I am reading
 

My concentration came back with a good book. I couldn't read straight through the way I used to be able to but I really enjoyed myself. I just bought more of her books-six. when I was reading I wasn't depressed. I used to read like a maniac

I'm so happy that you are reading, and reading well, even if you are not keeping the same pace as you were before. You sound excited about it! I love that! :)

I am so excited. finally I have something to look forward to which is in my control. I hope my concentration and energy don't leave me. It is a way out of this brutal depression.

bobby, I am so glad that you are reading again.:Dancing-Chilli:
bizi

This is good news, Bobby. Enjoy reading.:):):):):):):):):):)

M

I woke up up about 2:30 and just stayed in bed and couldn't wait to start reading again. got on the computer and had trouble. thought it died but it was okay after I unplugged it and then put the plug in tighter. now back to reading and drinking second cup of coffee.

I used to stay up all night to finish a good book in a day. They can really draw you in. I think it's wonderful that you are looking forward to getting back into yours :)

Yes this is great!
bizi

I just bought sixty dollars worth of books from thriftbooks. I hope this is not another spending spree-scarey

It will take you forever to get through all of the books you have bought recently. Do you think reminding yourself of that before you buy again would help at all?

I think i am out of control

just bought some more and bought two audible books of the Torah. also mad an appointment with cardiologist for the seventh at 10. I missed the app scheduled in feb

bobby, sorry about the spree.
Glad that you will see your cardiologist on the 7th.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

My mailman must HATE me because of all of the packages he has to deliver to me. I have been good for a little while about not buying anything off of Amazon, but I'm adding things to my cart in my head...

I'm naughty, too :hug:

do you think there is a drug that we can take? I am serious. I just bought maxwell house at boxed k pods. so good and great price. now I want to throw out some coffee i bought I don't enjoy, I threw out some bras that were a great buy but they don't fit. I bought some other bras from ebay. It doesn't stop.

If it's a version of mania, medication could bring it down but I do not
know if that would be right for you.


You could let your pdoc know if you have not already.



M

I will mention it again to him. I think it is also related to depression, my way of dealing with it. Hopefully the more I read the less I will spend. another potential problem popped up which I can't discuss. I think it will be all right but it is something that I have been doing. I hope somebody sees it my way if it comes up.

It can be a symptom of hypomania, but shopping alone doesn't mean that someone is hypomanic, especially if they have dominant features of depression. It can also be caused by a form of OCD. I'm not familiar with it being a symptom of depression, but bipolar disorder is very complicated, so I'm sure it's possible. I'm glad that you are going to talk to your pdoc about it because it's an ongoing problem for you and causes you a lot of worries.

Personally, I think buying the coffee was okay, but I hope you can reign in your shopping in general soon :hug::hug::hug: