BJ
 

:hug: No words are good enough right now.... I'm so sorry you lost your sweet kitty....Know you are in my thoughts and prayers..
vicky

THis is benton's rainbow page that BJ posted on the wonder thread.
Hugs for Bj
((((((((HUGS)))))):hug:
bizi

I'm so sorry BJ --
When I read that I signed your book and went to bed. I lost my 20 year old kitty just two months ago and I know how it hurts.
I'm so sorry.

I still think about your loss, wren. So sorry......................hug

Another hug for BP too.............................hug

:hug: BJ
you are in my thoughts and prayers. I know the place our kitties have in our hearts:Heart:

Oh ((BJ)). I'm just so very sorry. Losing a furbaby is one of the toughest losses we go through. Benton was so very lucky to have you sweetheart. :grouphug:

I feel like such an idiot crying like I've been doing but I'm hurting because I feel like a part of me left with Benton. I've tried so hard to stifle it in but I can't hold it in any more. I went to work today and my boss said I needed to stop and now. Even my pdoc didn't understand. I called her last night and she said "BJ for goodness sake it was a cat and unfortunately they don't live as long as we would like". That helped a lot didn't it. Just what I wanted to hear. She doesn't understand how much joy Benton brought into my life, how much he was a part of me.

I hope he knows how much I miss him. I think he's here because I swear I can feel him rubbing against my leg and I keep looking and no one is there. Thank you all for signing his guest book and sending messages and sympathy cards. I spent most of last night at the Bridge just staring at him and wishing so much he was sitting in my lap like he always did. I don't know how much grief one is expected to cope with. My brother, my mom and dad and now my buddy. I'm just so so tired.

(((BJ))) I was such a mess when my Sweetie Pie died 2 years ago this May. I was basically hysterical, sobbing, crying out loud. My parents went with me and brought me home. They were scared at my reaction. I went and stayed with them for 3 days because I couldn't bear the pain.

Those people don't understand. I didn't go to work because I knew what it would be like. What they said to you obviously isn't true.

They aren't just cats, they're our friends. We will all miss Benton so much and of course we are all here for you and completely understand your pain sweet lady.

Nothing we can say can take away your pain but know that you are loved and we are all thinking of you.

(((BJ))) :hug:

He was a beautiful cat and loyal friend. I completely understand the relationship you two had, and what a great loss this is to you. My deepest condolences.

Rest in peace, Benton. :hug:

Oh BP, again I am soooooooooooo sorry. When my Prince died, I lost a huge piece of me too. I had him longer than I had been with my husband at that time. My husband was heartless. The things he said made me cry and cry and that of everyone else too. I had to take the day off work cause my eyes were so huge and swollen and I knew I wouldn't be able to do customer service breaking down every five minutes. My cat spent 7 months going from doc to doc and I watched him suffer so much and he was constantly on fluids for renal failure. In the end, I couldn't bear to put him down and begged my husband to do it. I was 7 months pregnant and was up the whole last night of Prince's life holding him. He was no longer eating or walking and could not stand up. I woke my husband at 5:30am and pleaded for him to take Prince in to be put down. It took my husband another 3 1/2 hours to take him to the vet! My cat suffered so much those last hours and I was a train wreck. When my husband returned, he was crying and said it was the most painful thing he had ever done.

Please don't feel like you have to hide it and damn those people with no heart! I know exactly what you are going through and the days will get a little bit easier. I can actually look at his pics now and feel the love and I so miss him.

I so know your feeling of "how much more can I take" I have also lost 7 family members, 3 of my pets I've had for over a decade, and now my husband. I am only alive because of you and everyone else here who really can listen.

Bless your heart BP, I hope you can rest up a little bit.

Just thinking about you and again sending another hug..........

I went to church early today because I needed to talk to Father. I asked if he could add Benton's name to the prayer intentions. He couldn't but said he'd do something special at the end of mass. I also told him about the Rainbow Bridge and how Benton was waiting for me to go to heaven together. He said do you want to know the truth BJ? "The problem with animals in heaven is that we do not traditionally view animals as having immortal souls. Having said all this, God can do what he wants to do. The Church really does not teach much of anything on this point. So, I suppose you are free to believe that Benton will share paradise with you." This is the same priest who told me he didn't believe in any way that we had a guardian angel following us around all day. Then why do they celebrate St. Francis of Assisi day by having our pets blessed?

I shouldn't have even asked. When my parents were still here we went to a traditional Roman Catholic church where it was said in Latin and men had to wear suits and ties and ladies had to wear something on their heads. When my dad died my mom and I still went there even though it was a 45 minute drive each way. It gave us a lot of time to talk like a mother and daughter should and I cherished those rides every Sunday. After my mom passed I decided to join the church in my town. I live in a small town and since I felt so alone I thought this would be a good way to make new friends. When I went to the rectory to register at the parish I told the priest about Mark and wanted to know if he was in heaven now. I didn't get the answer I wanted then either.

I had a private cremation for Benton and thought I'd stop in the vets today to see if his ashes were there yet. I can't believe that they're going to mail them. I don't even remember what I was doing that day but if I had known I would have said absolutely not. When the vet called work Tuesday and said it was time to end Benton's suffering I raced out of there leaving a client sitting there. I ran to my car and called my mom's number from my cell. I didn't even know what I was doing and I don't even remember driving there. I just know I came home empty.

Someone from the Rainbow Bridge sent this to me. The hardest part is saying goodbye to my buddy. But I do feel him here with me but I can't touch him.

From the silence of your pain I heard my name
and on the wings of light I have come
to see the sadness in your eyes
that cry without tears

Can you see me, I am here
I will always be near you
to calm your shattered heart
and to make you smile at the memories

Do you feel me, perhaps a soft brush of fur
You ache to believe it's real
but you are afraid to hope
You brush away a strand of hair
But it was I, whispering...

I am only here for but a moment
The silver thread gently quivers
I will leave behind my love in a dream
When you awaken, and without really knowing why

Your heart will know at last
That it is all right, for now
to say good-bye

(((((((((((((((BJ)))))))))))))))))

David:hug:

Oh BJ,
My heart continues to go out to you.
Forgive me for saying this but perhaps you need to find a new church....another spiritual leader....
he certainly is not helping your spirit at all.
And there are many other religons that share your beliefs.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

BJ :grouphug:
I am so sorry to hear of the loss of your beloved Benton.
I have wept openly for each and every pet I have ever lost. When a family or friend loses a beloved pet, a part of the family, I make homemade sympathy cards, with their pet's picture. I also buy a statue, a dog, or cat with angel wings. I strongly believe that we are all God's creatures, and we will most defanatly all meet again.

Forgive me too, but I just have to say....I have not had the training of your Father, so maybe that is why I am able to see God as love, not hurt, not punishing. My husband is what he jokingly calls, a recovering Catholic. He is old school, taught by nuns. He is left handed, and has visible scars from where the "sisters" use to try to beat the wickedness out of him. It was hard for him...but he did change churches. As he said, if the answers you get seem wrong, don't bring you peace, or show God's love, perhaps it is God telling you, those teachings could be wrong.

I wish you peace and comfort BJ :hug:

This is so hard for me to comprehend right now. I'm sitting here in tears at Benton's Rainbow Bridge reading everything that everyone wrote in his guest book. All about heaven and how he has angel wings. Why would my priest say we'll never see each other again, or believe what I want to believe. Yes, I want to believe that we'll see each other again. Why couldn't he just say that to make me feel good if it isn't true. Gosh doesn't he realize how much this hurts, how I'd do anything right now to have one of those kitty love headbumps. I know God is all about compassion and love and I just can't imagine He'd make it so that the pets we've come to love and cherish just disappear. I love my little church, the priest, the congregation and I don't want to leave the Catholic faith. I'm just so confused by all this.

I am sorry.
Would you like to chat?
((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

Oh BP, my heart so goes out to you. Been there. I believe animals have a soul, just like us, but not a voice.

I am not sure of statistics, but feel maybe 50% don't believe in God. The other 50% tear themselves up with whether he does exist or not. I would give my right arm to be able to hold my Prince, Pebbles and Chip again. I want to believe they are waiting for me, much like my husband with open arms. This is my feelings and everyone just like you has their own feelings.

One day, you will see, that you will get that loving headbump again and someone so anxious to see you. The love will go on. I truly feel and believe this and shut my door to anyone who cannot. I am not saying give up the church. I am just saying to tune them out. Your feelings and belief are all that matters in "your world". This is YOU, this is Benton. This is YOUR life.

My dear little Nina is having a tough day, but she made it to the doggy park today for the first time in almost two months. I got lots of wierd looks from people. Pretty much felt like their looks were, "why do you put an animal through this when she is so old". I have had her since she was 14 weeks old. Nina is now 14 years old, but she is a family member and I would not give up on her like anyone else in my family. We keep trucking along and praise her for her acomplishments. I know the day is coming, that I have to make that painfull, everlasting decision and I pray that it is all not to soon.

Hold your pillow and cry all you need to. It will not answer back, much like a furry companion it will not judge. Whatever it takes to ease the pain. As the days go by, you will find the way out of your grief and remember the wonderful times you had with Benton.

Benton is no longer in any pain and he took your compassion with him and will keep it with him till you get to be together again forever.

God bless you, BP

Oh BJ:hug:

You poor thing, having to lose your beloved pet, then not finding the comfort you were seeking. It is a hard thing I know questioning your faith, the things you were trained, brought up to believe. My husband struggled over 20 years with it. His soul, his mind has found peace. That is what I wish for you:hug:

I try very hard not to judge, I am a believer in trying to look at everyones feelings from their point of view. It is clear you love your little church. Just an idea here, perhaps you could continue to go there, but seek your comfort, elsewhere? Here springs to mind.:grouphug:Nikki

Benton came home today, in a box left in my driveway. I've made a little memorial in my family room for him. I have his ashes, his mice and a picture of him. That's all I have left, memories and mice. Hooper seems so sad and is searching for him. I keep telling her he's at the Rainbow Bridge waiting for us to meet up again, even though I've been told otherwise. I was talking to a lady in the grief section at the bridge at lunchtime and she told me that God put Benton here to share in earthly joy and sorrow so she's sure that there'll be a place for him in heaven and he is waiting for me at the Rainbow Bridge. :hug:

I am so glad that Hooper is there to love you.
This is all so sad....I feel for you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

He really is and you must believe that.

My Nina paced for 6 months after the death of our beloved Chip. They grew up together. She is still here, he is gone and so are my other beloved furry friends. We miss them terribly. God has them and we will see each other again! You must believe! It will happen.

God bless little Benton.

A littlle time will help, but you will never forget this precious little soul. Hang true, it will happen. You will meet again

Benton is there waiting for you sweetie :grouphug:
Just a thought, when I lost my first pup, I went to the local Human Society and helped out. I groomed, walk, fed and cared for the animals. I did this until I felt healed enough to get another pet, a new memeber of our family.
Now, my house is filled with all sorts of God's creatures :)

Wishing you peace