Weekend Check In
 

A day late, oops....................

I just have been busy, yet tired. No plans for the weekend as it stands now.

How is everyone....check in when you can.

Nikko:grouphug:

Did you notice dear, that since you were busy yesterday, we all freaked? You were missed. :)

I am avoiding my accounting. I actually just woke up.

SO, in between playing detective in order to find accounting mistakes and cleaning the basement out in order to start our remodel..........I am going to try and rest. lol

Somehow that doesn't seem possible.

Oh....I forgot to say that I enrolled in a University and it's all online if the course is available online, taking a course - Vet Assisting. I am very excited about it.:)

It isn't a certification to be a Vet Assistant, but it will open many door's. Then if the State has a test for certification I will be well prepared.

You can pay by the month, no interest. I am just waiting for UPS to deliver my books and such.

I also finished that course with the HSUS "Interpreting Dog Behavior and Safe Handling" I am waiting for my certificate in the mail now.:) I passed!!!:)

That's my latest news!!!!!

Nikko:grouphug:

How exciting is that!!!!!!
I am so happy for you for making this effort and you passed the first class!
Fantastic!!!
thanks for the update.
((((HUGS))))
bizi:hug:

Mrs. Bear,
A redmodel? Sounds like a lot of work. But maybe you yourself don't do the work, you just try to keep the dust down to a minimum.

Nikko,
That's great that you are enjoying the classes. Have fun.



I haven't figured out yet what I need to do today. Maybe some grocery shopping.

M.

I'm hanging around my place all day today stressed to the max. Now I'm just down in the dumps from pure exhaustion from frustration. I've been trying to sleep the day away but my phone keeps ringing. I'm going to bed early tonight. I'll have to see how I feel tomorrow as to whether I go out.

befuddled2

Calm Focused Mind vs Catatonic Body
 

I'm trying to get activated enough to do some chores. I don't feel depressed, or manic, but mostly catatonic. Happily slept till 1pm (both kids are at their dad's so I could sleep late!)

I've just sat on the couch all day, even though I need to go grocery shopping, return library books, pick up prescriptions, mail package at post office. I just can't seem to get my body to cooperate.

It's so weird! WTHell is going on! is this a symptom? :eek:

I feel like my brain is on one side of the room glaring at my body which is on the other side of the room(on the couch watching TV!) How can I get my butt in gear without overdosing on caffeine??????

molly,
geeesh!
you are being way too hard on yourself.
It is ok to just have veg days....really.
sounds like your body is telling you to slow down...
hope that you can enjoy the rest of your weekend.
bizi

Present! (not exactly a gift tho... unless you consider ME one!)
 

Nikko - sooooooooooooooooo glad (and relieved, lol as Mrs Bear said yeah, i was one who freaked), yeah i know i've been freaky but i SOOOO noticed you were not here!!! missed you, yes.

CONGRATULATIONS on your course, and your very well thought out plans ... sounds like your ship is sailing!!! WOWWEEE. :) I am so happy for you! :)

Molly what you describe can happen in depression too you know, without feeling depressed. but lets be conservative - i would tend to agree wth bizi, sometimes, we just need some downtime... i am a stronggggg believer in listening to my body. Would you be able to allow your mind to observe and listen instead of glare... maybe ask your body how it is feeling, and patiently await for an answer. You may get one, or, you may not because your body is just too tired and that in itself will be an answer. I wish you all the harmony that you do not seem to have at the moment.

Mrs Bear honey you just have too much on your plate what between number fidgeting and basement clearing hello they aren't even related haha i can see trying to multitask those two.... give yourself a break. put some of that stuff in a tupperware container for tomorrow, k? and only leave a reasonably about of food on your plate! PLease? If you "stuff" yourself, you will be sorry! I'm sorry you have so much stuff going on tho!

Mari grocery shopping hmmmm haven't done that in over a year basically, when i lived alone. it almost sounds.... exciting??? :D <== Hey, don't laugh!!! I'm DEAD SERIOUS. ok no, wait now don't freak guys heck... i'm LIVING SERIOUS!!!! Actually I'm LIVING HILARIOUSLY!!!

Bizi have a :hug: sweetie!

Barbara I hope you are lifted up up UP :BeamUp: from the downy dumpy state soon and the stress releases. Can you punch pillows for the stress? That sometimes helps me.

I wish i could sprinkle you all with my abundant hilarity and energy of these past days... regardless where you are, you would enjoy... i know that much :p ;)

Oh me, oh my gotta log my sleep and meds again (i did catch up before but behind again... at least i'm doing it relatively. yay me, rah rah rah!!!)

my dad is right now making pasta with olives, capers and anchovies for lunch!
:Starvin: YUMMMMMMMMMMM!!!! :Starvin:
Anyone wanna parttake?

~ waves ~
~ whishing off to log :OuttaHere: (and eat) and
~ wishing you all a great Sunday :)

:Dancing-Chilli::grouphug::Dancing-Chilli:

Nikko...I am so excited for you!! Awesome. :cool:

I fell asleep about 5:30 last night. So, I did rest. And no accounting was done. lol that will be today. It is snowing here, so we can't move the trailor to the storage unit.

I need the physical activity, but oye it hurts. Gotta find that place where the good stuff doesn't move into the bad.

I am ok. This will pass. Is just a moment in time. There are worse things to contend with. It's just annoying.

Mrs. Bear glad you got some :Zzzz: and put off the accounting for the weekend.:)


Mari - I am the same way some days, things to do, but not sure which to do or when.:confused:

BF - Take you phone off the hook, to get some rest.:Zzzz:

Molly - give yourself some time, baby steps, things will get done.:Bow:

Waves - I will be over for dinner, sounds yummy!:Starvin:

I have been doing a bit around the house, hanging some new pictures, changing things around. Wasn't in the mood to go out this weekend, nor have company.

Friday night Dirk and I had a Amber bubble bath, with a Mango/ Apricot candle, Champagne, and Barry White playing in the background :Music 2:. I turned on the jacuzzi yets and the bubbles went haywire.:heartthrob:

The aromatherapy with the mix of the amber and the candle of Mango and Apricots, smelled so pretty.:Wave-Hello:

I wish I could mix candles and make them smell real good. I guess it was the Amber bubble and the candle just mixed perfectly.

It's Sunday and a Football day.......dinner at home, then a movie to watch tonight, not sure which one yet.:Scratch-Head: Dirk has a load of movies on DVD that I haven't seen, some he hasn't seen either. Have to check PPV on cable too.

Tomorrow I have the shoulder surgeon for a check, which I don't think I need. Thursday I have the p-doc in the afternoon.

Love, Laughs and Hugs, Nikko:grouphug:

Sounds like you are having a really nice weekend nikko.:)

I need to get somethings done...ready for work....think about taxes...end of year stuff.

have gained 15 pounds this past year...really need to think about dieting....
joy!

hi waves!!!!:Wave-Hello:
bizi

Bizi - do you think one of you meds made you gain the weight?

I have heard of several of them that do.:confused: and then some that make you lose weight.

Diets are okay, but I think walking really helps, plus it gives me some pep.

I only walk my dogs, and it not a real long mile walk or anything, but it does do me some good.

:hug: Nikko

hang in and hang on.................:p

Thank you so much for the reassurance. Now that I have been diagnosed with BD and have started lithium, I am impatient [probably too impatient] for everything in my life to become all put back together! I like the ideas of letting myself just relax on the weekend! and also of listening and observing. Ahhhhhhh... understanding and support - I've never had that [tears].

Today was a bit better. My sleep was messed up (to sleep at 3am, up at 11am), but I went to the grocery store with a friend/guide/rescuer, did 2 loads of laundry, and emptied the dishwasher. So when my kids come back on Wednesday they won't scream at me too much for being a "lazy mom"!

It was good to get out of the house today. I have become such a hermit.

nikko,
I think that I eat too much and don't move enough.
I think a new years resolution could be simply put:

EAT LESS...MOVE MORE:)

Bizi i love your new sig with all the animals holding hands!!!
i wonder if we could have that somehow as a banner here at Neurotalk...
it says here we are all different but joining in joy and suffering
such a warm, powerful image.

i think i might sleep for an hour or so. lol. an hour or so.

A couple of years ago I was becoming a complete mess, moodwise. Then the physical sx's whapped me nailed me to the floor. It was as if I'd expended my last reserves of physical energy and nothing I could do revived them. The mind had little to do with it, 'cause it was as if mind and body were separate entities at odds with one another. Turns out it was Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, the most common reason for hypothyroidism. And hypothyroidism is where the thyroid gland doesn't produce enough hormone that enables cells to produce energy. Hashi's is where the body rebells against the gland and bit by bit puts it out of commission. Extreme fatigue and phantom muscle pain in the limbs was my clue that it wasn't depression-related. Got it taken care of through supplements and things got better over time, though I was in need of a MS to help sort me out for a while. But because I'm UP and not BP, it ceased to be needed.

Don't worry too much, just find the source. And if it is the body simply saying it needs recuperation time, then let it have it. Sometimes that's necessary.

;) RW

Pensive & Worried
 

Substitute teaching isn't panning-out like I'd hoped it might. I was being too optimistic about it. Subbing is a fickle paycheck. And I should've been job hunting much sooner.... But I wasn't, really, and I feel like I'm getting backed into a corner. No fun. It's worrisome, too. I miss my old job, even with b!tchwoman supervisor (hmm...no, I don't miss her at all), even though I was biting the bill bullet then, too. I'd just overextended myself a bit over the years with housing and it finally was catching up to me. (I wasn't very smart there, was I?) *sigh* Guess now I must pay the piper somehow. Gotta find some regular work...and fear my past three years' experience with b!tchwoman is hampering my hireability.

How can I word past 'reasons for leaving' without mentioning this conflict? It was the reason I left! What do I do?

--RW

RAvenswings,
I am glad that you were able to finally figure out it was thyroid related....your symptoms sounded miserable.
May I ask you what you mean by "up and not BP"...
just curious
bizi

Not 'up'. I was trying to shorthand unipolar. The pdoc has me listed as Unipolar, chronic moderate depressive. That's a mouthful to say and to type! He said part of the revved, buzzing stuff and the irritability were due to anxiety which was part of the depressive states. ?? Whatever the case, I know that if I forget to take the AD for more than two days the Furies start to return (my name for the rage/anxiety/etc.) I've been off of Lithium for a year, with no other MS necessary. So now I have all this Lithobid I don't know what to do with. :rolleyes: But who can tell? There were several episodes of something when I was in college that I still can't explain. A hypohypomanic state, cause unknown. Haven't had one of those in years, and have no idea if it was related in any way. That was also a period of time when I was having weirdness that I've seen described as simple-partial seizures. Since leaving college, I haven't had either those or the hypomanic-like episodes. Danged if I know why or why not?

Sorry for any confusion. I'll go study my shorthand.

--RW