but I fight these issues all of the time.

I'm sorry Blue. Hang in there. We all love you. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Thank you for your support friends :hug: :hug:

Im so ****** right now.... I have to go back tomorrow to keep arguing about those silly documents... Surreal.

I have got a stiff neck thanks to this... Argh.

I hate the fact that I do everything to try to avoid/manage stress and suddenly: BOOM ! Things out of me or my hands happen and Im the worst managing stress that comes suddenly and it is others fault ! Insane... :(

Hi Majo!

So sorry to hear of all the troubles. It's nice to see you though. I think about you all the time and wonder how you are.

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Thank you beautiful ! :hug:

Hey Blue. I know about the stiff neck problem very well. I use to get them all of the time. Now it's a pain in the chest. When I had stiff neck problems,I could hardly move my neck one way,or the other. It usually happened to me in crowds of people. Those neck muscles would stiffen up,and the more I thought about it,the stiffer my neck became. I'm use to having somewhat of a stiff neck now. The stiffness would sometimes affect the whole skeletal muscle system.

I hope that you feel better. BF:hug::hug::hug:

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Hugs to you, Majo.

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i am so glad you checked in even through you are going through such difficult times. i hope your neck feels better. we all love you
love
bobby

Uff, stiff muscles are horrible huh ? I think Im getting used to Steve.... and now that you mention it, I think I too get chest pain now when Im "in panic"... I thought it was my gastritis but, now that I think about it, it could be something else.... oh well. :hug:

Mary !!! haha, you know how much I love your emoticons right ? haha, you always make me smile :hug:

Thank you dear Bobby :hug:

:Wave-Hello: G'day to you, blue.
I think about you often too.

The stiffness is maybe stress related.

Ahh, the trials and tribulations of a student life.
My daughter's last semester for the year just started last week and the lecturer messed up all the readings and didn't reply to emails and in the end she posted the page numbers and gave 60 students one day to go to the library to read certain pages from some rare Dutch books. Problem being we live over 100 k from this particular library and there are only 2 of these books in that library. blah blah blah :rolleyes: What a mess!

All that aside, I hope you are able to get it all sorted out. ;)

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Hi there, blue! I figured that something was up, because I didn't see you much on Facebook, and I'e been wondering about you. I'm so sorry things have hit some bumps lately, but hopefully, you'll be free of at least some of them soon.

Just remember that I am rooting for you, and think about you often. Now I will be praying for you often, too. :hug:

Tare care of yourself...one foot in front of the other....:heartthrob:

Oh my... Lara, that is so unfair ! Teachers can be so unfair, really... I think I will be able to sort things out (finally !) tomorrow and Im sure my stiff neck will feel better.... Ugh.

Jacquieeeeeeeeeee !!!!! :hug: Thank you for your post ! I have missed you lots !! :hug:

Hey Blue

You would show up while my computer was down. But I'm so glad
you checked in.

Remember you have a whole room behind you. Not many can
say that.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Thank you Donna ! I missed you LOTS. :hug:

Yesterday was such a horrible day at the lab... I have been working with 2 cell lines... both were supposed to be from neuroblastoma patients.... I have been writing the paper I have to send to an international mag to get my degree... and now when I was about to finnish.... BOOOM !!!!!

We sent the cells to get genetically analyzed to corroborate they were what they were supposed to be, "just as a control".... YES !? One cell line is indeed a neuroblastoma, the other one: EMBRYONIC KIDNEY !!!!!!!!!!!!! :eek: I seriously thought my boss was going to pass out or something... surprisingly, I was soooooooo d*mn calm.... I think my meds and the exercise I have been doing are worling perfectly right now... She then started talking on how we have to publish all my work but with sense, and she sent me to my desk to read and study how could I merge both cell types... like, why would it be important to study precisely those 2 cell lines.... Thank God I had and illumination and quite quickly I have to say, I came up with the perfect "story" on why we would like to study those 2 cells.... BUT OH MY.... it was close to having to do all I have done in the last 5 years AGAIN !!!!!!! :eek:

I think Im feeling it finally today... I slept like 13 hours last night without interruption AND today I have a nasty headache.... but, well, for every problem there is a solution....

And... actually, I think my experiments make more sense now.... :o

Majo,

Congratulations on coming up with a creative rationale on your "choice" (erhemm :D) to study embryonic kidney cells alongside neuroblastoma cells. And congratulations on staying calm. Both those things are really big. You deserve a trophy. No, an immediate PhD for each of those. No, trophies and PhDs. :D

Cool that your experimeents make mmore sense now... I imagine you got some surprising results at times. Happens when the premises are off, but so frustrating!

You sound good in the midst of the troubles and discomforts you are experiencing. I am so glad you are reaping the benefits of the exercise and meds.

Take care :heartthrob:

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You sound great actually!
you handled that so well.
good for you for exercising and taking better care of yourself.
thanks for keeping us updated.
bizi

Majo,

That is the wildest thing in the world -- such weirdness.:rocket:

You are doing great.

Mari

Thank you for your support and love ladies !!! :hug: :hug:

Mari ! Haha, I know right ? I was thinking about how weird life is and how we propose but God, destiny, luck, you name it, decide the end of our "choices"... Haha :)

Congrats on coming up with a brilliant solution! ! So proud of you!

Haha ! I degree on luck would be fabulous ! :) :D

Im going to "scape" 3 days from the lab... well, 4 actually as friday we are flying back home...
I need to forget about all this for at least some days.... Im going to lie... I will say Im sick :o :rolleyes: Im taking mom to Las Vegas.... I feel excited for being able to take her with me, BUT, Im stressed... I Want her to feel comfortable all the time, to be happy, I worry about her diabetes, etc.... Im stressed more than excited to be honest... :rolleyes:

I really, really, really want to take my teddy bear with me BUT, would I look too stupid ? :rolleyes:

Oh well :o

Love you !!!! :hug:

Oh, have fun with your mom in Las Vegas! :)

And take your Teddy if you want him! Put him in a bag if you are worried. But I figure, anyone who would think you look silly with a teddy bear is likely to assume he isn't yours. ;) And plus anybody who thinks it is silly is a sad case.

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Have fun with your Mum in Vegas, Blue.
People travel with their pillows and all sorts of things all the time so I wouldn't worry about your teddy bear. :)

Thank you girls ! I think I will try to put him in my backpack... He'd better fit ! :)

Im stressed hehe. Im sure once there, it wil be fun :)

have a great time blue!
I used to have a travel bear that I took with me, small bear, used to sleep with him at night. now I just bring my pillow!
((((HUGS))))
to you
bizi

Yes, the stress will subside after you catch the plane, hehe. Probably once you are in the air you'll be fine. In fact better than fine. :) :)

(((hugs)))

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Im pretty bad handling the stress the day before the travel.... :o

I need the teddy to sleep indeed :) I checked and he fits in back pack ! Phew :o

So, one week off the lab... I didnt go today either... Im so tired of it...

I havent told you this, but Im so disappointed about everything about it...
We have to publish and article to an international magazine to get the degree... Well, the mags have different impact factors, the higher the better and of course, harder to get an article there... Well, I always worked hard because I wanted my work posted in an important mag... And recently, I discovered pretty lame works, full of mistakes and lies posted in important mags :( That made me feel pretty bad... Like, what for !? Why !? What's this ? What's really important in science then ? I was so down for weeks and then, the thing about my cells happened... Like, well, I need some peace I guess... while I get motivated about my science life again.... :(

Majo,

I understand your indignation at thosee discoveries.

Good work has intrinsic value, though. Working hard likee you are doing breeds good training, and it will eventually reward you. It may happen by way of notoriety, or simply with results... enabling you do do something that you otherwise could not.

Enjoy the week's breather. It is more than deserved. :)

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Thank you sister. You always encourage me to continue in this path, working... :)

Love you.

Hugs for everyone.

Happy Birthday Blue! Do something fun today! :hug:

Just wanted to wish you a happy birthday...again!
bizi

Happy Birthday to you! I hope it was a good one.

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Happy Birthday Girl!!!

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Thank you very much beautiful people !!!

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