taking better care of myself....
 

Just a quick update:
I found other things to do beside being on the computer all night. I managed to stay off it all night.
Which is great!
I started reading a book about playing chess. It is very difficult to read and focus and pay attention to the concepts.
I will be playing with a friend of mine in the near future.
He hasn't played in 30 years he said. I never played that well, never had any strategy.
I did some homework from the womens work shop that I am taking on tuesdays for 6 weeks. Creating your next chapter.
Sue is a life coach and I really like her.
I must sign off as I am over my allotted time this morning. Trying to cut back.
5 clients, lunch with friends, concert-classical guitarist, dinner somehow, laundry some how,
long good day!
have the best day possible!
bizi

Only saw 4 clients so was able to do 2 loads of laundry,
scrubs for tomorrow and eat dinner at chipotle. yum
The guitar concert was good, enjoyed his performance. Nice guy.
Afterward he and hubby went out to eat at a restaurant called social. They have good food and one of the only places that has late service for food.

I joined a gym yesterday. Reds, I have been a member before. It is the nicest/biggest club in town. It is very expensive but I am worth it.
My right elbow has been feeling like I have tendonitis.
Reds has a freezing plunge pool. 50 degrees! Yesterday, I dangled my arm into the pool and could only stand about 5 minutes. Maybe it is a coincidence, but my arm feels better today. Could be also the 800mg of advil helped at noon?
This Monday night at 6;30, I am going to try restorative yoga. Have never done yoga before but this class is supposed to be very relaxing. So I am going to try it....I need some direction...I have a right hip that is making me limp when I first get up....I am hoping the stretching yoga will help.
Between my elbow and my hip, I feel old.

Friday, I will see 4 or 5 clients tomorrow. I hope the receptionist at this retirement center that I am going to remembers who has an ingrown toenail. They are very painful and I would hate for them to be in pain over the weekend.
I have time to see them tomorrow after my last client.
Trivia at whole foods.

Saturday I have 4 clients on the books then we will go see the musical/operetta Sweeney Todd. It is supposed to be very good!
Excited to see the performance. The lead singer is our very own professor who is playing lead. He is so good, can't wait!

Sunday is wide open.
Monday starts my new and improved diet.

Limiting my computer usage is hard.

bizi

You sound good, Bizi,

Enjoy the chess and the yoga:

Learn About Restorative Yoga: Poses, Asanas & Sequences

M

Thank you Mari!
I will look at these videos later tonight when I have time.
Have a good day!
bizi

It sounds like you have a lot of very good things going on right now and you have set yourself out on a good path :):):)

I hope you enjoy Sweeney Todd tonight!

We enjoyed the musical, gruesome but entertaining.
going out to our usual brunch place then to buy a yoga mat.
charting calls my name for work. nothing else on the books for today, first day of not seeing any clients in 14 days. So it is nice having a complete day off!
167 this morning....at least it did not say 170 pounds
like I thought it was going to say.
I slept great last night.
I am back to my normal meds now and am feeling rather normal, thank goodness!
bizi
on the computer an hour this morning but will check back in late tonight and not thru out the day like usual, trying to cut back on my computer usage,
IT IS HARD!

I'm so glad that you are feeling better!!! :)

I'm glad that you are taking better care of yourself and I'm excited to hear about the new things that you will be doing (yoga, workshop, etc).

Today was not the best day.
I did not sleep well (too much to eat and drink thru out the day).
So shut off my 7am alarm that is not good when I do that. Knowing that I could call and put off my 8:30 until 9am, I woke up and called him at 8.
Got up and tried to wake up had a cup of coffee.
was on the computer for a bit, but did not take care of myself.
I did not wash my face nor brush my teeth.
usually it takes me an hour for each client. but my 1030 was an hour and a half and then my 1 oclock was out of town so by the time I got to sandras I had very little time to have lunch, a friend of mine was still there so she sat and waited with me while it took forever to come...I ate an elk burger which was dry, but I did not eat the bun. I only took my prescription meds not my vitamins...I was too rushed.
I then drove my 40 minute drive out of town and was 15 minutes late.
by the time I was finished with her and back into town I knew that I was not going to be able to see everyone so I called my 4;30 and asked to see her sooner. I forgot how long our visits usually are, she talks so much and I should not have scheduled her for 4;30 I was not thinking. I had to get home eat left overs and leave for my yoga class at 6. So she agreed to see me sooner 3;45, I still did not get out of there until about 5;15 so I rushed home and jeff heated up the meatloaf and I changed clothes and we ate...I was rushing all day. I did get to my yoga class early. jeff unloaded the dishwasher and cleaned up after dinner though I offered to do it when I got home, he said he would take care of the dishes.
The restorative yoga class just proved to me how out of shape I am in. It also showed me how I have had injuries in the past with current trouble areas.
left shoulder
right hip
right elbow
neck
back.
This was supposed to be a napping class.
I did not feel that way. laying on each body part hurt. The mat did not provide much cushion. Just the gravity of my bones weight hurt, not even doing any stretches.
I am out of shape.
I was glad that I made it though.
The instructor was very nice and she helped me with my blanket and I stayed after class and talked with her a bit about my hip.
She suggested as well as my friend today suggested that I try Yin yoga it meets on wednesdays at 6;30pm. It actually stretches you which is what I need.
so next week I will go to restorative on monday again the work shop on tuesday and the Yin yoga on wednesday.
After yoga I went to the freezing plunge pool to treat my elbow. I sat on the step and dangled my arm in the pool up to my bicept.
I talked with a couple of guys in the pool and one was a specialist, kinosthesiologist or something like that. He told me to do cold and hot treatments together. So I did 5 minutes in the cold pool and 5 minutes in the hot tub, I had to lay on my belly for that one...sigh, nobody cared they all have issues that they are doing the cold hot treatments. I did 2 rounds of that. Which was plenty. The cold plunge pool was so cold it made my fingers hurt and I could only stand 5 minutes!
After Reds I went to academy sporting goods store looking for a wrist brace that my physical therapist friend told me to get but kept forgeting to get it. So I had a young man help me get a brace. we ended up talking about his life and I was giving advice. sigh
I buy a brace and a block to do a hip stretch that tess the yoga instructor suggested. and I am home about 930pm. talked jeffs ear off and came on line to write this all out.
The block was too big and the brace ended up making my thumb numb and fell asleep and hurt which is not good so I will have to take both items back. sigh
It is now 11;15pm and I need to get ready for bed.
I sound hypomanic don't I?
good night
bizi

The shorter version:
coffee with half and half and stevia
lunch: elk burger minus the bun
dinner: left over meat loaf and mixed veggies.
some coconut chips.
Not enough water today.
I did not drink alcohol today.
I went to a restorative yoga class for the first time...I am very out of shape!
bizi

Busy day!

What was wrong with the block?


M

I'm sorry you didn't have a good day, Bizi. It sucks to be rushed all day like that :hug:

I'm sorry that you felt out of shape at the yoga class and your injuries flared, I hope that the stretching class will be better and help you.

You do sound hypo. How often are you sending the mood chart info to your pdoc?

There were 2 blocks I picked the larger one, I picked wrong one (I think).
I think that I can find some hip stretches with out using a hard block, maybe one standing.
thanks mari.
bizi

she wants to see the mood charts monthly.
I see her in a month so I guess I will bring it to her then. I guess I need to start one:o.
Mostly, my right elbow and hip bother me.
What hurts the most right now is when I push the kitty litter to scoop up the soiled clumps, ouch that hurts! JEff said he would take over that job.
lifting a gallon of water hurts too.
Just going through the motions of pushing/extending my arm hurt.
sigh
bizi

I don't know a lot about hypemaniac, if that is the name. But it sounds
more like a busy day. I think.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

Thanks donna,
Today was a crazy day.
too much to go into.
Tonight, I tried to quit my womans workshop on "next chapter"
but sue the leader talked me into staying. half way thru 3 left to go.
She also listened to my woes about my elbow and she had a wrist brace that she used for carpel tunnel. perfect! She is letting me borrow it.
Sue also helped me come up with a mood chart. She is a life coach and a very good listener.

have a good day yall.
bizi

I hope the women's workshop is good for you.


M

I'm really glad that she helped you with the brace and the mood chart. This workshop may be very good for you :)

she is asking us to examine and document for the 3 days activities during our day that were engaging or not and whether they were an energy inducing high or low. I just felt like it was too much on this already busy schedule.
jeff has a blues performance with some students this evening at 6.at the local art museum on campus.
That should be fun, he was practicing and I love the sound of a slide guitar!
have a good day yall!
bizi

At the blues concert: hubby did well playing(loved that slide guitar:D) and speaking. He spoke about the blues and folk art. The museum has a large collection of art work from a couple, met the lady of the home and she told us it all came from her home. Wow! over 250 pieces and they have a total of 2,000 pieces of art!!!!
The students did great! Loved the blues singer, she had a great voice.
It was a good day, only saw 4 people instead of the scheduled 5 due to a cancellation and I moved tomorrows 9am to today at 1 so that frees up my morning to sleep late yeah! I also had a leisurely lunch.
I was able to do my womans workshop exercise today thru out the day and not get stressed about it.
We went out to dinner after the concert.
I ate the best seafood salad, it was great it had some greek godess dressing that was delicious!
hubby had the tuna and loved it!
I think they have the seafood menu because of lent. I don't think it will be a regular item after easter.
bizi

edit: I have been on the computer too long....sigh

I'm glad you had such a great day yesterday! :)

It will be nice to sleep in today. I know you've had a couple crappy nights of sleep lately :hug:

even though the alarm wasn't set I still got out of bed at 7:30 because I wanted time to take a shower. Finishing my coffee, first cup that is and checking up on the forums. I am going to the gym tonight around 8pm after dinner. Will get home late so does jeff. yesterday I had that long period of time for lunch and making phone calls to friends and clients etc. IT was great!
Only saw 4 clients instead of the 5 originally planned. Even so just barely made it to the concert with a girl friend, did not have time to change clothes.
We had some heavy rains last night. There were heavy stroms in surrounding areas too, not sure of any damage just yet.
bizi

165.2 I feel thinner.
bizi

Good news, Bizi!

trigger warning, self harm
 

Saw my therapist again, Robin whom I like very much.
She was a bit worried that I was taking too much on for changes.
I reassured her that i was not.
I am going to the gym tonight unplanned activity.
I don't know what I am going to do.
maybe just walk on the tred mill.
I just chewed my hang nail until it is bleeding...
sorry will try to put a trigger warning on this post.
bizi

Bizi,

I hope that the gym helped. Take care.



M

Bizi, you have been busy! I hope you enjoyed the concert.

Good job losing weight! I'm glad you feel thinner! :)

Very busy afternoon!, enjoyed my morning off, took a shower! and had coffee, had a great session with robin my tdoc, ate a delicious greek dish and chard and collards, everything was so healthy.
Saw a total of 4 clients in the afternoon.
my 2nd and 3rd client were in the same condo. mother and daughter. And it was full of drama and chaos. I waas there 2 1/2 hours and that was a shorter visit then normal. It was very draining. very engaging, it zapped my energy. so at 430pm for my 4th client I was very tired mentally. and I had not had a snack in the car like I have been trying to do. So I did not engage fully with Betty. I did spent a lot of time there thinning her nails though we did not talk that much.
By tracking I find that I am usually tired by my 4 pm visit and not as engaging, really need to pay attention to getting a snack and maybe an afternoon cup of coffee????
We both got home around 6;30 tired.
I cooked a chicken/coconut oil/indian black lentils dish, it turned out very good. I ate more than jeff though.
Not good.

Did not make it to the gym due to drinking. sigh
very disappointed with myself.
oh well
trivia tonight
I found out that my friend who we were going to play chess together likes to play euchre card game. So we are going to play that!!!!! I am so excited! Chess is so hard, may do that too, but the card game I already know how to play, he knows how to play with partners but not 2 people which is different, more fun I think!
The aveda school student messed up my hair last time, root touch up with the wrong color dark brown. They are going to do a full head high lite tomorrow, which takes for ever to lighten up my hair again.
(no bleach something less damaging) no charge cause it was their mistake. The dark roots make it look like I have not kept up my color dark roots look awful. hate it. So tomorrow will be a long day at the beauty shop. Hope they get it right. This time.
bizi

Bizi

I sure hope they get it right too. I know how that can be.

I had my son Devin's lady dye mine Monday this week. And on
Wednesday she told me she needed to touch up some places.
I haven't had time for her to do it. Was supposed to today.

But we will see.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

this is the first time in over 14 years that they messed up.
not too too bad.
bizi

last night I had a coughing spell and moved to the guest bed room,
so I did not sleep well.
salmon for lunch with collard greens carrots and squash.
dinner:
talapia and cauliflower with cheese. yum
am going to whole foods for trivia.:D
bizi

thats great. i weighed about 215ish back in late jan early feb 2017. i just went to my primary doc and she clocked my current weight at 191.

that is 24 pounds!!!! lost.
that is terrific, you must feel so happy about this.
what did you do?
bizi
I see that you are a male, did you intend to lose weight?
HOw tall are you and what do you want to weigh?

im type 2. i basically limit my meals to 20 to 55 carbs per. whole grain breads. the higher the whole grain count the better. i usually eat breakfast n lunch. i eat plenty of fish as well for the protein. red meats included. i dont fry that much anymore. i have a nuwave oven so i usually bake now. i can cook a frozen 1" tbone med rare in about 25-30 mins. if i dont eat dinner which i rarely do i just drink a bottle or two of glucerna shakes (they come in the short blue bottles not the taller green ones) the green bottle types taste like chalk lol

That is a lot of weight to lose in 2 months.
Did you count calories? exercise?
How much more weight do you want to lose?
bizi

It was a lose day as far as the computer usage. have been on here for hours.....and I drank too much....
sigh

bizi

i dont count calories really. i mean frying with oil will raise calories if flour is used of course as will carbs. since white flour is processed from wheat flour (bleached). i am aiming for 180-185 mainly. then see how my health improves overall. since my diabetes and scoliosis are huge factors in my state of current health. i can already feel the difference. i used to wear 40x32s now i have to wear belts on my 38x32 pants lol. i eat plenty of fish like salmon (skin on), tuna, etc all baked with lemon seasonings or old bay seasoning. i cant do much excercise because of my bad case of scoliosis. i cant walk far without my lumbar spine feeling terribly sore. plus my cervical spine has a defect from what my neurosurgeon told me. a normal person has 6 vertebrae in their cervical spine or neck. he says i have 7. plus my thoracic spine is slipping off to one side from what he and i saw in a few xray ct scans.

I see why you have lots of incentive to lose weight.
Being type 2 diabetes, many lose weight and can lower their medication usage or even get off of it if they lose enough weight. Maybe that would happen to you? Wouldn't that be great!
keep on doing what you are doing.
You are doing great!
bizi

Well I am very happy.
I had enough motivation to actually clean off my bathroom counter. It took an hour but it is so much cleaner. There was so much cat hair and dust, I threw some stuff away. I have an antique wooden small shutter with a thin handle that opens and shuts the slats. It was filthy. so I took it to the kitchen and scrubbed each slat and rinsed it off. nice and clean looking. I threw out a huge sprig of eucalyptus that was blueish in color, it was growing cat hair! I could not clean that off so decided to throw it away and not replace it. the counter looks fine with out it. I have a little white vase that holds some dried purple statice flowers, that goes with the purple accents of the counter/bathroom. I will shake out the rug and leave the floor for another time.
We are to go to lunch before getting my hair high lighted at 1pm.
Jeff is finishing up the trim on the new bedroom window after he filled the nail holes with wood filler sanded them and now putting the final coat on.
It has been a couple of weekends project, he will be glad when he is done.
Off to shake out the bathroom rug. The floor is disgusting.
sigh
bizi

Congratulations on your weight loss Gethprime!
That's quite an accomplishment! :)

I hope your hair comes out great Bizi :)