October , time for a new thread
 

:D just wanted to kidd Bizi :D

Hi mom! thank you!!!! I forgot!!!!!
love to you
bizi

139 this am. Losing weight seems easy for me this time.
I need to get back to going to the gym and jogging if I am going to do the 10k next month.
Need to get off my butt!
bizi

Go for it bizi, we are right behind you.

Dave.

You're doing so well already!!! I have no doubt you can do it!!! :)
Congratulations on all your weight loss :)

Congrats on the weight loss.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I sort of "outed" myself on face book tonight by posting a video about bipolar.
Wonder if anyone will notice????
bizi

Now I get it...
I read my thread first and had no idea what you were talking about.

That took guts, but anyone worth knowing won't care. I'm sure people just don't know how to respond. It's not like you're instantly going to get 100 "Congratulations!" because you posted "I'm pregnant!" People are actually going to have to put some kind of thought behind it.

I'm proud of you :)

Do you want them to notice?

I am on Facebook for work, so um, no. I could not do that.
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On both my Mom's and my Dad's sides I have several cousins officially diagnosed as bipolar.
One cousin was locked up involuntarily for eleven months.

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I recently heard of another diagnosis:
My cousin's daughter is bipolar and pregnant and being treated with meds from a psychiatrist.


M

Thank you!
The short and sweet video I posted was on facebook.
And yes I wanted the support of my family but did not get it....sigh...
140.5 this morning.

day 47 alcohol free.

Last night hubby and I went to whole foods to meet a friend
(in the bar)and eat dinner off their food bar, I had Indian pork and grilled veggies, egg plant, squash, onions and mushrooms.
Both were delicious.
I drank water in the bar....
Trivia started at 7 and went until 9pm.
I am miserable at trivia, jeff thought he was good but turned out he wasn't. lol.

I was starting to get "itchy" not drinking the wonderful craft beers they had there. (One of the reasons I drink is to deal with my social anxiety issues) Mystery romp is my favorite, a coffee/chocolate porter...they serve it on tap along with 12 other craft beers. The woman who sat directly beside me was drinking it at my suggestion...she liked it....sigh....

Jeff is at an antique/sports car drive this morning. They drive around their cars in different areas then will probably have lunch somewhere.

I get my hair highlighted this after noon. Hopefully it will not take 6 hours like last time to go from black to strawberry blond.
My hair is damaged from all of the processing and now the heat from curling it the past 2 weeks.

I am sleeping better, no restless legs from the decrease in klonipin that I had for 3 days following a reduction.
Down to .13mg at night. Will discontinue it completely next weekend. knowing that the restless legs movement may come back again.
It is awful to not be able to sleep because you feel that you have to move your legs. and "flop" around like Jeff pointed out to me...poor guy!

I called and left a message for my friend Susan to see if she wanted to do some anti football activity tonight. Our husbands are going to the game this afternoon/evening. I am hoping that she will want to watch a movie. She is unemployed and back to being very depressed.
They are barely making it on one income.

4 of my friends are looking for work in this bad economy.

We were going to do a scary halloween attraction last night but my left knee hurts for some reason so maybe we will do that next weekend.

There is a festival this weekend. We are going tomorrow, cajun/zydeco music and arts and crafts booths, wonderful food booths. Should be fun and nice weather. We may even try to dance!!!!



I wore my newly monogramed uniform top yesterday. It is more feminine and I received many compliments from my friends and hubby liked it as well.

New phone number, new hair, new business cards, new uniforms, new meds.

Changes can be for the good!
Thank you for reading!
bizi

I am showing signs of a small bit of hypomania.
Must keep an eye on myself.:o
bizi

Sending you good thoughts on the hypomania.

My son is having that problem today also. Luckily right now his is mainly
making him silly. Which is handleable. Just hoping he doesn't get angry next.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

It is like I have developed a bit of ADD.
bizi

Day 50 AF....half way to 100!
It has been easy. Thank goodness.
139.5 this am.
Eating healthy and organic foods when possible!:)
bizi
Not sleeping well the past few days...waking up every hour...sigh:(

Bizi

Have a good day today.

You sound like you are doing well. :D

M

Bizi

When I'm waking up every hour or so. I have lots on my mind, that
isn't letting me sleep. Or know that I have to get especially
Derrick somewhere early and afraid I'll sleep over.

Good luck starting to sleep better.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Good for you for resisting those tempting craft beers on trivia night and congrats on being halfway to your 100 day AF goal!

It sounds like a lot of good things are happening right now!

I hope the hypo turns out to be relatively benign.

Kay

Thank you!

On day 52 alcohol free this morning.

Meeting some friends for lunch today...going to a place I have never been to called Grub. I always enjoy their company....my lunch bunch from sandras the health food cafe that we met at a few years ago.

I stretched this morning and pulled a muscle for crying out loud!!!!!!
Geesh my body is falling apart.
arthritis in my neck and back and hips I believe....
oh well I guess I will just age gracefully.
Does complaining mean gracefully????:eek:

I got up early to make homemade chilli to put in the crock pot for dinner tonight.
Unusual for me....
We are having company, my new friend from NAMI and her hubby are coming over at 6pm.
I really like her and this is the first person who is bipolar that I have become friends with in real life that is...:)
She is a nurse also. Her hubby is disabled due to severe peripheral neuropathy in his feet....they are on fire most of the time..poor guy.
I made a small fruit salad last night: chopped up a pear, an apple, mixed in key lime yogurt, and a few raspberries on top.
I will serve the chilli with shredded cheddar cheese and sour cream and an avocado. I bought half a cherry pie and cut that into 4 pieces already. I like to have the majority of the food prep done early if I can because I never know for sure how long my day will last at work.

My new pants came in and I washed them last night and they came out wrinkled....grrr!
I will have to iron them this weekend.

My cousin is coming next week to visit.
Raju is a flight attendant and loves the free travel!
He is due in friday afternoon and we are going to go to the "fright trail" halloween attraction. We have never been to this one, it sounds scary!
He will spend the night and Saturday. Hopefully (if the weather permits), we will go kayaking at lake Martin swamp.
It is beautiful there and only 30 minutes from our home.

My best friend's hubby got laid off from his job in the oil field...I feel really badly for them. Now they are both looking for work...he is delusional thinking that he will become a Realtor in this bad market. She has been a stay at home mom for the past 10 years(except for a one year teaching job at the private school her 9 year old daughter attends. She interviewed for 2 different medical coding jobs yesterday even though she does not have any experience. I told her the ICD codes have all changed this year so maybe that doesn't matter. We will see.

I had lunch at my house with my friend Susan yesterday, we ate left over beef lentil stew.
It was good.
She did not talk about looking for work at all.
She only talked about her college age daughter needing a very expensive jaw surgery that is not covered by insurance...ouch!
Her hubby is a college professor teaching trumpet and best friends with my hubby.
She should be very concerned about her being out of work....they are struggling, Paul says she needs to start working now!
That is 4 of my friends looking for work.

I am very thankful for my job!

My hair is high lighted now and looks strawberry blondish. I have been curling it and it looks better now.
It was black just 5 weeks ago.
I have been shocking my elderly clients.
They all like it.
Hubby likes it too.

I saw in the news today about supplements have caused multiple deaths. Jeff said to me this morning that he may stop taking them...
I will keep taking mine. I feel that I need them.

Well I had better get going
Have a good day!
bizi

It sounds like you're going to be a very busy woman in a good way :)

I'm so sorry for all your friends who are out of work. The economy is much worse than the government is reporting it to be... I hope your friends find good jobs soon.

I'm sure that a lot of the people who died due to the supplement use you mentioned died because they were taking supplements they didn't tell their doctor they were taking and they either aggravated a medical condition or interacted with a med (I even put ibuprofen and colace on my med list). They also could have been taking too much, or have been taking a supplement made by a shady manufacturer.

I hope that pulled muscle feels better. Ouch. You can age gracefully and complain. You complain gracefully :)
Kay

thanks kay

my dinner went well. We had enough to eat.
$20 dollars fed 4 hungry people!
Chili with cheese and sour cream.
apple and pear and raspberries with yogurt salad
Corn bread muffins
avocado
cherry pie( only I ate a piece, others were full)

Hubby went out to talk about a grant and drink beer.
I think I will take a shower then do some ironing.
bizi

We went to "Downtown Live" last night.
There was a blues guitarist( JImmy Vahn..think that is how you spell it. Stevie ray vahns son) playing at the free outdoor event that drew thousands of people because there was also a preview of the Antique and hot rod cars showing. And the clydsdales budwieser horses have been in town all week. We were lucky to see them loading back up into their trailers up close and personal.:)
Beautiful horses!!!!!
The cars were awesome!!!
The main car show is today at the blackum collisium.
I might go by myself if jeff doesn't want to come along.

He watered the ground last night and this morning so that he will be able to put the tombstones up in the yard. It has been so dry the dirt was like concrete. It is working so he is able to use a screw driver to pound the holes into the dirt. He has 20 and more tombstones, I have lost tract for the cemetery in front of the house. I bought 5 more this year to add tothe collection.
It is his favorite time of the year.
He only decorates for halloween, not christmas.

My friend susan is coming to dinner tonight as her hubby is out of town playing a trumpet gig. I invited her last night.
We are having lemon pepper sauteed Talapia and quinoa soup and steamed mixed veggies.
She has a 5 1/2 hour rehearsal for the Symphony being performed tomorrow at a beautiful Cathedral. She is trying to get us complimentary tickets to the show at 3 pm.
I asked her if she was going to the NAMI support group meeting sunday at 6...I think she will go too.
Her job search is not going well.

My best friend who is also looking for work had a job interview for a medical coding position. It only pays $11 an hour which would be the lowest paying job she has ever had but is desperate to start working. That is about $1200 a month after taxes and would not even cover the mortgage.
Her husband is finally showing some concern about the whole situation.

Personally, I continue to feel ADD. It is difficult to pay attention while driving. I almost got into a car accident the other day. Geesh, it would have been my fault too. Jeff had been drinking so I drove lastnight and backed into the curb while parallel parking. Thankfully, no harm was done to the tires.

Ironed and wore my new scrubs yesterday. They felt so comfortable...like pajamas. They wore well and hardly wrinkled thru out the day which is good...more professional looking even though there is not an ironed center crease.
I am happy with them!:)

After a lunch of chicken and sausage gumbo, I might actually go to the gym and walk on the tred mill for 2 hours to see if I can walk for 6.2 miles
( a 10 K), in preparation for the cajun cup that is happening next month. I have not signed up for it yet. After NOT jogging like I planned due to a thigh injury back on Memorial day, I am so discouraged to even try to think about doing it again this year. I walked/jogged it last year with a girl friend of mine.
I don't know if she has been training for it or not.
I have one month to train for it.

So my plan for the day:
lunch, iron scrubs, Car show, Tred mill, dinner at 6.
Sounds like a great day to me!
Thank you for reading and have a great weekend.
bizi

After lunch ironing took longer than anticipated soooooo
I decided to go to the gym tomorrow and am going to the car show now. Jeff encouraged me to go and buy our friend a t shirt and the show is only open today. I will be back by 5;45 to start cooking dinner for susan.
bizi

Just got back from the car show which was fun! sent pictures to our friend Dan in Indiana...purchased a t-shirt for him as well as a dvd and a couple of stickers...these will be his christmas presents.... one person done!:)
bizi
Jeff put all of the 26 tomb stones out it looks great!

Bizi
You guys have accomplished a lot for this year's decorating.

That is cool about a present for a guy who likes cars and car shows.

Have a good day Sunday.

M

Great day so far.
got up early then had 2 cups of coffee. read the newspaper got dressed went to breakfast...had 3 scrambled eggs with spinach and a side of black bean salsa to top off the eggs. Delicious this morning!
I finally went to the gym(planet fitness) and walked on the tred mill for 65 minutes averaging 3.5 mph for a total of 3.61 miles. Afterward, they let me use their hydo massage bed. It was great!
beautiful weather sunny and 70's. Hubby is still working on halloween decorations, grave yard went in yesterday....26 tombstones lol
We are getting ready to go to the symphony, I think Vivaldi.
I need to get changed. Have a great rest of your sunday!
bizi

It sounds like you had a great weekend Bizi!

Did you catch the X-Files Revival animated promo they've been airing on Fox? You can catch it on IMDB.

Kay

hi kay, we don't have cable or dish.
I think my short term memory is getting better.
bizi

Kay, that is cute.


Bizi, here is the free 20 second promo:
http://www.imdb.com/video/imdb/vi1834857241/

Mari, thanks for putting up that link for Bizi :)

I'm glad your short term memory is getting better, even w/ the ADD like sx...
How is that going btw?

Thanks for the link Mari!...I want more!!!!!:)
Thanks for asking Kay.
I am definitely different.
I feel more in tune. I am paying closer attention to things. I am responding/talking more naturally/freely. My social anxiety issues are gone. I feel like I am feeling more emotions...and relating to people better. And taking more pride in my appearance. Pressing my uniforms...curling my hair.

However...I am still noticing that I am easily distracted when driving...looking at all of the signs on the side of the road...noticing every one of them...really looking at them.

Hubby said he did not notice any difference in me...
I guess that is good.
I don't think I am hypomanic...just different.
bizi

It's good that you are noticing the difference. Is it easier to correct yourself while driving now that your realize that?

I'm glad that you don't feel like you're hypo and Jeff isn't noticing any signs either. From all your posts, he sounds like a good husband :)

thanks kay.
He is a great guy.
bizi

I am going to take a much needed shower. I have been avoiding that for almost a week. Yesterday I was going to take one but for the 3rd day in a row, I turned off my alarm when it went off and went back to bed.
I over slept 45 minutes each day.:eek:
And then when I got up I got on the computer and lost track of time and only had 10 minutes to get ready...so I did not curl my hair, it looked slept on.
Oh well.
My restless legs is getting pretty bad.
I flopped and kept my husband up. He told me this morning. We had gone to bed early because he had to get up at 4am to take a guest artist to the airport. Poor guy.
Must get off of here and take that shower!:o
bizi

You must be needing that extra sleep Bizi... Your restless leg syndrome is no doubt interrupting your sleep cycle :hug: I heard it feels like my parasthesias, which can be terrible, you need an extra :hug:
Poor Jeff losing sleep, too, but I'm sure he understands you're not doing it on purpose.

And I'm sure that your clients aren't paying any attention to your hair. They're probably just happy to see you every day.

I hope you have a good shower, and a great day.

Kay

Bizi,

Is the restless leg from the missing Klonopin?


I hope that you gto the shower. I am getting mine every five days or so with no hand washing in betweeen. It is all or nothing these days for me apparnetly.

M

Hi mari,
thank you for sharing....

Not sure about the restless legs. Last time I had them was a long time ago and klonipin took that away.
I don't know if it hypomania agitation....could be..????
Can't remember if I told you that I have neck issues.
And have been having pain and headaches and shoulder muscular pain,
so tomorrow I see a chiropractor for the first time in a very long time...never for my neck issues which I have had for a long time it has just gotten worse in the past week or so.I used to crack my neck all of the time and slowly over time I have not been able to do that. Now not at all. It is like I am frozen. I also used to recently cracked my lower back and hips but now that is changed...So I am all screwed up.

So I hope I have some relief soon.
bizi

Anything involving the brain is the most likely culprit for the restless legs...
My guess it's the agitation setting it off, and your klonopin isn't there to help. Is it worse this time?

Any injury/insult caused at the level of the brain or below can cause symptoms anywhere below that level... but it usually would result in a more sustained movement disorder unless you have an underlining disease. So I think the neck issues are out as a cause of the RLS.

I had to have a fusion at C5-6 and still have 2 herniated discs in my neck. That is a tough place to have pain! I'm so sorry Bizi! :hug::hug::hug:

I hope the chiropractor helps. Massage is a good adjunct.

I hope you feel better soon :hug::hug::hug:

Kay

Thank you kay.
Went to bed around 11pm and I did not have the restless legs at all last night....I slept well until 5 am when I woke up and could not get comfortable and then just got up.
My neck still bothers me but not as bad as yesterday.
Am still going in this morning at 10:45.
I worry about how much this will cost me as we have a high deductible....
So I will be paying out of pocket.
sigh....

I have this chimichurri (think garlic and pasley) hemp tofu to use for dinner tonight.
I found a recipe for it, pumpkin seeds and squash.
Sounds good.
A vegetarian dish that hubby knows nothing about.
He will be surprised.
Am hoping we enjoy it so I can cook with it again.
We should be eating more vegetarian dishes to save money and it is better health wise too.
Have a great day!
bizi
We are going to a halloween attraction tonight the fright trail, here locally. It is supposed to rain all weekend. We were going Sunday to baton rouge to see the big attraction "the 13th gate". We have gone for many years now...
We will either bring umbrellas or go later on in the week.
Tomorrow we will elect a new governor along with 7 other spots open. Hopefully there will be a big turnout...never know the rain may keep people away.

Sure hope it helps Bizi.

I had neck issues a few years ago. So bad my neck wouldn't move.
So I had to have shots and then a procedure which I've forgottens
name. Its been many years. And I'm hoping to keep it continuing.

I've already gone past what is considered normal.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Well the chimichurri hemp tofu was interesting.
had the consistency of eggs.
Hubby said he thought it was good...don't know that I believe him.
very different than what we have had before.

We went to the fright trail tonight. It was fun!
Waited for about 1 1/2 hours in line then half an hour to walk thru the 20 acre trails/forest.

I went to the chiro this am.
Was aggravated because I waited so long and told him when he came back.
He worked on me and was able to crack my neck a little and my back a bit too.
I think he does a good job but going too long between clients....switching rooms etc.
going to watch x-files
hope I sleep thru the night tonight.
bizi