taxes
 

i am trying to see if i can do my taxes by myself this year after last year's traumatic experience of giving the state a bad social security number (missing the first digit) this time every question i have i immediately call the help number. maybe i am lucky today or maybe most people have professionals file but i get a helper almost immediately. I wait two minutes or less than a minute. I might be able to file myself. I am going oh so slowly and anyways i filed extensions for both.
I am playing a lot with tiramisu. she acts like a young hungry cat. I hope i don't get her fat.I am giving robert the food she and pudge don't like.
bobby

good luck with your taxes. I found they were more difficult this year because we have a health savings account.
sigh
bizi

i was going to start early this morning since the office for help is open til three but i woke up really depressed again. I am worried about Pudge. I think she is jealous of tiramisu. yesterday robert came over and tiramisu was super friendly with robert. he said he would take her. Cecilia would take Pudge. He fixed my printer ..i felt like a real dummy and even reattached the tray. He took pictures of tiramisu./
I just feel like and probably will put my head under the covers. It was a good week. I even heard from my friend in florida after i wrote him. it was a super friendly letter. I keep on thinking about death.
bobby

I'm glad that you are getting telephone help with your taxes. I hope you don't have any problems. Just take it nice and slow like you are doing right now… it doesn't seem like they are stressing you out right now.

I'm glad it was a good week Bobby :)

i came out from under the covers and did a little more. will go back under the covers as soon as i figure of if i want another couple of coffee first.
bobby
part of the death thing was that i wrote alice to say cecilia would take pudge and robert would take tiramisu. I am thinking of buying him so since he hates the name and kept callng her terry...as i was steaming underneath.
bobby

Your kitties are like your children, so I think it's okay to plan on who will care for them if you pass away just like parents pick guardians for their children if they die. Since you've made these decisions, you can move on from the subject knowing that plans are in place for your kitties to be cared for if something happens to you.

i am going to try to start doing the federal taxes in a few minutes. i have so much generalized anxiety that is related to so many things including health issues and rent issues. yesterday my wizard friend came over and at a few times he said i should get a hearing aid and then he said i should get physical therapy. just what i needed to hear to add to my generalized anxiety disorder. i sometimes have trouble hearing him because i don't know what he is going to say next and he says it in a low voice. I don't have trouble with my other friends. my other friends haven't complained. nobody except him says i need physical therapy. my friend said her husband is like him...a tech genius who has to have everything under control and fix everything including the temperature in the room and the name of the animal. I forgot if i wrote that he wants tiramisus name to be called tiri and preceded to call her that and not even pronounce her name. I just took my six klonopin over the day. I am so anxious. He really triggered along with all the other things. am hoping the klonopin will kick in
this is a nightmare.
bobby

i opened up all the envelops and wrote down the sums i think i was supposed to write down.one sum i was afraid of i was pleasantly surprised.
the worse i think is other with the taxes. i just have to fill out the forms now. the topamax is turning into dopamax so it makes it harder. the thing i was afraid of isn't bad.
I can't figure out if i should work on them tomorrow or wait til monday
bobby

What do you mean by this???? typo??

i don't understand

Six klonopin is a lot to be taking in one day. If you do it on a regular basis you will get immune to it and it won't work as well for you when you need it.

Because of the combination of the large amount of klonopin, the side effects of the topamax, and the fact that you're still stressed maybe today isn't the best day to do your taxes…

If none of your other friends have noticed you have a problem with your hearing I wouldn't worry about the hearing aids. Cecilia would be the best person to judge whether or not you should look into PT or not because she walks with you regularly. You can ask her what she thinks, but I doubt she would agree with Robert since she hasn't mentioned any concerns before.

I'm not trying to trigger you or upset you in any way, but I don't want to ignore what you wrote. Should you ever be concerned about me, I would hope you would do the same :hug::hug::hug:

that is the first time i took six klonopin but i was going crazy with anxiety.i told cecilia what he said and she laughed.
bobby

i just took three klonopin. i am jumping out of my skin. pudge is hardly eating.
i threw out more food and filled the container with new food. I can't figure out something about the taxes. it says it won't send a certain part to the irs so i don't know if i have to enclose it. it is just a few dollars for six transactions.
i don't know the dates of some. cecilia is going away for a few more days. my stomach aches. I don't feel like going to the senior center. i am so upset. I sent robert a few emails and he hasn't answered any.
too much
bobby

robert answered the emails...relief...he called tiramisu t as a compromise. I didn't take the topimax today and won't take it the next few days because it is interfering with my cognitive functioning and typing and i need it for the taxes.
i haven't been doing anything except lisitening to music like sting. M. inspired me and i so needed to calm down.
bobby

I am sorry that you suffer so .
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

thanks...that is all i seem to be doing for the past months. now i am just praying that pudge starts eating normally again. I use this board to vent. Otherwise i think i would go crazy.
bobby

tiramisu wrecked one of the pages on my computer. the email page. through much searching i found an easy fix on the chrome menu which i also had to look up. in a couple of days i might have to take pudge to the vet. so far today she hasn't eaten anything. i guess i will throw out her food which was new yesterday and give her new food. I will also brush her when i find the brush which i used yesterday.
what is the R.E.M song everybody hurts
bobby

i don't know what to do. i brushed pudge for ten minutes. i threw out the food she has eaten since she came here and gave her the same food but a day fresher and she ate a litte and started looking around. robert said that he would take tiramisu if i didn't want her. i am beginning to think this morning that maybe i should give tiramisu to robert. I don't know what i am going to do.
bobby

:hug::hug::hug:

It is good to hear that Pudge ate some food.

M

I'm sorry things are so chaotic and you are feeling so terrible right now :hug::hug::hug:

You haven't had Tiramisu for very long, but it was sounding like so far things have been going very well for the three of you. The fact that Pudge will share the same space with her on the bed at times shows that she is pretty comfortable in her presence. Are you sure she's not sneaking Misu's food when you're not paying attention?
Giving up Tiramisu would be a big decision. I understand just thinking about doing it or not doing it must be very anxiety producing :hug::hug::hug:

I wish that you had discussed your anxiety with your pdoc when you saw him and given him a chance to help you out. There are meds for anxiety that are long-acting, and sometimes increasing an antidepressant can help GAD quite a bit :hug::hug::hug:

Would you consider having someone do your taxes for you so you can relieve yourself of one huge worry? Is doing them yourself worth the stress you're putting yourself through?

I was wondering… are you still taking the religious classes? I haven't heard you mention them lately and I know that you found comfort in them in the past.

I wish I could give you a big hug Bobby :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

pudge is definitely not eating tiramisu's food. today even tiramisu turned up one can of food and ate another. I don't even know where tiramisu is right now.. practically everything i read about introducing two kitty cats is having two separate rooms.
I don't know how much the taxes would cost. i don't have that much money and they might be three or more hundred dollars. I don't even have to file taxes i don't think if i don't want to carry over the capitol loss.
I don't go to the rabbi's class but i am still enjoying the class on jewish mysticism and the psalms.lately i haven't found refuge in God.I can't find that place.
I guess i will try to feed pudge now again.
bobby

i have an appt with the vet on wednesday at 5:30 with the vet.

i called an accountant that robert recommended and he will return my call.
the stress is too much **** the money
bobby

the accountant called back and was happy i filled an extension and we have an appt on may 3 tuesday at eleven o clock. I still will try to work on the taxes but wait until after the vet sees pudge.
I am so stubborn. this time i went over my limits and was cracking up.
thanks for letting me vent.
i feel less horrible. It ***** grows old an beinng alone. I still don't know where tiramisu is
bobby

'Happy to heat that an accountant is involved.

I am hoping things work out for you with the cats.

M

thanks so much. last night i had a horrible nightmare. am not going to the senior center. I know this will pass. i know i will be able to seek refuge in God again. last night pudge ate a little more. now to see if she will eat some more this morning. i have supplements i put on her paws and she has to lick them off.
bobby

she only ate a little. i put a supplement on her paw which is high in calories and nutrition. I didn't see her lick it off but i am sure she will.
I took an extra risperdal. I want to see if that calms me down. i still don't feel like going to the center. I feel as if i am on the verge of tears. that is probably what i need..a good cry. thank you for letting me vent here. i am skipping the topimax since it has been affecting me cognitively. I will wait a few more days.
bobby

oh bobby, I am sorry things are so stressful for you right now.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I wish things were going better for you Bobby :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that Pudge ate a little for you. I hope that the vet gives her a clean bill of health.
Most people introduce pets to one another by having them in separate rooms at first to let them get used to each other's scents, etc. I've never done that and my cat introductions have gone pretty smoothly. You didn't do anything wrong Bobby :hug::hug::hug:

I'm very happy you called an accountant. You don't need the stress of doing taxes. If they're fairly straight forward, it shouldn't cost you much money. Ask the accountant to estimate how much it will be based on what you have to file before you agree to have her do them.

Seeing your pdoc and letting him know what is going on is a far better option than trying to play with your meds yourself. Please go see him and tell him everything you are going through this time so he can help you. I want you to feel better :hug::hug::hug:

Vent away. We are here for you :hug::hug::hug:

i only have a stuido so i couldn't separate them. i might call for another appt with the psychiatrist after I the visit with the vet if i don't calm down. I know God gets what God wants.that
was/s working for me. then i stopped thinking like that. i just lost abby.Pudge is hardly eating. I couldn't bear losing her. I don't understand what God wants from me. I think pudge is now angry at me for putting that supplement on her.
I am working on myself and saying whatever God wants God gets. Hardships make you tougher. i guess pudge isn't mad at me. she just came over to the keyboard.
board. when i first got pudge she hide for five weeks. she is a sensitive cat. the taxes aren't straightforward but i don't think he will charge me an arm and a leg
bobby

this afternoon i saw pudge eat a bit without my coaxing...there is hope. i will still take her to the vet's tomorrow at 5:30
bobby

Good news about her eating.

I hope that the vet visit goes well.

M

thanks. this morning she ate a little more from the regular food container.
i didn't have to coax her. tiramisu didn't eat. i put out a second wet food and she didn't eat it. she also has two dry foods. e.i. just took them. i am going to spend most of the day in bed. I can't cope.
bobbu

Good luck today, Bobby.
:hug::hug::hug:

M

yes bobby, good luck at the vets.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I hope today is a better day for you and both the kitties eat. I think the vet appointment will go well :)

tiramisu ate both cans an hour and a half later. I am totally exhausted. I put together a new scratching post. pudge scratched once. I will probably leave at 5 for the vets.
I feel like i can''t move. I am definitely getting more sleep.
bobby

Hoping vet visit went well. I am finally catching up with post.

That's why I haven't left you encouragement. I've been gone.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i am waiting to hear about the blood panel. the vet said the lungs didn't sound good and she has an infection. he gave her a big shot of antibiotics and she doses of metcam. he said the persian breed is difficult. I am on needles and pains. the whole visit cost around 500 dollars plus cabs.
bobby

I hope that the information from the blood panel is helpful.

M