I am beginning to move back into depression
 

i am irritable and frustrated and don't feel like moving. I just want to go to sleep.
I feel so fat. I had broccoli and bread crumbs and butter for lunch. I don't think i will go out this week. Hopefully I will stop buying. that is finally depressing and worrisome. I can hardly concentrate. my walking is awful and so is my typing. I am so jittery

Bobby,

I hope that you get restful sleep.


M

i have been up since two

Oh, boy.


Sorry. I hope you get some sleep a little later maybe.


M

I wish you were feeling better and sleeping better, Bobby :hug::hug::hug:

Anxiety can make it so hard to concentrate, and so can depression :hug:

Maybe one day you will feel better and will be up to going to the center this week... you never know.

I hope you start sleeping better :hug:

right now i have an aversion to going to the senior center. everybody is old and my age is bothering me. I do get dressed every day. Then I am trying to eat a lot of vegetables. I think I lost four pounds. alice said if i lost weight i would probably have an easier time walking. I have just been feeling so sad. My credit card this month is going to be so very high. It goes against my spirituality with all this spending.
love
bobby

I am so depressed. I am worried about Abby. Her poop has been like pudding for the past several days. I don't know about today. I still don't feel like leaving the apartment. I am not really hungry. I get dressed every day and took a bath yesterday. the tears won't come. I have just been reading and sleeping badly as usual. I can't concentrate on God.

Try your best to focus on what you CAN do, and what provides you with comfort right now :hug::hug::hug:

Abby's diarrhea will probably pass. Sometimes they just get it randomly like us :hug::hug::hug:

this morning she was really active. pudge has been more active too. I hope i can catch her pooping. I just ordered canned pumpkin and rice. I feel like getting a cupcake. Hope I don't. Maybe I will go to the senior center next week.
love
bobby wanting to cry

Crying is a good release, but very, very rarely can I do it.

I'm so sorry that you are feeling so depressed :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that you are looking ahead to next week, and hoping you are up to getting out and going to the senior center :)

i don't think i will be ready to go back to the senior center next week. I almost started crying. The drugs aren't working. I have been given a lot of nurturance this week. Now I miss my morgy so much. I want to join him. I know it is the bipolar. I seem to be moving further away from God. I have been praying to him today to help with the bipolar. I never usually ask Him for anything. I wish I could get closer to Him. all this shopping has distanced me from Him. what a mess

:Heart: :hug::hug::hug: :Heart: :)

thank you so much!
bobby

Wishing you well.

:) :heartthrob: :)

M

i had stopped drinking coffee and switched to tea. then i cheated and had two cups of coffee. I was hooked again. I bought a keurig -and coffee. I was right. I am allergic. I started itching again. I will limit myself to one or two cups a day.

(((mymorgy)))) I am sorry you are struggling. Please be nice to yourself. :hug:


(I have bipolar disorder.)

There are tea k-cups, too :hug:

When is your next appointment with your pdoc?

in about two weeks

Is there any way that you could move the appointment up? I hate that you are suffering like this :hug::hug::hug:

i don't think so. I wonder how much has to do with stroked. Everything is an effort except buying

It may be a combination, but I think that the treatment should be the same. That's something you should ask your pdoc :hug:

I'm really trying hard to stay off of Amazon now.