Please give me encouragement.
 

I'm worried about my situation. Could my life fall quietly between the cracks? I forgot how painful :thud: life becomes when I feel this way. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I hate that you're feeling this way right now BF :hug::hug::hug:

Are you worrying about new or worsening medical or psych problems?

Do you feel like you are being forgotten about by your doctors, those in your life, or do you worry about being forgotten about in general?

I know that you have often said that you feel alone. I think it's natural when you're isolated to contemplate your place in life :hug::hug::hug:

You always have a place here. We notice your presence and we feel your absence. You are a part of this community. You are loved. :hug::hug::hug:

Kay

I am sorry that you are feeling this way friend.
Have you ever been one to get out side and walk in nature or could you go to a dog park? Have you thought about volunteering at the animal shelters where you can get out?
I am sure there are other volunteer opportunities if you look for them.
sorry it is so hard.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Hi, Friend,

Stay hopeful.

I hope that you can find a place where you are comfortable and doing well.

M

Sending hugs
Kay, is right we notice your absence. So keep posting.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I do feel like I'm being forgotten. I don't want to mention any specifics.

I was up all night, and I cried. I got a couple of hours of sleep a little while ago. I woke up with a really bad headache.

I feel a little better right now. I'm going to throw myself into a project. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Friend,

Yes to throwing yourself into a project.
:hug::hug::hug:

M

I am sorry you felt forgotten, hope that was not us.:(
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

BF,

Just a thought......Many towns, villages have a Community House. When I look on the internet the name of my town adding Community House programs to it; sites show the programs we have like activities, events, trips, etc., etc. You might want to try looking one up in your area. There are so many things that might be of interest to you. You might have to really push yourself.

Praying for you.

Gerry

My project sort of failed, and I damaged the equipment. Then I obsessively tried to fix it. Hours went by, and I didn't realize it. I fell asleep, and had a vivid nightmare. I just woke up, and I have another headache.

I'm a emotional mess. Thank you all for the encouragement. I've been through worse. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I am sorry your project did not work.
hoping that you can get back to sleep asap.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hi Bizi. No. I haven't been active on here recently. I usually come here once every day, or two to see if I have had any messages.

It's something that I would not have peace about if I posted it.

My imaginations are running wild right now. I'm going to get something to eat, and try to pull myself together. BF:hug::hug::hug:

:hug::hug::hug:
bizi

I went out to the post office box to send a bill payment even though it's late. Now that I'm home, I feel a little sick in my stomach. I haven't eaten yet. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Friend,

Take care of yourself. I hope you have have some good moments. :) :)

M

I think it is normal for us to have some physical issues when something doesn't go our way and you had this experience. sorry that you are not feeling well.
bizi

BF;
Sometimes when we are down, without realizing it, we begin to isolate ourselves. I pray you get the strength to get out; some place like I previously mentioned, a Community Center or some thing that involves being with people. The more you stay in and alone, the worse it can get. I've been there myself.

Gerry

can you start going to church and meditate. i don't how far away one is. maybe you will find somebody who also feels lonely and isolated and is turning to God.
I know i am being stupid by not going to the senior center today. I am using being too tired as an excuse.
Hope you are cuddling your new kiitty cat a lot.
hugs
bobby

I thank you all for the replies. I'm feeling a little better right now. I don't know which way my emotions will go. It's a scary thing not having control of panic disorder, depression, and anxiety. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Someone's action toward someone else was the (((trigger))) to this emotional upheaval. I felt frightened that it could happen to me down the road. Then I wonder what's going to happen to me down the road. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I wish that you did not have to worry so much.....
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Me to. It hit me like a tidal wave. I cannot explain obsessive-compulsive thoughts. I wish that I didn't have these mental health issues.

We live in a society where they are not compassionate in general to people who live with mental health issues,unless it's a (((special))) tv program,or something. Then the media expresses a general sense of negativity about people with mental health issues, and a lack of concern for them. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Are you still taking levox?
Are you allowed to increase the dose if it gets bad?
maybe it doesn't work that way...don't know.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

"Someone's action toward someone else was the (((trigger))) to this emotional upheaval. I felt frightened that it could happen to me down the road. Then I wonder what's going to happen to me down the road." BF

In general, I worry about what will happen to me down the road because of all of my mental health issues. Being in the psych hospital around other patients was particularly hard. But I know I have good providers now, and I do everything I can within my power to make sure I'm getting the best care possible, and I have to leave the rest in God's hands. My outcome will be much better than I sometimes allow myself to think when my anxiety's really high and I engage in catastrophic thinking.
I know you have fight in you too, you also have a good psych team behind you, and you also find comfort in your faith in God. I hope that these thoughts can give you some moments of relief :hug::hug::hug:


"It hit me like a tidal wave. I cannot explain obsessive-compulsive thoughts. I wish that I didn't have these mental health issues.

We live in a society where they are not compassionate in general to people who live with mental health issues,unless it's a (((special))) tv program,or something. Then the media expresses a general sense of negativity about people with mental health issues, and a lack of concern for them." BF

I don't know the extent of the situation that triggered you, or how close the two parties are to you. But obviously this situation hit home to you for some reason even though it's not an imminent threat. So, it's increased your anxiety and has caused some catastrophic thinking on your part and your OCD is abusing you (like it likes to do to us) by recirculating the thoughts repeatedly… I'm so sorry you've been in such pain… I know how unrelenting these thoughts can be at times :hug::hug::hug:

I wish none of us had to deal with mental health issues. I have been pushed to my limits over the last year+ and there's been a great deal of bending, but I haven't broken. We're all fighting.

I've dealt with a great deal of rejection due to my mental illness, probably in a lot more obvious way because of the s/s attempt. There are medical doctors who are uncomfortable with patients who have the serious mental health issues/history I do. Unfortunately my mental illness has become a big part of my life and I can't be close to people who can't handle that. As a result, I'm pretty isolated. I do wonder if those people ever think of me at all anymore though…

I hope that with a little time, you're able to reframe this situation/possibility in your mind so that it doesn't hold as much power over you. Hopefully between that and help from meds, your anxiety and OCD will let up and give you some relief :hug::hug::hug:

You'll be in my thoughts.

Kay

Steve
I'm reading, I just don't have much to add. Everyone has good thoughts.

I really understand depression, and Anxiety.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I'm on the maximum strength of Luvox. I'm on four different medications now for my depression/anxiety/panic/OCD,and etc. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Hi Kay. That is the problem. People can't seem to handle my illness, and they don't understand, comprehend ,or get it.

Because of this I spend a lot of time alone because I can't stand the pain of being judged, and/or mistreated by people anymore. They don't want me around, and are not interested in my hobbies.

At best I keep mostly silent about my emotional struggles because people don't want to hear about it at all. If mentioned, people stay away, and/or treat me like a second class citizen for the most part.

I can't relax around people.

I sometimes worry, "What if I'm kicked out, and end up living on the streets"!!!

Some people with emotional problems end up on the streets. What a tragic, and painful event that would be. BF:hug::hug::hug:

friend,
I am sorry it is so hard right now. it will get better, your thoughts will subside, hold on.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

i have that fear to about being homeless but i know it is my bipolar making things as scary as possible. Most people have problems but they just don't discuss them and put on a happy face. I know so many people who are struggling. my friend just lost her job. another two friends are waiting for biopsies. another friend doesn't want to wake up in the morning. he does take good care of himself..and on and on...you are not alone. i still haven't found out the results of my heart tests and am fighting with my best friend. and on and on

oh I am sorry that you are fighting with your friend....
hate to hear this.
bizi

Dear BF,

Have you found any preaching on tv on Sundays or on the internet at other times?
Hubby likes listening to Charles Stanley. :hug::hug::hug:


M

I feel guilty on top of everything else now. I have been so negative. I hope that I haven't offended anyone. It's so complicated, and frightening. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Thank you Bobby. I'm sorry that you, and your best friend are fighting. BF:hug::hug::hug:

you are so sweet. you are suffering so much but taking the time to worry about my old friendship. we have been friends for over fifty years and sometimes when i am really stressed we go through very hard periods. they usually work themselves out. i think our relationship is based on love otherwise i don't know how it could ever survived.
bobby

Steve

I think worrying is part of all our lives. I know its part of mine.
But in lots of different ways. My anxiety brings it out.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I don't think you've frightened anyone. I think you've just given a voice to what a lot of us fear from time to time. I hope that I didn't make things worse for you with my post. I just wanted to let you know that I can relate.

Please try to comfort yourself with the thought that you are doing the best you can to avert disaster and create a more positive outcome for yourself. I remember you mentioning that you have a great psych support staff. I think between that, and you being proactive and remaining compliant it's highly unlikely you will end up on the streets.


"At best I keep mostly silent about my emotional struggles because people don't want to hear about it at all. If mentioned, people stay away, and/or treat me like a second class citizen for the most part." BF

I've learned to only tell my husband what he needs to know. He doesn't understand and can't handle too much. My sister has kept her distance since my second hospitalization. Mentioning anything relating to my mental illness or sobriety (I don't think she believes me) just pushes her further away. This forum is my main outlet. I share a little more with a friend. Sometimes some **** comes up that has to be reserved for the professionals though.

It's so hard to suffer in silence.I hope that you do have at least one person that you can reach out to. If not, are you strong enough to consider trying to reconnect with someone who has been in your life in the past- at least initially in a superficial way? It's helpful to have people around us even if we can't share all of ourselves (which I know isn't fair) and find outlets to talk about our mh issues elsewhere such as a tdoc's office or this forum.

:hug::hug::hug:

Kay

I have a friend from a church that I use to go to. I've been talking to him on Facebook. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I had a bad night. I developed emotional pain that was so bad that it was like a deep pain in my body. It was emotional though. I don't know why this keeps happening.

I can't talk to any of my immediate family(Mom, Dad, and my sister)because they have all passed away now.

I feel alone in this. I'm going to see if I can talk to my councilor. BF:hug::hug::hug:

i am glad you have a friend on facebook. maybe you can get together although it costs money..maybe wendy's or macdonalds.
i don't have a mother father or sister now either. i had such an ambivalent relationship that now they can't hurt me anymore. You were lucky you talk to them.
bobby

((((((hugs))))))
bizi