today i meet my therapist
 

marci and vanessa didn't come this week so the place isn't neat. richard come afterwards. I don't know where to start with the therapist.

She may already have some leading questions ready to get to know you, but if she doesn't, ask her where to start.

I hope she is nice and you like her :hug:

Is richard your therapist?

I hope you like whomever is coming over.
Restarting therapy is hard.
They will probably ask you what are your goals of therapy.
That way they know where to lead you.
good luck, keep us updated.
bizi

I believe Richard is her PT therapist.

I'm not sure what to say, but I think the rest are on target let them
help you decide were to go in discussion.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

right richard is my pt therapist. martha is my regular therapist. she seems very nice. she showed me a picture of her pitbull mix-a real love bunny. my depression is coming back a little

sorry I got confused....
Thank you donna.
bobby, I am glad that martha was nice.
It is nice to be nice.
sorry your depression is coming back a little.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

thanks. It isn't deep like before. I still don't feel like doing much. like richard.
He is so enthusiatic. He did say it is hard finding exercises for a person a year after a stroke. I do feel better all ready. Martha used to have cats. what to say to her. I told her of my bipolar decisions like majoring in latin which was impractical. where do i go with my family? there is so much anger there. it is coming through with the little sh3ts.

i think i feel hopeless with the therapist. I feel so locked in

It is easy to get overwhelmed by therapy if you have had a lot of trauma. It is best to pick one area to focus on to avoid that.

Maybe you could start with how you feel about being alone or isolated, or how you feel about having had the stroke.
I think if you talk about Myra's death it may bring up A LOT from the past that will overwhelm you, so I would wait to talk about that until you are more comfortable with the therapist and therapy in general again :hug::hug::hug:

What do you mean by "locked in"?

like frozen in my emotions. i think i feel hopeless with bipolar symptoms like over eating wanting sweets and spending to spend. maybe part of it is anxiety.
Now that I want to control things I feel overwhelmed. not sleeping much doesn't help even with the sleeping pills

I am sorry you did not sleep much, that contributes
to your feelings I believe.
I can't remember if you are still drinking coffee or not???
Do you have any kind of routine about going to bed?
bizi

no routine. I am up about 2:30 and then i start drinking coffee. I don't think coffee is the culprit. I went for a month or two without coffee and still had sleep problems

I am sorry.
So many of us have sleep issues.
Wish it weren't so.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

I am so tired. I am useless

I am sorry....
(((HUGS))))
bizi

I can't seem to break the cycle. I have been up for an hour. Last night I dreamt about being mentally ill.I think the coffee is making anxious and I will try to stop at two. ha ha.

I dreamed of forgetting my purse at a home and frantically returning to find it intact and nothing missing. Anxiety dream.
bizi

You are not useless, Bobby :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

I have control issues, too. That, and anxiety, can be part of why it's hard to let your emotions out.
I tend to talk about events like I'm telling a story.. detached from them, but then I will feel the emotions later, and struggle with them. But when I had a really good therapist, it wasn't like that. I was comfortable, and could tell her anything...
I hope the same happens for you :hug::hug::hug:

Getting on a regular sleep cycle and staying on it is really, really hard. It is very common for people with BP to have sleep issues :hug:

that must have been a huge relief!

I haven't been on a regular sleep regimen since the nineties. I had trouble with also before after my explosion and then after my father died but two or three in the morning sucks. I don't know why it has gotten this bad. The therapist is nice and she likes animals. I hope she wasn't the blind professor in the dream. you are so right. there is so much bottled up emotion.
love
bobby

We bottle things up to protect ourselves.
Just let a little out at a time. That's the only way not to overwhelm yourself.

I had that good therapist for something like 7 years before she left the practice I go to, and she doesn't accept my insurance anymore. My new therapist is a very nice lady, but she doesn't "get" me, and does nothing for me, except make things worse... I'd get agitated following appointments. So, I don't go anymore.

what a shame. why not try another one? this one is an animal lover which is a big plus. I will as her how she can break down my defenses. I will tell her I want to

I think once you trust her you may feel like you are safe to share.
just my feeling.
bizi

Bobby

Question if you are up at 2am, what time do you go to bed? Just curious
I have a few nights that I can't sleep and am up at 2am. But I just drink
water at that time of night.


I'm glad you like your therapist, I personally agree with the others, talk about
one thing work on that. Get to know her and then maybe another thing or two. I would also talk about the animals you both love. But I'd make this the bonus item for each meeting time.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I think a lot of times i go to bed at 11 because I love brian williams news show but I might take a nap before..what if spending is a bipolar thingie? Can therapy help that? I love to hear about all of your family even though I can't keep track of them

The buying could definitely be a bipolar thing, a symptom of hypomania.
It's also seen in OCD.

I was antsy about buying a new car, now about buying a new house....
definitely a bipolar thing....maybe ocd????
bizi

In your case, probably bipolar, but the OCD doesn't hurt either.