three months i have isolated myself
 

i do go to doctor's appts and now see stella. and cecilia. I feel too fragile and most people I am not interested in. I am learning a lot about my mental illness.
I am seeing it clearer. I am really mentally ill. If I keep on going like this i will probably go to therapy.

I just called a caseworker I have dealt with. Last time I saw her she said she could get a therapist for me there at their agency. They are geared towards senior citizens. Hopefully she will get back to me on monday

I know what you mean Bobby. I isolate myself to much also. BF:hug::hug::hug:

are you ready for therapy? I have tried it a few times. Now I am in a different place. I really want to be less fearful and more comfortable with other people and not so terrified about money

I am sorry that you have been isolating yourself.
Perhaps seeing a therapist is a good idea?
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi

I'm going to another group therapy meeting on Monday. I see my councilor on Thursday. I also pray. I reed bible verses. That's all I know to do.

I keep holding on. I wonder what my purpose for existing is. There must be a purpose. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Wishing wellness for you Bobby,


M

I've noticed that you've been doing quite a bit of introspection and have been exploring your past recently. I know that therapy hasn't worked out well for you in the past, but maybe it will be helpful now that you are already starting to work out some issues on your own :hug::hug::hug:

That is an excellent observation Kay.
((((HUGS))) for bobby.
bizi

You might enjoy being with this therapist.

You have been enjoying the company of your latest cleaning lady.


M

she looks interesting Dr. Anne Rosen Noran, Clinical Social Work/Therapist, New York, NY 10021 | Psychology Today

She sounds interesting! and offers a free first call. Which is really great!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

i am so depressed and feel hopeless. My foot hurts. It is a sore. I keep on thinking of diabetes. I am successfully on my diet. I have lost 5 1/2 pounds.
I ordered peanuts and vitamins but gave the wrong address. how stupid. I cancelled the whole order. I have also been watching harvey

Congratulations on your success with the diet! 5 1/2 pounds is great! :)

You can always resubmit that order with your correct address. No big deal.

I agree that having a free first call with that therapist is great! That way you will have a chance to see whether or not you think things will work out well with her. You can also ask your pdoc to recommend someone.

I'm glad that you are at least looking for a therapist. Your current med plan doesn't seem to be doing enough. I hate to hear that you are feeling hopeless :hug::hug::hug:

(((((HUGS))))) and LOVE to you today Bobby

I am going at ten to the carter burden center to what my caseworker recommends. I will call that other therapist at nine. she sounds interesting and I like her interest in spirituality.. I really think it is off with stel again. I knew I could reorder but I also knew the big bag of peanuts was a no no
love
bobby

congratulations bobby on the weight loss!
Peanuts are not horrible, more carbs than almonds and sesemee seeds.
We get all kinds of nuts to snack on. We just have to be careful of how many we eat!:rolleyes:
Have a good day today bobby!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

i can't control myself

BF,
Going to the group meeting at least gives you a reason to get out. Hopefully you can come up with a few other things; just to get you up and out.....

Some years back I was dealing with isolation. I knew I would at least have to get out of the house; especially when the "downers" would settle in. It's hard to push; but even walking thru a mall at times would help me get thru some pretty bad times.

I talk often throughout the day to God. You can count on Him always being there to listen. I feel we are here for a reason and when ready, we will attain Eternal Life with Him. That will be our reward.

We try to do the best we can to be decent people. God knows our failures and successes. Reading the bible, scripture, the gospels are all good. Jesus spoke in parables; sometimes just putting together what meanings are in these parables and how we can use them in our daily life is thought provoking and sometimes a "light bulb" goes off and we see a whole different picture than just words....


Gerry

I find that if I buy shelled peanuts or pistachios I eat a lot less of them because breaking them apart slows me down a lot.

How was the: carter burden center?
I hope they provided you some comfort there.
(((((HUGS))))):hug::hug:
bizi

I hope your day goes well, Bobby.

M

we just talked about therapists. I showed her the print out of the therapist I might try. then she said the therapists there do take medicare and the office is moving closer to me.

I have been so frightened. It is so hard to be alone. robert upset me and reminded me how miserable my life has been. I seem to have exaggerated. I am so fearful of everything. My heath is bothering me too

I am sorry you are frightened.
Maybe you could go to the senior center and mingle, get out with others, make a new friend? How are the meals that they serve? Do you like the food?
(((((HUGS))))))
bizi
I am glad they are moving closer to you! Do you use uber?

i donnn't use uber. the regular carter burden is across the street from me. the food is good but i am on a diet of lean cuisines. there are mostly clicks there

Bobby
Could you just go have a coffee or coke. And talk to the people.

I wish we were closer I'd come find a place for us to visit.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

that would be so nice

A friend of mine going back to high school days; goes almost every week day morning to have coffee; sometimes with a snack. She sits in the same (when possible) booth near the entrance; enjoys people watching. The waitress has gotten to know her so they exchange words here and there. She has been doing this for years. She said it gets her day started by first getting out of the house; then she feels better about continuing the rest of her day.

I agree; not for everyone; but for some, it works.....


Gerry

Several of my clients do this ger.
They have been doing that for years. They have a group that they sit with now. Coffee is a great equalizer.
bizi

Yup!!! that it is....

Robert has good qualities and much of the time he is a good friend.

But he is in an ***.
Here is his picture:
Mule vs Donkey - Difference and Comparison | Diffen

M

lol- he is a genius and very very kind in his own way

I am happy that he is in your life.


M

I hope you are doing well today Bobby :hug::hug::hug:

I am in a ratty mood-very irritable. Everybody is upsetting me. I don't know why I am so angry. Our super is leaving because he can't get along with the president of the coop. He is so wonderful. I might have a new aide on thursday. she was very nice and a hard worker. she said my place was a mess.
Marcia called and I told her and guess I shouldn;t have. I joked and said she should have seen it before. I hurt her feelings. she was really talking loud on the phone. she asked if i missed her and i said no.later I said yes and that she makes me happy. I said the wrong thing again. I bought two pairs of shoes and they are both big.
why so angry. I have been watching tennis..I don't know what to do with this irritability. My doctor increased the welbutrin. I did buy feet cream for diabetes and my feet feel a lot better.
I know it is me and not the whole world
abby has been climbing up the cabinet and onto the top of the bookcase. I am afraid she is going to jump. My friend told me to put down aluminum foil and so far it is working. I foun out how old she is june 15 2016.

Wow, that is the same day as Derrick's birthday. She will slow
down as time goes.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I think i am going to start going to the senior center again. I am so isolated it is really getting to me big time. I am not even enjoying tennis. I am still really irritable. Marcia called and asked if I missed her. I said no. Later I tried to make up for it and said yes I miss you because I am happy when you are here. that isn't true anymore. That isn't true anymore. She is wonderful but she can get on my nerves.
The table I sit at at the senior center gets on my nerves. I miss mike. I will sit at the same table and then maybe make an excuse that it is too painful without Mike and I need to switch.

good luck at the senior center today bobby. I hope you have a nice time and enjoy yourself.
bizi

i forgot it is closed. tomorrow i will go

Are you still feeling irritable, Bobby?
Is Marcia still coming? How are things going with her?
Did you get a new aide? How did that go, if you did?