I think i have cycled into a good mood
 

I don't think it was the increase in pills because I was iffy before. today was the last session of occupational therapy. I did an exercise she gave me and got a pain in my back and charleyhorse (sp) in my legs. I started feeling compassion
for my mother finally. don't know how long that will last-there is still a lot of pain

First your father now your mother...this is great!
Happy for you.
bizi:hug:

Bobby,

Happy to hear that the occupational therapy is over.

M

I don't know what stage I am about my mother. I am pretty sure that feeling compassion for someone no matter what they did to you is the way. It is a start. I was so close to her when I was young and she really used me.

I am too. too many appointments. today was the first day I could stretch out my legs since she gave me that exercise. she mentioned richard leaving soon.
I guess it will be up to me soon to follow his exercises. so far I don't hurt from him because he doesn't push me

You are much more open now...I think you are healing. I hope you therapist can help with this even more :hug::hug::hug:

I am inundated with appointments, too. It stinks. I know how you feel.

I think maybe you are in a better mood because you are doing a lot of good things to improve yourself like the PT and therapy... ?

I think i cycled out of the very long depression into a good mood even if i am having a hard time walking. I think i just broke my keurig-ugh

Bobby

You can always request that they add more PT if you think you
need it after he is done.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I don't know what is happening. now i am feeling worse. my back hurts besides having trouble walking. I can stretch my legs. My memory is going.'I lost my money twice i five minutes. Now that my coffee maker is broken I can't remember how I did it the old way...

Oh no!!! Not your Keurig!!!! It is new, so it should should still be under warranty if you registered it. Either way, call customer service. I hope they can help :hug:

I'm sorry your mood shift so often. It must be really hard :hug::hug::hug:

I just got off the phone with keurig. they are sending me a replacement even though i told them it was my mistake. wow. will write later-great feedback

Wow. That is good news!

M

had a therapy session. she suggested that I eat a little and wait 20 minutes and see if I am still hungry. I did it and it worked. I didn't have more. Maybe this will put a dent in my eating problem. she got me angry about my spending. she doesn't know the compulsion to buy when you are in the mood =it is totally irrational-like somebody taking away your favorite toys. I got angry talking about family memories.
I told her about richard and his disgusting ways. after he left I called visiting nurse, not at her suggestion and told the manager who was a lovely soft spoken woman how richard first came to the apartment and picked his nose a few times, usually spent five minutes each time in the bathroom, played with his smart phone and didn't watch when i was exercising. all together with resting he probably spent 15 minutes in my apartment. she said she would get me a new therapist,maybe not monday but wednesday. we talked about the occupational therapist whom I told her was superb. She said richard won't know.

Bobby,


Only a person who has experienced mania really understands it, but she
should have a better idea than a random person on the street.

Otherwise, it seems that she was helpful.

M

I am glad that you will get a new PT.:)
bizi

she also bugged me about my diabetes and repeatedly asked why I don't test
my sugar ever day and i said why and said the doctor didn't tell me too and what would the result be. i try not to have carbohydrates

So, it sounds like it was a mixed bag :o

I guess it is hard to understand the shopping compulsion… how strong it is and how hard it is to stop. I'm surprised she's isn't more familiar with it tho.

Richard did have disgusting habits. I'm glad that you will be getting a new PT and he won't know about it, not that that should really matter. He shouldn't be doing things like that because he could make someone sick.

I'm sorry you got angry about your family memories… there is so much trauma there :hug::hug::hug:

Maybe you should tell your therapist nicely that you don't want her input about medical things like your diabetes because it upsets you. I know that would be hdd for you tho :hug:

I forgot if i mentioned that richard didn't cover his mouth most of the time when he was coughing and now i feel as if i getting sick. the manager asked what was richard doing if he was not watching me exercise. I said he was using his smart phone. You just can't make these things up. She was really apologetic.
If Martha mentions my diabetes again I will say let us leave it to the mds.she is very soft spoken. a lot of times I have to ask her to repeat herself.
I am not depressed but boy am i down. I am so stiff from the meager exercising i did and sitting in the chair with her for over an hour. Once again I fell asleep early and was up all night. Pudge stayed with me after I brought her over. Usually abby doesn't allow it. abby was jumping all over the place with company. she was so funny screaming for attention. Martha has a 60 pound dog who is very friendly and sometimes sleeps on martha's head.

I don't know how I made it through this week. I really need this weekend to recuperate.

I know it is hard… I'm sorry Bobby :hug::hug::hug:

You have been going through so much like a trooper. I feel guilty a lot about writing down my complaints. I am sorry I do that. I don't know how you can do it! Is it kitty power with a little corey mixed in? what strength you have. You are just amazing!
Love
bobby

Apologize that I get really angry at these kind of therapists.

Even if you had kind of opened door to medical talk, she is supposed to back off from it.

She does not know your medical history or the history that you have with your M.D.

Also, lots of people have loved ones with diabetes so they think they know more about it than they really do.

M

Totally agree, Mari.

I am open about my health problems with my pdoc, but that has been MY choice, and not a problem because she understands all my medical issues, and doesn't butt in unless appropriate..

Therapists are totally different. They don't tend to have the same kind of understanding of medical issues (and sometimes other things). My last one was a PITA about that **** and I often had to waste MY time explaining to her why her dumb suggestions wouldn't work.

Sometimes people just need someone to listen. Therapists should be able to pick up on those cues.

I am going to confront her and ask her why she was going against what the doctor recommended. I wonder what she will say. I am just touching my weight high again. who knows maybe he will change my diabetes medication.
I am so frustrated about my eating. I was safe until I almost went to bed. then I pigged out. I haven't checked ebay yet which is a good sign.I think I am going to eat a lot of eggs. I have been drinking maxwell house coffee again and like it so much better than the different keurig brands I have tried. I bought the do it yourself cups and will make my own. last night I had a sense of well being besides the eating and spending. I feel so relieved about telling on richard. before I would feel guilty and worry about getting him in trouble, especially since he has a three month old but this time I worried about myself first besides being grossed out.

I am glad that you reported/gave feedback about richard.
Think how many other people who received inadequate care.
Agencies need this feed back.
You did the right thing.
I am going to look at the spices link.
My weight is out of hand.
bizi

although i am still in a very good mood now I feel anger when something happens like when my therapist challenged me about testing for sugar a few times and of course richard, robert came over to help me and I got mad when he was showing off about the things he could do like touch his toes etc which i showed him i could do. I didn't know at this point if i could.
am still scared about spending

I was very worried about something the past couple of days but it was resolved and I still feel great even though i see richard soon. I won't tell him this is the last time. if he uses the bathroom this time i will time him for my own sake.
I think i will also ask him what he has been doing with his smart phone. I wonder if he can intimidate me.
I bought a new pair of shoes this morning that I have been watching for a month. I had to buy them in taupe. the navy ran out. yesterday I hardly ate so maybe this spending and eating are winding down. darn those shoes. they kept on coming up on ads on sites I visit and it worked for them-weak willed-so much one can take

I like that you are being more assertive lately and putting your own health and needs first :hug:

I am worried about my own spending, too. It is not under control. We have had a couple of sizable expenses like my glasses and the pot doc appointment, and i know I should be slowing down, but I’m not :o

yesterday i gave cecilia two sweaters and today i will try to give her another one. she liked them. I wanted them to be loose and they will be loose on her.
I am worried about going to mail the part of the coffee maker. yesterday after physical therapy I went out and almost fell through a glass door and then also feel a couple of more times on the same short trip-across the street, I was using my cane but my balance and weakness in one leg is a bad combination even though i have shown improvement. Last night I took a really bad fall and almost smashed my head. I was so lucky. I hurt the palm of my hand to cut the fall. I will try to be very careful. abby isn't feeling well. she doesn't have energy. she came to the bed and is sleeping. yesterday she slept most of the day. if she doesn't perk up tomorrow i might take her to the vet.
richard was much better yesterday. He said we have one more time this week and two more next week. then he might able to get me somebody else. his agency just does short term. He didn't use the bathroom. he took my vital signs and pulse and bent over backwards being kind. I called back the agency and told them and said I wanted him til the end and mentioned that he said he could get me another therapist.The manager listened and asked questions and said she still had to speak to her supervisor.
It went very well with Marci. she thought I was in my early sixties, she was shocked.
i am still up

Bobby,

Robert might be coming three more times and you might be getting a
longer-term therapist...:)That would be good it seems.:)

M

richard is coming over in a few moments. he knows I talked to his supervisors and even told them he picked his nose besides other things like not taking my vitals, watching his smart phone rather than me exercising etc

I know you treasure your independence, but I would feel much better if you didn't go outside by yourself :hug::hug::hug:

I know you will probably be upset/angry with me for saying that, but I LOVE YOU and just want you to be SAFE :hug::hug::hug:

I appreciate that and do go out as little as possible. then I take a cab to all the doctors. I ask for a companion from Dorot when I go to one doctor where there is a long walk.
Richard was extremely polite and didn't use his smart phone except when timing me. He used his computer for my vitals and timing results. Then we discovered something awful when we started to do some balancing exercises.
He told me to put my feet together. I did but left a space. Then he said no. Put them together with no space. As soon as i tried that I immediately lost my balance. At least I know what not to do to not fall. I had to have space between my feet. I asked him if I would better and he said it would take a long time because it was neurological. I am not such a happy camper. I want chinese food but I am on a diet again.low carb,low calorie. I lost six pounds fast and just had five scrambled eggs. I have been dying for scrambled eggs.
abby seems to be better most definitely but I haven't caught her eating or drinking. she still doesn't want her treats.
love
bobby

Bobby

I know you aren't wanting to use a walker. But I have a question.
Do you have a walker that has the seat that you can sit on if you get
tired. I am wanting to know because I am thinking about getting one.
And want to know how you do with it. If not I think you might
want to ask your doctor and Richard about one.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I asked richard and he said no

That is BS... you can absolutely get a walker with seat!!!
Sometimes insurance won't pay, but they may reimburse you for part of it, and they are not that expensive.
They tend to be narrower and you can hook on a tray or basket to carry things from room to room. They also have BRAKES on them, so when you set them, you are less likely to fall when you reach for it to get up from a seated position.
When I worked as a home health aide, many of my patients had them, were very happy with them, and they worked out very well for them.

Go on Walmart.com to take a look. I don't know your size, but make sure it is the right size for you before you order one, if you order one.

I'm really glad you didn't hurt yourself when you put your feet together like that. If you don't feel comfortable doing an exercise, say so.

I hope that Abby is sneak eating and drinking. How is her poop and pee?

I'm sorry you are craving Chinese food :hug:

i saw abby drink just a little. i am taking her to the vet

I just called the vets and they don;t reopen til onday. not sure what to do

I don'g know why but I have an appt for abbie tomorrow at the vets. my mood is good. I think i have been falling a lot because the p.t. makes my legs tired.
I think that I will stop spending. the vets bill should be alot

I’m sorry that you have to take Abbie to the vet. I know those appointments are expensive. I hope they say she is okay and it gives you peace of mind :hug::hug::hug:

she hasn't eaten in a few days and only drank a little