Support....I am here to offer support.
 

This thread may trigger some,,,,don't know.




I am here to offer specific guidance, answer questions and

most importantly, offer support to you, my friends or even lurkers.
This thread is for hygiene questions and support.
You have provided me with many many years of support.
I want to be here for you.
love
bizi

I actually had something on my mind this morning, but I'm thinking of trying to let it go and even if I did share, it'd probably be in a PM. Oh, um, but this wasn't hygiene related. Is that primarily what this thread is for? For instance dealing with the Corona virus stuff? Or anything?
Of course I'd be the first to post here. I'm so needy! Lol

Hugs to you and everyone reading!

Dear G,
I am here to offer support to you all. We are having a crisis and need our friends to talk to. I share a computer with my hubby so will be back and forth.
This is a thread to TALK about what ever you want.
Kind of like a daily chit chat, check in thread Like PC.
See you in a bit.
bizi

Ok, sounds excellent! I'm still gonna PM you though. Gonna send that really quick then go have lunch.
Hugs to all!

sorry I have been busy with dinner and guests and then cleaning disinfecting the kitchen. It has been a long day. the governor shut down the state by 5pm tomorrow. We have left over gumbo!!!!
I have 6 quarts of gumbo...going to drop some off at the friends of ours who always feed us at thanksgiving. And then 2 freezer bags full of roux/starters for more gumbo!

I still have a few things from the grocery more bread that I want to get.

I am ****** at Jeff! He is not getting it!
enough of him.
Tomorrow morning, I will talk to my clients. Will only see those who are medically necessary like toes are hurting or getting to be ingrown and give consent from their family if need to.
hugs,
bizi

Thank you, Bizi.

You are most welcome Mari.
hugs to you today as we travel unchartered waters....
love bizi:hug:

I have ordered things and spent money like crazy.
our freezer and refrigerator are full. and we don't cook much.
it is very quiet here. every one must be tending to their needs.
here to help if I can.
bizi

Indiana is going on an ordered stay at home because people just aren't listening. Hmmmm, Well that isn't true I'm listening most of the time. I'm home going out very little just when needing to for groceries. But hubbies is doing most of that. I am hoping he will take Derrick to pick his medicine and mine up Friday. And get Derrick a phone card he needs at grocery. So I don't have to go to town.

I'm still working as much as I can with my families

I am overwhelmed with work. I can't remember how to do this scheduling and I have a whole page and starting another one. I feel like I am spinning wheels. just need to get to get a system worked out. maybe just start fresh in the morning. I need to tend to the work that I still have to do one months of charting, stay at home day all of my clients are in assisted living places and they are closed to visitors. But maybe not medical personal?
I am still not well mentally.
bizi

Ok, I think this might be the beginning of a hypomanic episode. Slept 2 hours maybe and have been up since. This sucks! And couldn't come at a worse time when no doctors or pdoc are seeing anyone right now. Any advice would be welcome. Thanks!

I Accept that I am bipolar, having ups and downs.

But, We are having normal reactions to this crisis like most other people!

But it is extra hard on us!!!!!!! and more of a challenge.

ups, downs, with each others support we will get by and you will too.
Thank you for trusting me/us!!!!.







Firstly, I want to let you know that I slept well last night with out the klonipin!
I am so glad!!!!!, just my normal night meds. Yesterday, I left a snippy message about not getting iton my pdocs answering machine. today called in to apoligize for that and actually got charmaine on the phone when I called today!!!!!!!!


I laughed and cried with charmaine from dr. orazios office.
I am so blessed with her and her staffed. and told them so.
A side effect from the tegretol, I am having some urinary incontinence....up 3 times to pee. No changes in meds at this time.

there is medication for that but I don't remember what that is, she told me to call if it gets worse. She would be in the office all week.

WOW!!!!, such reassurance!!!!!!



I have interacted with my family and friends this morning and told them I loved them and am bipolar, ups and downs(because I sound "crazy") to reassure them.

I think They understood this.!!!!
Same with Jeff
("I love you and need you")

same with you guys. This forum.
I am so blessed!!!!!
I am going to take a shower.....
and we all know how I feel about that!:eek:

Just to reiterate....
I am just bipolar and I really am OK!


I will be on here off and on thru out the day but not all the time as jeff needs this for teaching from home his students and we are sharing this computer.


love you
bizi

Bizi

I think you doing what you are and can will be great. I personally also.think just calling in when you need to might help you too. Because your doctors are supposed to be able to communicate on the computer or phone.

Also Bizi, keep a good record now of your not wanting or needing to drink. This is something I am seeing as a very big positive for you.

Your proc will need to know it's definitely coming.

sorry I have been missing.
will catch up tomorrow.
I think I will get a notice when amazon gets more toilet paper in stock.
love you guys
bizi

Love you too Bizi! *hugs

Just a quick check in if you see this first. I slept better last night, but still woke up several times with racing thoughts I had to take time to settle before falling back asleep. What I forgot to mention in my thread is that I slept in though. (Slept about 2am to 12:20pm) so decent sleep, but I'm a little off schedule. So time to get going! :)

Sorry for being absent.:(
But I was having a crisis.
my meds got messed up and some how I must of taken double meds along the way. Talked to dr. Orazio and confessed that I took 5mg of klonipin, she about hit the roof. She was so angry with me. and told jeff I could have died.

threatened to leave me. Talked to jeff who is to now monitor my meds.
I feel ok this morning. slept 12-8 only getting up at 5 to go pee. so that is good . I feel well rested.


Am going to try to get my routine back to normal. lunch at 1130 then take meds, dinner at 6 then meds. night time meds at 1130pm bed at midnight.
no coffee, just herbal tea.
am going to do some cleaning today. bought a mop yesterday.
Jeff is going to bring in his big computer from school though he is not supposed to be on campus.
I will try to sneak on here when I can.
bizi

I hope you are doing alright today! try to get in a routine....at least that is helping me.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

i don't get it. It is so hard to overdose on klonopin.
love
bobby

I was manic/psychotic and needed to sleep so that is why I took 5mg.
I guess it doesn't mix with the hydroxyzine?
love bizi

Keep yourself safe. :)

Thanks!
I was able to get some toilet paper! yay
and find a planner like journal. more hand sanitizer!
bought a costco membership, and saw a good friend, nikko from the lunch bunch days.



Unfortunately, Today Dr. Orazio took away my driving privileges. I see her again in a week next wednesday 3;40. She will probably run late.. teleconference on line video using zoom.

If I need to go anywhere then Jeff has to drive me.
Cooked lemon pepper talapia and jeff had some tabouli and I had some red lentil soup for dinner.took correct meds and went for a walk that I could only do half 40 minutes....I think that is pretty good for me. I held Jeff back because he likes to walk faster than that. so I guess we will walk separately from now on. sigh


I am writing things down because I can't remember crap.


sorry I have not been present to provide support like I wanted.
Jeff is working out of this office for his school, (he has 3 students on line tomorrow using zoom).
It is working well enough!
So sharing the office is difficult.



lots of hugs for those who need them
:hug::hug::hug:bizi

Sorry you're going through all of this Bizi! Hope things settle soon and you can get back to "normal" again.

Yes, routine...well, I've got one, but hubby doesn't seem to like it. Actually, he's like "you're sleeping in till 2pm". No I'm not, I tell him. "well, even if you wake up at 8 and eat breakfast and then go back to sleep..." (i forget the rest, if there was a rest) I didn't say anything (that I can remember), but I'm thinking about today and how I actually got lunched prepped BEFORE I even had breakfast, I stayed up to cook said lunch, and only then did I nap. And this week is crazy because of the hypo/poor sleep. He's just oblivious to reality and what I go through! And he doesn't realize that with him being home, he actually disrupts my routine...somewhat. I mean, ok, it hasn't been nearly that bad, but like I can't relax and cook whenever I want and I HAVE to cook every day now since we can't go get food like he does in the city. It's more work on me...and again, with the whole prepping and arranging for my appointment this week... sigh!

Bizi,

Take care of yourself. I'm sorry but also not sorry she took your driving privileges. Because I'd be afraid something could happen to you. Just getting disoriented would be bad.

We all need to take care of ourselves. So we can take care of others

yeah, i agree-sorry but also not sorry. But this is coming from someone who pretty much has other people drive me around these days anyway (driving anxiety), but I do understand the frustration of not being able to go as you please. I really do!

uhhhh, oh, I can't remember NOW, but I was wanting to add something to my post from last night...something about the argument with hubby about me sleeping till two. Oh, one part was the frustration that well I obviously don't sleep until 2. He gets upset that i stay in bed till then though, but i'm doing my online stuff and watching my program and having breakfast/coffee/taking my meds-I'm not SLEEPING! There may have been something else, but I forget now.

the rest of my update for today is in my journal.

As of today, 5pm friday 3-27-20
The traveling foot nurse is no longer in business due to the corona virus epidemic. Not a happy day, over 20 years in service, this is a sad day.
bizi
very sad day.

I am so sorry
love
bobby

Bizi

It has to be hard I hope you can start it up again after this. But if nothing else maybe you can find some ways to help

Since I can't drive right now...(other than sandras).
I was thinking how I could help...maybe go to the cajun dom and help there?
Jeff can drop me off.....just thinking ahead. I still have my whole house to clean.


I still have to finish charting, I have a few hours of that to do.
Jeff is talking to the neighbors we have not seen their folks for the past 2 weeks, they are in their 80's.


bizi

Bizi-does this mean YOU are out of work for now??? Regardless, i'm sorry. :/

Well folks! Hubby said it again. I have an internet addiction. He was bummed he couldn't tell the doctor this-that I'm not getting better in this regard. Fact of the matter is, he spends all his free time either online or playing video games. What does he expect me to do??!! Know what it is?? Earlier this evening he was requesting I make cookies again. Since those weren't made already tonight, he needed me to prepare another snack for him. I'm seriously feeling like he's expecting me to be some sort of stepford wife or something!! Like, I shouldn't be online, I should be doing things for him and the household! I'm really getting sick of this, but i didn't argue about it tonight. Too frustrated to argue. I dunno. :/ (oh no, actually I wanted to be sure I knew exactly what "stepford wife" meant before I mentioned it. Robot-like and doing everything for your family. Yep! I was right!) Ugh!!

Good luck, Bizi,


People will be doing stuff online for a while.

Can you see yourself talking about foot care on a YouTube channel?



M

what a great idea! Jeff probably has the equipment. I know I watch it!
Love
bobby

i got this from a bp letter I receive re the virus

Irritation. Getting ****** off is often a by-product of fear. If you’re stuck at home with roommates you rarely see or family members whom you need to avoid for your own stability, make a plan now. You determine your relationships. Make a pact with yourself now. You will not fight or get irritated with others.

What a fantastic idea!!!!!! I will ask jeff to help me set it up!
You're a peach...
love you
bizi

I am in close contact with Kay.
This is what I wrote to her today:

making lists...
Getting ready to shower!
going to have a muffalotta for lunch!
Love you guys!
bizi

I'm glad you think so! I'd be interested in it too!

Yeah, but can they make some suggestions, lol cuz I'm pretty peeved lately! Although I'm smiling and relaxed at the moment. Thank God!

Gee,

I think you hit the Mark on the nose.
Each time he sits down for an game online or otherwise. Or just internet.
Record the time he starts. 2:30pm say,
Off 5:00 pm for dinner, 5:30pm back on
11:30pm off bed.

Do the same for you. Also record when you make meals as off time.
Record cleaning as off time.

If you wanted to watch a movie or show with him but he wouldn't record that.

Also do not record his work time online, it doesn't count.

When it comes to your writing time. Yes record it. But state, I have no typewriter, and don't like writing out so I'm doing on the computer. (Non computer) internet time.

Show him why your on. And also show you will make things but it's give and take both ways. Kind of like Bizi and Jeff do. No he won't get that but you do.


Hoping this makes sense

Good morning donna!
You make perfect sense!
love bizi

Thanks Donna! I am trying to do this and will continue trying. uhhh, i forget what time I sat down just now to the internet and when cooking stopped...man, cooking was at least 2.5hours, so maybe 3hrs and I've been online now almost an hour? (sounds fair enough) I didn't track his internet time today this morning. Probably on and off for an hour or hour and a half....similar to me. And yeah, of course I don't count his work hours in my records, but for arguments' sake, like if he's worried about me sitting around inactive or my eyes...well, he has that same problem too...but you're right. That doesn't really count.

I guess the hardest thing for me is the showing I will do things or "make" things, because I'm pretty sure I do that and he still doesn't give as much, IMO...and always has one excuse or another when I do bring that up.

Kinda not exactly sure what to write in my journal for today. Kinda still seeing where things go. We cooked together today relatively peacefully, but there was still some bickering. Not sure how the night is gonna go in terms of "intimacy", which is so nervewrecking and frustrating for me when he expects to do things when I'm not in the mood. (hope this isn't tmi for anyone) so...to be continued. ;)

best!

gee,
as long as you are a consenting partner, I don't see a problem posting here if you want feed back....Hubby and I have not had sex in a very long time....years! I have no interest, and neither does he.
We give each other peck kissed and hug often when he comes home from work. We have our own rooms. take care sweetie.
bizi