icky....hate withdrawl
 

:(

I am so mad at myself. Ran out of my mood stablizer and didn't notice I was out of refills. So none last night.

I have been so busy taking care of everyone else I forgot about me.

Somebody else did this last week too. Man, I am so sorry. I hope you got your meds.

I feel like utter crap and have done nothing constructive all day.

I should just go home, but there is no one else here.

I called the pharmacy to see if they had found the pdoc. He is terrible to get a hold of sometimes. They said they'd just give me some to get by until they can find him. Thank heavens. Saints, as far as I am concerned right now.

DON'T forget your meds, Bear. Bad girl.

sigh

You do take care of everyone else....
Remember you are the most important person in your life....YOU!
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi:grouphug:

Bear

I'm so glad you called the pharmacy and they can help you.

This is great news. And I agree you do take care of everyone else.

Its a mom thing we all have. Good luck on feeling better soon.:grouphug:

Donna

Bear,

It is good you are able to get some for now. Take care.

befuddled2

I hope you feel better soon Mrs. Bear, I have gone a day without abilify and it was nothing I care to repeat...Definitely a horrible day and I was lucky they had the med in stock. Sometimes they have to order it, so I was lucky. Glad the pharmacy helped you get through this, they understand about withdrawel and that is why they helped you like that. :)

I agree with Donna, it's a Mom thing, but you have to remember to take care of you sometimes. :)

Here it is Wednesday, and the pdoc still hasn't called in my script.

And I don't really want to ask the pharmacy to front me any more pills. They are the ones who are out the money as long as the doc is messing about.

I am really not feeling well. I can't believe that this is all just chemical sensitivity. I have only been out since last night. I have to wonder how much of this is my expectation of how I should feel without the meds.

But I do know my mind is everywhere and nowhere. I am having the most difficult time concentrating. I so want to go home.

The work on my desk feels like skyscrapers and I can't even concentrate on where to begin.

You know, I never knew how bad I felt before the meds. Does that make sense? Now that I know what it feels like to be stable, I can't imagine staying like this.

I am starting to realise though that I never really fully recovered from my mania this spring. I have been thinking about my behaviour. I see a pattern that seriously suggests that I have been mildly depressed. Which is better; I was REALLY bad before the med change. But my anxiety level is sky high. All the time. Over nothing. Can't make myself shower, won't leave the house, can barely keep it clean, tired all the time and now I can't get to sleep. Strange, foreign thoughts-really dark. ugh I can usually just ignore them, but not when I don't have meds.

Sigh. everywhere and no where. Enough whining. Just helps to say it out loud instead of it spinning away in my head with nowhere to go.

Bear this is the time to think of yourself..Please call the pharmany again,
they don't want you to suffer.and if your Doc has made you wait this long,
he or she needs to shape up...grrrrr...old nurse Sue

Call your p-doc again, then call your pharmacy again, explain to the pharmacy what is going on. Let them give you some, until this gets straightened out.

Make sure your p-doc knows what you have been going through and for how long.

Good Luck, Nikko:hug:

Dear Mrs. Bear,

Can I be outraged for you that the pdoc is not being good to you. :mad:
Look, missing a dose or two is a big deal. These meds are powerful.

I'm sorry that you have been feeling so off and down lately. :hug:

Mari

Dear Bear,
I hope you called the pharmacy and pdocs office again.
This really is upsetting!
I am sorry that your anxiety is out the roof and that you are feeling unbalanced.
There is a lot of stress this time of year and you need your meds!!!!!
Could you possibly fax something over there....just another way to get their attention and then it is also documented for your chart.
I am sorry sweetie.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

:( I fell asleep last night. Got home, laid down and got up long enough to make dinner and was out cold. oops
BUT, Wes has a pdoc appointment scheduled for tonight. he-he Forgot about that one. I am rescued.

Now, for a plan to never put myself in this position again.

ahhh. Just a couple of more hours. I can do this.

The pdoc's secretary is no more. He let her go. And he is private practice, no group, just him. I can see how stuff gets away from him. It happens to me all the time.

Maybe I will offer him a Christmas present and go through his pharmacy call backs with him tonight at the appointment? Can't be too rough or much different than what I do all day?

OMG. I am not positive, but I think my body is not liking the Triliptal.

Since Monday night, I have had the most obnoxious case of Vertigo. At first I thought I might be getting ill again. With the fibro, I never know. Not until it's really bad. Even then, I am never sure.

But it's not all the time. It hits, I fall down and it's gone. Almost amuseing. And it's worse when I lay down. Ever had the spins from drinking too much? Almost like that.

Then I thought it was stress and that the episodes were panic. But I don't get the tight chest and heart pound-ies until after the dizzy spells.

So, last night I was picking up my weekly load from the pharmacy and asked the pharmacist if the spells were side effects from any of my meds. Well, heck. Yes they are.

I dropped my dose in half last night and could barely get out of bed this morning. Every thing is spinning.

So, causionary tale. If one has been off a med that has such violent side effects, one must titrate back UP on them as if starting over. Oh my. I should have known better.

The pdoc admonished me and made me promise to call his cell phone if he ever gets that behind on scripts again, btw. LOL. He wouldn't even charge us his co-pay, he felt so bad.

What a crappy time of year to be ill. Nothing is getting done. Oh well. All I can do is what I am doing. sigh. No super hero here. Just me. :D

This is the first time you took Triliptal? What is that drug?

How long have you been on it so far? Is it in place of another drug?

Either it is the med, or you have a bad case of Vertigo and maybe your regular PCP can help. That must be an awful feeling. I am not sure what causes Vertigo. A ear infection maybe. Did you fall recently?

I hope you get some answers tonight. Please don't drive.;)

Take it real easy.

Hugs, Nikko:hug:

Trileptal is funny ... and not funny haha either.
 

without changing doses or anything, after a mild virus, i was getting major paresthesia after my morning dose... a lot in the face, but all the way to the arms and torso. EXTREME KNOCKOUT tho if i managed to stumble around through the haze, it would pass.

trileptal has a two stage metabolism, as the drug is absorbed it rapidly converts into its active metabolite... it takes about 3 hours for half of the dose to get converted... and then it goes more slowly (trileptal t50 = 3 hours, active metabolite t50 =~ 12 hrs).

If for any reason your body is metabolizing it more slowly than before... you can go toxic. also trileptal can cause low sodium levels and other blood anomalies. PLEASE have a blood check ASAP.

I don't like the sound of this with Trileptal mixed up in it

I really hope you are ok soon.

:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

I was trying to avoid the docs' office. mmmm...... Hoping it will pass, waiting a few more days.

I will call the pdoc. sigh

I've been on trileptal since around June or July. Had to switch off Lamictal cause it was effecting my eyes. Then went to Lithium and had to go off it cause of 15 to 20 pound weight gain and dehydration issues. That is when I went to Trileptal.

Then I ran out of refills and didn't get my meds for another week. The pharmacy fronted me a bunch, but I still ran out before the script got called in. But I was really only off it 4 days total, split here and there. Just a mess.

Why can't I be normal? lol....Wes always says that. I tell him normal is no fun. Why would we want to be like everyone else? lol

Maybe it is because you had to wait for the script to be filled, and your body went through the beginning of withdrawal. Now that you are back on schedule, hopefully the side effects will subside.

Then again don't wait too long, because it could be that, or a real bad case of Vertigo.

Good Luck.......:hug:Nikko

Dear Bear, I am so sorry. I have often accidentally let my meds run out before refilling them, and even one day without is hideous. Over time I have found that sitting next to the pharmacy counter, raving and foaming at the mouth is highly effective. :D The pharmacy staff will get sick of you and start to call your doctor for the refill! Docs respond much more quickly to pharmacists pestering them than mere lowly patients. :hug:

Yes I was one of those that got low sodium from the trileptal and low wbc and rbc too, could not figure out why I could not donate blood, low rbc...anyway.
When I switched to lamictal I don't remember having to taper off the trileptal, sense I was having symptoms we jsut stopped it and started on the low dose of lamictal.
What happened to your eyes?
was this unusual? I had never heard of that as being a side effect from that.
are you feeling any better?
How is wes?
((((HUGS))))
bizi

It was weird. All the sudden, everything just got blurry. I couldn't focus and when I mentioned it to the pdoc, he tapered me right off.

Wes started having trouble with his eyes a few months ago and the pdoc is tapering him off too.

I guess it's one of those strange and infrequent side effects.

Vertigo kicked my butt last night driving but it was because of the snow that was blowing sideways and the windsheild wipers.

This morning is so much better. Yipeee!

Sorry about the vertigo...been nauseated with it?
ugh!
bizi

Yep. Good way to diet during the holidays. I am getting better every day. Just one little dizzy spell today and no nausea. I am starving though.

Thanks for the sympathy. I needed it. :grouphug:

Dear Mrs. Bear
 

I'm glad you are feeling so much better. hopefully you will be "all fixed" again soon. ;)

Thanks for letting us know.

~ waves ~

My parents are weird. Or rather, they CONTINUE to be weird.
 

need to start a new thread. sorry.

Dear Bear,

That is good that you are feeling better.

M.