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RedPenguins 02-15-2008 02:11 AM

Daytrana for fatigue?
 


Hi again,

Yes, I still hate this disease. Another day, still hate it.

I take provigil - 400mg a day. Don't know that it's doing squat for me. Sigh.

Has anyone tried DAYTRANA for fatigue? It is used for ADHD (like provigil is) - it is also used for treatment of narcolepsy. My psychiatrist mentioned it to me when I told him the provigil wasn't cutting it - and he suggested I mention it to my neuro (since other ADHD meds are often used for the fatigue).

I'm looking into it - as I had gastric bypass several years ago - and I don't always absorb all pills properly - and things that are supposed to be long or extended release don't really do their job rights. Daytrana is actually a skin patch - so it wouldn't need to be absorbed through the stomach.

I will ask my neurologist tomorrow when I see him....but I'm curious if anyone has heard of it or tried it, etc. :Dunno:

What other meds have people tried for fatigue besides provigil?

I know amantadine/Symmetrel is also used....

Any others? I heard someone once say prozac has been used...but I'm already on another antidepressant. LOL.


Anyhow...last Sunday I felt great - I went to brunch with friends....then I got into my car to drive home - and felt like a piece of dead wood - I couldn't move to even drive home. I had to sit in my car for over 25 minutes before I could muster up the energy to drive - and that was on the provigil! :Speechless: (And I ain't NEVUH speechless!)

~Keri

ps/we need to work with neurotalk to get some more funky icons on here! :idea:


duvabw 02-15-2008 07:47 AM

Hello,

I took Amantadine several years ago, while it works for many, it done nothing for me.

I now take Provigil (400mgs daily). May I ask what dose of Provigil you are taking? I hadn't heard that Provigil is used for ADHD - but can understand where that may be possible. I've also heard that Prozac can be helpful with fatigue.

Provigil gives me no extra energy. In fact, I can take it and go right back to sleep. I really only know that it helps me when I don't take it. It does help me to "Function" - be able to put my thoughts together etc.

I've never heard of Daytrana. Having had the gastro bypass, it sounds as if the patch may work better for you since you have problems absorbing things when digesting them.

I know other meds for ADHD have helped many with fatigue (Ritalin, Adderal etc) so I suppose it's possible the Daytrana, being a med for ADHD, could help. My daughter has ADD (along with many other health issues) and now takes both Strattera and Concerta. She has taken Ritalin and Adderal in the past. Neither worked as well as the ones she is on now and the Adderal caused severe weight loss.

Sorry that I can't be more helpful - but I would suggest that you discuss it with your neuro.

Please let us know what your neuro says and how you're doing.

Hope you have a great weekend! :)

btw: Another day, and I understand - I still hate MS too! ;)

RedPenguins 02-15-2008 08:15 AM

Oopsie...dosage, etc.
 

Wow, Duva, definitely sounds like your daughter has been thru the gamut of meds....glad you/she found something that worked! And am glad to hear the provigil helps with putting your thoughts together. I'm not sure if it is helping with that. I'm just trying to function - in the most basic sense - who cares if I make "sense" lol.

Oopsie...I forgot to put the dosage of provigil....I'm also on 400mg of provigil. I can also take it and go right back to sleep. I also just re-read something - and provigil is and isn't for ADHD. It was made for narcolepsy....however, an official off-label use for it is for ADHD. I remember one of the first few days that I took it - and I was in Staples (an office supply store) - and was in the pen aisle - and I was totally tripping out b/c I couldn't focus on anything (not visually - though that was an issue, too) - but there was so much stimulation, I was bugging out) - and I totally thought - this is giving me ADHD! :holysheep:

I'm definitely going to ask my neuro about the daytrana. Sounds worth a try... (Of course, at this point, I'm so :mad:, :confused:, :Red eyes:, :icon_twisted:, :Sick:, :shocked:, :Bawling:, :Sinking:, :Zzzz:, :Sob:, :Help:, :Crazy 2:, and :yikes:, etc. that I will try probably anything, even if it means that I will grow a rat's tail!) :eek:

I'll let you know. Of course, I have hours to go.... My puppy woke me up in the middle of the night AGAIN. Yes, I was given a puppy for Xmas....she arrived a week before the diagnosis came - right before my flare-up hit it's worst. I can barely take care of myself, let alone a puppy and am at my wit's end (see icons above!!). I nearly fall over every time I have to pick up a wee-wee pad. Especially at 5am.

~Keri

RedPenguins 02-15-2008 05:04 PM

Hmmm....I'm replying to myself
 

Well, now I'm replying to myself. (Is talking to oneself a symptom?) :p

I saw my neuro - and we agreed that my symptoms are returning - this flare up isn't dying down...but anyhow - the point of this thread was regarding fatigue...

Doesn't seem that the provigil is doing anything... I mentioned the daytrana...he didn't know much about it - so he called the phamacist downstairs....and he is willing to give it a try and he gave me a prescription for it.

Is is a very new drug apparently (wasnt even in the doc's system - they are VERY computerized in his office) - and none of the pharmacies in my area even have it in stock yet - and I live in a major city. So, I will have it on Tuesday and will give it a try.

Actually - it's technically and "old" drug - but the patch form is new.

I also signed the paperwork for Tysabri...but that's a whole different thread.

Wondering still what else others do for fatigue (other than nap 24/7).

~Keri

braingonebad 02-15-2008 06:02 PM

Never heard of Daytrana - but I'm ready to call my neuro anytime I hear of a fatigue med.

:)

I tried amantadine, nada (or make that nod - a) and provigil helped for a while then quit on me.

My neuro and I talked about combining them, but A makes my stomach hurt - the only part of my body that is, so far, okay. I didn't want to go there.

I was thinking of something that would just up the efficacy of the provigil, but things that do so also up the side effects - like headaches, cog fog.


Grapefruit juice can boost efficacy of statins like 17x - that's a bit much, if it affects provigil the same way.

:eek:

But peppermint is only 2x. I may still try that for now, see what happens. I still have a few Pro's laying around.

If you try that other stuff, I'd like to know what you think of it.

the Bird 02-15-2008 11:02 PM

Keri, I don't know when your last attack was, but I was under the impression it was very recent....and if that is the case, maybe you should allow your body to sleep when it needs to sleep. I am a big believer that your body heals itself while it is sleeping.

If I'm wrong...and it has been a long time since the last attack, the only two meds I'm aware of for sleepiness have been mentioned on this post.

doydie 02-16-2008 12:06 AM

I've tried Prozac, Amantadine and Provigil. Ritalin works the best for me.

RedPenguins 02-16-2008 12:37 AM

Still in an attack (my first in fact)
 
Bird -

I'm still in my first exacerbation (the one that brought on the dx of MS in the first place). It's been 6 weeks since dx - and since Dec 22nd since symptoms started. I'm starting my second course of IVSM tomorrow (Saturday). I have been letting my body rest as much as possible - I just don't know that sitting in bed all day every day is good for me (mind or body). I'm going to try to just sit and do nothing except rest this weekend - I had been pretty "active" the last few weekends (not active compared to before this whole thing started - but active enough to where one errand knocks me out). I won't receive the patch until Tuesday anyhow...and I'll try it and see what happens. I do need to be able to function during the day, etc. I'm trying to listen to my body as far as rest is concerned - but it's hard - I'm not used to these limitations (like any of us is until they're imposed upon us)...it's all still new - only been diagnosed for 6 weeks now - so this whole concept of being "sick" is new.

But I'm excited to see if this new med will be helpful for fatigue....maybe it will. :)


In the meantime, I just keep telling myself to stay put this weekend and rest....

Stay put and rest... :Zzzz: :Sick:
Stay put and rest... :Zzzz: :Sick:
Stay put and rest... :Zzzz: :Sick:
Stay put and rest... :Zzzz: :Sick:

~Keri

lady_express_44 02-16-2008 11:00 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by the Bird (Post 216852)
maybe you should allow your body to sleep when it needs to sleep. I am a big believer that your body heals itself while it is sleeping.


I agree Bird, although I know this can be very difficult when we are trying to maintain our jobs or look after our family.

Keri, this in not like an infection, where we can just pop an antibiotic and it will be gone in 10 days. I think the NMSS offers some great advice in this regard:

"Many self-help books about chronic illness place a strong emphasis upon regaining control of one’s life, but a battle with MS must not become a battle against oneself.

If a person’s sense of self-worth hinges on being able to control all changes, then his or her ability to adapt to changes will be blunted. Sometimes the best way to improve a situation is to practice letting go of the need to control."

http://www.nationalmssociety.org/sit...msandemotions1

This is an interesting article on MS fatigue:

http://www.lamarfreed.net/fatiguems.html

Not everyone with MS suffers from fatigue and some only do when they are in an attack. I hope yours lets up when things start to improve for you. :hug:

Cherie

Snoopy 02-16-2008 11:32 AM

Keri, Your going to do what you want to to no matter what anyone is trying to tell you, that's okay, it's your body. And your new to MS and what can and can't be done. Good luck with your second round of IVSM.

I disagree with Bird ( sorry, Bird ;)) but my experience has been much different and had I sat around, rested and did nothing I would have been in a wheelchair very early on, no doubt about it.

I know you said you don't like to hear about someone elses experiences because you don't know what your MS will be like - none of us do no matter how long we have this disease. But I am going to tell my story - read it or don't, your choice :)

I was 25 when I had my very first exacerbation. I spent a few months in the diagnostic process, in those few months this is what my symptoms were:

Numb from the waist down including the private area
weakness in the extremities
Tremors in my hands
Extreme Difficulty walking, barely able to get around my home.
pain
L'Hermittes
Vibrations/buzzing from the waist down

I was diagnosed based on a positive LP, neuro exam and symptoms, every other test came back negative including the MRI but back then I also had other tests that are not part of the MS diagnostic tests.

When My neuro told me I had MS I thought, okay now I can get something to "fix" this, wrong. Instead my neuro told me there was nothing he could do other than steroids and to live my life as normally as possible.

My neuro also told me if I did nothing else, walk. He said that might be hard to understand since I could barely move but it would help.

Exercise/Physical therapy is helpful with MS and for fatigue

http://www.nationalmssociety.org/site/PageServer?pagename=HOM_LIB_sourcebook_exercise

So, that's what I did, walked. At first it was baby steps -to the mail box and back. Then I would sit down and cry - my legs felt like they were going to give out from that small effort, they were vibration/buzzing like crazy and I needed to sleep.

I continued this routine a few times a day with the same outcome and always with tears. Slowly, very slowly I started to notice I was increasing my distance.

I have mostly cervical spine lesions - spinal lesions cause mobility problems. With every exacerbation (except for one) has always severely affected my mobility and everytime I start all over again to walk - I start my mini walking while I am in the exacerbation.

I can't over do it, my body won't allow it.

My current neuro was shocked when he saw my c-spine MRI, shocked that I am still ambulatory without mobility aids. Based on my c-spine MRI I should not still be able to walk, at least unassisted.

I have never used the DMDs and have only used oral prednisone for my first 2 exacerbations, the rest I have waited out. I have had 6 exacerbations in 22 years - one exacerbation for each of these years -

1986
1987
1994
2001
2002
2007

My neuro does not want me on the DMDs.

Will your experience be anything like mine? I doubt it but you never know.

I would caution you to have patience. You have the rest of your life to deal with this disease.

lady_express_44 02-16-2008 10:55 PM

Good on ya, Snoopy for pushing yourself to be your best. I agree this is an important part of the recovery.

I hadn't thought that Bird meant that a person should just curl up in bed and give up though :confused: . . . just that they should rest when they are particularly fatigued. My fatigue comes on hard at certain times of the day, and that is not the time for me to do anything taxing. If I don't rest then, it can get ugly. :p

Other times though, I am less fatigued and more amibitious. That is when I will tackle whatever needs to get done. :)

Cherie

Snoopy 02-16-2008 11:37 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by lady_express_44 (Post 217461)
I hadn't thought that Bird meant that a person should just curl up in bed and give up though :confused: . . . just that they should rest when they are particularly fatigued. My fatigue comes on hard at certain times of the day, and that is not the time for me to do anything taxing. If I don't rest then, it can get ugly. :p

Other times though, I am less fatigued and more amibitious. That is when I will tackle whatever needs to get done. :)

Cherie

Cherie, your understanding of what Bird meant might be right and mine wrong :)

MS fatigue can knock me on my butt and I have been know to hold down the chair for of a day, two or three but I have also found exercise to make a difference in my fatigue.

Some days I can be fatigued and decide to use the treadmill and feel much better afterwards. Other days I get on it and within just a couple of minutes I know I have to give in to the fatigue and relax, nothing is going to get done.

Another option to be aware of are sleep disorders which can be related to MS. A simple sleep study can rule out a sleep disorder.
http://www.nationalmssociety.org/sit...sleepdisorders

the Bird 02-18-2008 09:48 PM

Let me clarify my resting point here, since I wasn't understood completely!

Keri,

MS WILL make you rest one way or another, if you don't listen to your body. YOUR BODY will tell you when to rest. This isn't your regular virus anymore. This is MS. You will learn to lay low or you will keep beating your head in and finding yourself hit with MS over and over.

I learned to listen to my body the hard way! After MS slapped me down and down everytime I was determined I was in control of me!

I have NEVER never said to crawl up and lay there. No, you get PT, you see the doc, you call the doc when new things happen, you REST when your body says "na nanny boo boo, you over did it!", you exercise your brain, you do physical exercises to YOUR CURRENT capability, you deal with the mental aspects of this through friends, minister or therapy.

6 weeks into this is early for you to be adjusting fully to this new disease. Keri, talk to your doctor about these concerns and feelings you are having. They are normal. NMSS and MSF have peer counselors who will call you for free. We, of course, are here too...Find a MS support group in your area.

You are going through a grief of your "old" self. And in the end you will say hello to your "new" self. It is a spiritual, physical, and emotional journey.

And I wish you peace.

RedPenguins 02-19-2008 01:05 AM

I'm a wreck....
 


Hi everyone,

I so much appreciate all of your responses - and most importantly, I really do love that you can express differences of opinions and it can be okay! that is truly the hallmark of a great community in my opinion.

Snoopy - your experience sounds amazing. I appreciate your sharing it with me.

The bird - I hear your point, too.

both of you make valid points.

And of course, the most pressing thing (besides the incredible pain and pressure behing my right eye!) - is that this has only been going on for 6.5 weeks. ALL of it is new. And here I am on my second dose of IVSM. I'm already changing from one DMD to another. Switching from one fatigue med to another.

I know it's too fast - however, I'm kinda on automatic pilot - this is what I do - this is how I function - b/c if not, I fear I will just crawl up in a hole and not come out....I do have a therapist - and we do have frank discussions about all of this. (and of course, no matter how you cut it, right now it all sucks.) I'm also a psychotherapist myself! I'm working hard to just keep it together. I'm also just plain old tired - not just the fatigue stuff...but just tired. I live alone, I'm single, I don't have a ton of friends, and I don't have family. I feel like if one more thing comes my way - I just won't be able to do it anymore. Last week, my toilet broke. This weekend, my garbage disposal broke. My cell fone died. I know, nothing major...and I have warranties on all of that - it's just a phone call or two to make - but I'm zonked - just taking care of life stuff on top of the MS - I'm just exhausted.

The simplest little things are sending me over the edge. Last week I couldn't find my lil ice pack thingy that I use for after my copaxone shot (no longer taking now in preparation for Tysabri) - and I started to cry. Now - thing is - I'm not someone who cries! I'm walking around with a headache for over six weeks now - that rates about a 6 on a scale of 1-10. I have pain meds for it (vicodin) - but I won't let myself take it unless I hit a 9 or 10. Not to mention, when I take it, I only get relief for 2 hours, 2.5 max. Yet, I shouldn't wait to a 10 to take it. I'm going nuts.

I'm sorry, I don't mean to complain. I went to the grocery store to get something to eat for dinner. I looked in my cart - and realized I didn't get one thing that qualified as "food" (and not a snack or binge food) - but decided I'd just stop for chicken at fast food place...full well knowing, by the time I got into my car, I would not want to stop. :( I was right. On top of that, I REALLY truly went into the store to get Hershey's kisses with caramel...of which, they didn't have. That almost made me cry. Not that I needed the chocolate by any means.

Probably the thing that is getting me is that on Fri at my neuro appointment, he let me know that he doesn't think it is RRMS...SPMS at best....but who knows. I haven't told anyone yet - except for my therapist today. Like I said, trying to hold it together.

I joined a NMSS support group - it is a phone support group for newly diagnosed - except I don't feel like it's a good fit - b/c even though we are all newly dx, all the others have been "sick" or had symptoms for a year or more...so while the "label" is new - the other part of it isn't. All of this is new to me. I just don't know how to do this. Will this exacerbation ever end.....when will it end? Of course, there are never any answers...b/c no one knows. And that's the suckiest part of it!!

And I'm only 6.5 weeks into this - and the "unknown" of it all is just getting to me.

Now I feel all whiny...and I'm mad at myself. :thud:

:sorry:

Don't feel like you need to play a violin for me :nopity: - I'm not playing one for myself - I'm too busy doing whatever I can to stay above water :sinking:


Thanks,

~Keri





Snoopy 02-19-2008 07:15 AM

Quote:

Originally Posted by RedPenguins (Post 218753)
Probably the thing that is getting me is that on Fri at my neuro appointment, he let me know that he doesn't think it is RRMS...SPMS at best....but who knows. I haven't told anyone yet - except for my therapist today. Like I said, trying to hold it together.


This concerns me.

As you have said your 6.5 weeks into this. It's waaaay too soon for your neuro to decide your SP, he may be right and you might be but in my unprofessional opinion he is jumping the gun on labling you and in the process scarying the hell out of you - like you really need that right now :rolleyes:

Have you considered seeking the advice/opinion of a second neuro. Believe it or not neuros are not created equal.

Ever since I started doing MS forums (which has only been a few years) I have tried to remember what it was like to be newly diagnosed.

There were so many emotions that I remember - fear was a big one, obsessed with the disease and discussing it to the point that my husband finally told me it was time to move on and do what we had to do to live our lives. MS had become my whole life.

Many here will tell you there is life after diagnosis, that life does go on and it can be a good life even with MS.

Keri, try and calm down. Nothing is going to get resolved quickly. If you choose to treat this disease aggressively then do so and know you can talk to us.

As far as playing the violin for you or giving a pity party - Don't worry I'm not very good at that. For the most part I am not warm and fuzzy when it comes to my responses :eek: :rolleyes: ;)

braingonebad 02-19-2008 08:47 AM


Keri

:hug:

I'm not real good at the warm fuzzies either. I'm trying, but still. Just know that it's not just you who feels out of control like that. Things getting to you, the crying.

It's not just the ice pack, it's that last straw on top of all the other stuff you're dealing with.

One thing to keep in mind is that however ms is doing you now, it probably will change course. It's like the weather, unpredictable, which can be bad, but can be good too.

I was dx'd with c spine issues and a syrinx in '04 and I was a mess. I felt so hopeless, because they couldn't fix me and nobody wanted to believe my symptoms, much less help me. Felt like I was falling. I was crying all the time which was not like me at all.

I'm still learning. How much is too much? When to push, when to rest? It's tough. You learn it over and over every day, because it's a new game it seems. You learn about priorities, and you do what you absolutely have to do first. I learned that was NOT the cleaning, LOL.

Don't be so hard on yourself for feeling the way you feel, okay? Anybody would, in your shoes.










lady_express_44 02-19-2008 09:48 AM

Keri, I wish I could reach out and give you a :hug: . . . and no, I'm not known for my warm and fuzzy's either. ;) I remember what you are feeling and experiencing like it was yesterday, and that was 17 yrs ago now. However, the truth is that many of us grieve and panic every time we go through another change, and we often go through many ups and downs through the years.

Snoopy is right that there is no way he could know your category as yet. In fact, he is dead wrong if he is suggesting that you may be SPMS, because that category begins with years in the relapsing-remitting phase, followed later by a more progressive course. Since you have not had any notable health problems until know, and have not been having relapses, it is actually impossible for you to be SPMS :confused::

http://www.mult-sclerosis.org/whatisms.html

If he meant PPMS, firstly he doesn't know his categories, and secondly he can not predict that for at least 1 - 5 yrs, when he sees what the disease does over time. Most people with PPMS don't have lots of inflammed lesions in the beginning either . . . so none of this is adding up.

However . . . if you do have PPMS, Tysabri has not yet been trialled on this category of MS, and it is currently believed that it is not going to be of any use to those people anyway. These drugs are for the "inflammation" that comes with relapsing nature of this disease, but it's an entirely different process (neurodegeneration) that goes on once we move into the progressive phase. A drug that specifically targets inflammation is just not intended to help with neurodegeneration . . .

Having said all that, I do not blame someone for trying any drug in the hopes that it might slow down this MonSter . . . I just disagree with a nitwit "specialist" scaring the pants off a patient to coerce them to doing it. :mad: In all honesty, my concern is for you only! He absolutely should have given you time to come to terms with HAVING MS first . . .

My story is actually quite similar to yours in that I had no family, was not married, hadn't even considered children yet, was career oriented, only 31 yrs old, and had just returned from 5 yrs overseas (had lost contact with most of my friends in that time). I was only home 2 - 3 months and had just started in a new job (a few weeks) when I was instantly paralyzed. So you know what I did when I found out it was probably MS?!? . . . I went out and found a very handsome German tourist and asked him to father a child for me, no strings attached. :eek:

So, about 6 months into this MS journey, and not yet recovered from the attack . . . I was unmarried & pregnant, they had discovered cervical cancer, I was anemic, and I had gestational diabetes. What a fine pickle I had gotten myself into. :D OH YEAH . . . and there were absolutely no drugs on the market to potentially slow this beast. :mad:

When I say I understand how you feel, and that you need more time to come to grips with what is happening to you, I really do speak from experience.

I've raised two beautiful daughters (one is almost 16, the other 12), and I have had some major ups and downs with this disease. I have had to learn patience and tenacity, and so have my kids.

Your neuro should not have scared you like he has, because he can not know where this will take you yet. Get another opinion.

One day at a time, Keri.

Cherie

ewizabeth 02-19-2008 11:13 AM

Hi Keri,

I feel for you and what you're going through! :hug: You've had some great replies, and I only wish there was a really good answer. I can relate to what Bird, Snoopy and Cherie said, and all I can say is, this disease really stinks sometimes. :(

I remember when I first tried Provigil. It was like a double edged sword for me. It would give me brief spurts of energy, but increased my brain fog, so it was like I was raring to go, but only for non-complex tasks. Then I'd have the exhausted days following.

It took a long time for me to realize I couldn't go 90 mph anymore seven days a week. I come from a long line of nose-to-the-grindstone workaholics and I don't like being exhausted all the time.

I wish I could take Provigil or one of the other meds and keep going the way I used to. But I know I'd be having relapses one after the other if I did.

When I was first having my big relapses it was when I was still in overdrive. When I finally slowed down, the MS seemed to also.

I make myself get enough rest now, but I also have to eat well and exercise. Laughter and camaraderie helps a lot too.

I hope that by being here and sharing what you're going through it will help in dealing with all of this MS stuff that's coming your way.

I'll be thinking of you! :hug:

the Bird 02-19-2008 12:03 PM

Keri, You are really a concern to quite a few of us. You asked us to listen. You got it. You also got major concern.

Snoopy is so right about getting a second opinion here. Be sure that this new neuro is a MS specialist or has a LOT of experience with MS patients currently. MS research has made a lot of progress in the last 10 years alone, so you need someone on top of MS....

Keri, as a psychotherapist, you know what you need to be doing for yourself right now. Stop. Breathe. Give yourself advice as you would a patient. The answers are in yourself.

If one therapy group is not for you. Call and ask for another. Find a local group. Keep looking. You will find a fit.

I wish you peace for today.

RedPenguins 02-20-2008 01:23 AM

hmm...
 


Hi everyone,

Thanks once again for responding.

my neuro is a MS specialist - and he is in a the largest private MS practice in southern california outside of the major universities. he knows his stuff - but he isnt pulling punches.

I think he wrote down SPMS - because he didnt want to put PPMS - which was his thought from the beginning. but we both agreed that it is too soon to know. we just know it's coming on like a blazing fire - and we need to fight it - or rather, im choosing to fight it - and he's on board.

im worried bout me too. the steroids are quite possibly messing with my moods - tho, im not sure i can blame the moods on the steroids. lol. why wouldnt i be messed up?! i dont know if im coming or going.

i know most of you have been down these roads - the shock, fear, unknown, uncertainties, sadness, etc. i swear, it's killing me - this is the part that will take me down - not the frickin MS - but this crap - the big question mark over my head.

i feel useless and inept. havent had an easy life till now - but kept fighting - going for my dreams and goals. not stupid enough to believe that just b/c i wanted something, i'd get - life doesnt work out that way - but at least there was a "carrot" in front of me - and i was going for it...but now? is there a carrot? just an empty string? I dunno. and i know it's too soon to know - but im not good at this...just waiting. it feels like a bomb...ticking - but with no timer. how do u live this way? yeah, i know - u just do - moment to moment, hour to hour....you just do. but how? that isnt really an answer!

Can you imagine how bad of a therapist i am?! LOL no really, i dont practice what i preach, so to speak.

so, like you, im worried about me, too. just trying to make it through - and now just in a holding pattern. tomorrow is last ivsm treatment. will start that new med for fatigue. trying to work a little (2 clients tomorrow?) - hopefully i can see enough to drive myself there. and as for treatment - now i wait to hear from the tysabri people...might be two or so weeks. so i wait. did i mention i hate waiting?!

where's my lil smiley with the white flag already?! rofl

~Keri


lady_express_44 02-20-2008 12:56 PM

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Originally Posted by RedPenguins (Post 219495)
how do u live this way? yeah, i know - u just do - moment to moment, hour to hour....you just do. but how? that isnt really an answer!


The million $ question . . .

It must be hard to do this as a therapist, since you know the "proposed" coping mechanisms better then anyone. In fact, I bet you're gonna' see client's issues in a completely different light now after this experience? See, there's a good side. :D

No, but in all seriousness, that's one job I wouldn't want to be skilled in, if something like this happened to me. :rolleyes: :(

You know what? I am not a particularly religious person, but have always been spiritual. When they told me about the MS, while paralyzed and so sick, I begged for guidance many'a night. One night I got it, and I also got handed "peace of mind". It wasn't a "saved" experience . . . just the direction I needed in order to carry on my life in the same way (with the same non-descript religious convictions that I always had).

That's not to say that I don't lose sight of "faith" sometimes, but that's really what gets me through.

What will be will be. . .

One day at a time. . .

There's a reason for everything . . .

There's a lesson to be learned (so I don't have to repeat this the "next" time around). . .

A new purpose awaits me . . .

My skills are meant to help people in other ways . . .

Blah, blah, blah.

Ultimately, it's my faith (and wisdom) that I can get through every experience that keeps me going.

Cherie

tkrik 02-20-2008 11:59 PM

I don't take anything for my fatigue. I have found that rest and/or naps are vital to my functioning and I allow myself that time to do so.

As a psychotherapist you know that fatigue and being tired are a symptom of depression. Depression is common in MS as well. Could some of the fatigue you are experiencing be depression as well.

You are dealing with a lot right now and I think it would be safe to say that mild depression is adding to you fatigue. Can you increase your anti-depressant at least for the time being? Can you take another one in addition to your current one?

As for your doc - I really don't know how he can predict your course with MS when you have only been diagnosed for a few weeks. My 1st flare was my worst, I was down for 3 months and was diagnosed as having a clinically isolated case of MS. I had one good month and then I had another flare at which time I received the definite diagnosis. And so began a year of flares every 6 weeks.

What is he basing his decision on? How did he determine that you have SPMS and/or PPMS? I was under the impression from my own research and reading that one is usually diagnosed as RRMS at first and SPMS and PPMS after there are indications of no periods of remission.

Bird and Snoopy were both correct; same ideas stated differently. Exercise is important and should be done everyday and it should be based on your limitations on that particular day. Diet, as I have found, is just as important. Although I do not fully follow it, the Swank Diet for MS has proven to be so beneficial for many MSers. I did follow it strictly for a couple of months and felt great. Then I broke down and ate some thing that weren't on the "diet" and felt worse.

Your emotional well being is important too. The more emotional you become the worse your symptoms are. The worse your symptoms are, the more emotional you become. And so the cycle continues.

Please take care of yourself. We are all here to help you along the way.


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