A difficult week
 

It's hard to explain. My anxiety, and depression have taken a toll on me. I wish that it would stop, but it seems to keep coming back. Then I want to talk to family members in my immediate family, but realize that they have all passed away.

I feel so alone these days. I also have aches, and pains, and problems that I did not have before. Then I want to talk, but realize that I have no immediate family members to talk to anymore. My best lifelong friend passed away a couple of years ago also. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I am so sorry friend.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Hi, Friend,

Those things are so hard.

'Thinking about you and sending lots of hugs.

M

I'm so sorry you are having a hard time right now BF.

Please know you have friends here :hug::hug::hug:

I'm feeling a lot of emotional pain. All of it came together early this morning around 4 AM, and I started crying. It's been a while since I've cried.

My cat is staying in the kitchen recently, so I feel more alone. That wasn't the reason that I cried, but it sure didn't help. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I am sorry about your kitty being in the kitchen more often now.
Could there be something wrong with her?
Too, I am sorry you are in such pain.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I think that the cat is fine. I just fed her. She has a healthy appetite. She's fine. I'll hug her, then she goes back to the kitchen. She has been trying to tear things to pieces recently, and I tell her to stop, and gently pull her away from the sofa. She may not like that, but I don't want her to destroy the sofa, curtains, and other things up. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Can you move into the kitchen to be with her?

M

I wish I could take your pain away :hug::hug::hug:
Not having your cat near you must be difficult right now. They can be so comforting.

I wonder… is she attracted to something in the kitchen? The scent of a new cleanser on the floor, etc?

Does she respond to catnip at all (some cats don't)? You could try sprinkling a little bit of it in the middle of the floor in the room you spend the most time in every now and then and introduce her to the area. It may attract her to the area more often.

You can also try rewarding her with treats when she spends time with you where you want her to be.

I can sympathize with you about her destructive behavior. It's just something else to worry about. I have 3 cats and they've shredded our couch and love seat. I love them, but I want to kill them sometimes. I think I should have started clipping their nails sooner. There are nail covers called soft paws (that I suggest you have a groomer apply if you go that route) that prevent damage from scratching. They have to be reapplied periodically as the nails grow. I'd get my cats' nails done but can't physically bring them to the groomer.

I hope you feel better BF, hang in there :hug::hug::hug:

Are you able to trim their nails?
jeff does that to ours not often enough though one hates it and the other tolerates it fine.
bizi

I can do that. I can spend some time with her in the kitchen. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I hope that you feel safe today, BF.


M

Mari You were right. I spent some time with her in the kitchen, and see finally comes into the den to spend time with me. BF:hug::hug::hug:

She is sweet, BF.

I hope that you are doing o.k.

M

hi friend, nice to see you, miss you when you isolate from us.
sorry it is so hard for you,
love bizi

I'm glad that you are getting some comfort from your kitty :hug:

I'm sorry for all of these negative reports. I got discouraged last night, and before I knew it I became severely depressed. It took me hours to feel better. It was at about 3 AM. Three AM, to 6 AM are the loneliest times of the day for me. BF:hug::hug::hug:

You have nothing to feel sorry about BF :hug::hug::hug:

I think that those are very lonely hours for many people who are unable to sleep well. I'm glad that you did end up feeling better :hug::hug::hug:

Thinking of you BF :hug:

when do you sleep steve?
bizi

Different times of the day, and night, but not to well between 3, to 6 AM.

I had another bad period between 12 AM, and 1 AM today. It's like a dark cloud came over me, and I felt tremendous torment, and fear.

No one understands this, and I don't know why this happens. I've heard all kinds of things over the years. Councilors should just listen, and not be so quick to speak. They have no clue, just as I have no clue why this happens to me. I don't know what this is. I guess that I inherited it. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Sleep article
 

Friend,

There is so much that they do not know about sleep.
:hug::hug::hug:


M



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The Daily Mail has some discussion about sleep.

Expert reveals the best ways to nod off all night from eating bread and bananas to listening to broadbasts | Daily Mail Online



M

I am sorry for all of your guys that have trouble sleeping.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I'm still very depressed. I think that I'm going through some fear of rejection. Not from anyone here. I feel like a top that's spinning is getting slower. I miss my family members who have passed away. They are missed, and there are no replacements to fill the void. BF:hug::hug::hug:

I'm sorry you're still dealing with depression BF :hug::hug::hug:

I suffer from a fear of rejection myself. For a long time I have isolated myself by pushing people away (for various reasons and in various ways) and I've only allowed new relationships to become superficial because I fear that rejection. It's hard to open up.

I will say some good words for your lost loved ones this morning :hug::hug::hug:

Kay

(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I'm feeling better at this time, but to be truthful, I don't know how long it will last. I thank you all for the encouragement, and support. BF:hug::hug::hug:

They say, Take it one day at a time.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I am very glad that you are feeling better friend.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

BF,
Try not to worry about how long this feeling better may last. Sometimes just that alone can bring your mood down.

At the end of each night I often thank God for getting me through today; then add "please help me with tomorrow". I know you are a man of faith. He is with you through it all.

Take it "One Day at a Time".....


Gerry

Gerry, you are so right :hug:

It's nice to hear you are feeling well. I hope it lasts for a long time BF :hug::hug::hug:

More difficulty. I don't know what to say anymore. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Hi,Friend,

I hope that you are o.k.

M

I'm sorry that things are so hard for you BF. Sometimes it's hard to find the words :hug::hug::hug:

Thinking of you…

Kay

Thank you Kay. I am having difficulty organizing my words recently. I saw a little bit of the news today on TV, and I see that they are still giving us the worse news with hype in it, and I'm so tired of it. They don't cheer us up about the future. They make it sound horrible all the time. The news built up in the days before our current news is sickening. There must be a better way of doing this. One of our news channels says it breaking news all of the time. I remember when the real breaking news would occur about every six months to a year.

What about the millions of good things that happen each day? BF:hug::hug::hug:

there used to be a good news on line source, don't know what the addy is though.
I one that I thought it was is not...so...

bizi

Right on BF....


Gerry

I do not watch news.

About once a week I get a segment or two talking about news.

About every two or three weeks I catch a talk show about the news on NPR.

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The worst thing about the news is the sound of the voices and the music --- both are much more upsetting than the straight up information.


M

Bizi,
 

Happy News - Real News. Compelling Stories. Always Positive.

M

Yes that music in the beginning of the 6:30 news, all three major networks, has a alarming tone, and they pitch a lot of it in the beginning of the news segments.

Some of this news stirs up violence for some reasons unknown, but they still do the same old thing every night. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Thank you mari,
I book marked it to my favorites.
What a great way to wake up in this world!
(irregardless of what time it is...of course!)
bizi