New to this forum
 

Hi -

I've been thinking about posting to this forum for some time now. A friend committed suicide July 2004. One of the saddess days of my life as she had asked for help the previous weekend and I had said no, I was too busy. I'll be honest I don't know what to say about all this - I miss her and am sad I was not present for her. Time has passed and that's what's mended my heart and lessened the guilt...Sometimes it is like it was yesterday. I am glad there is a place to talk about this - I love how supportive this group is and look forward to participating......Hopefully, I won't be a thread killer :)

Hi back to you too. My name is Anne and I'm so pleased to meet you. I'm sure you won't be a thread killer, 'cos if I can't manage to kill a thread then no-one can! :)

I'm relatively new to this SOS forum as well, but who better to welcome you than another newbie who knows what it's like. I have a whole heap of problems that have been on my mind lately; some medical, some pschycological, some I've shared, some I've been too embarrassed to share.

What I have found to be the most special part of this forum is that you give only what you want to give, but you get to receive as if you gave the world!

I have met the most wonderful people since I joined NeuroTalk and I cannot believe how lucky I am that they have accepted me into their hearts. I feel like I belong here, and I don't think there's any better recommendation in the whole wide world than that. These people love me. I feel it..... and we've never even met.

I hope you also will feel the way I do about this very special group of people. The are my family now, and I have grown to love them. Every single one.

hi C-star,

welcome and thanks for posting and please keep on posting/talking about "it"

sometimes, that's all we can do, is to talk about it and hope that would help.

these are very nice folks here, eh?

how about a (((hug))) to start with?

btw, I don't think a "thread killer" really exists...I think threads have a lives of their own and if one looks at it this way, it has to END somewhere...LOL

(came back to add that looks like k77 and I were posting at the same time. She is much more elegant than I am...LOL)

Sorry C-Star for going off topic here, :Off-Topic:

but I have a message just for "Moi"


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Welcome Crwstar
we are glad you are here :hug:
I am sorry about how "things" went for you. I dont think the guilt lessens or goes away one just learns how to accept it..live with it, cope and keep moving into the next day... Time dose seem to make things more bareable. So dose good friends, talking, getting support and caring understanding people to share with.
I hope you will come "wonder" with us its a great way to get to know others .
glad you found your way to N.T. and really happy you shared with us, :grouphug:
There are lots of us to lean on ask questions to and just be silly with. We try to help and support each other as much as possible, So far I have found this forum the best place to be understood and supported .Its safe ,friendly and I call it my 2ed home :D. Hope that soon you will too.
PEACE
BMW

Hi k77 and Moi
 

Thanks for the kind words and the delightful humor - love the wiggly smiley face - that got a HUGE laugh out of me. :hug:

hi hon. :hug:

don't worry about killing threads. don't beleive moi. we have been known to pull up old thread and reserect them. or play in the old wonder threads. :p

i'm sorry you have a need for us, but glad you found us. :hug:

Hi Crwstar
 

Welcome here - We're all glad to meet you. Please feel totally free to talk all you want. Once in a while some of these :p people will quiet down and listen a little bit
**I'm teasing ... I'm just teasing**
:hug::hug::hug:

Hi BMW
 

I too look forward to calling this my second home. I first started posting on NT on the aneurysm forum - got one of those along with a pituitary tumor. Those things aside I'd come on here just about everyday and literally felt a pull to join this forum and I am really glad I did cause Wow even as I write I am surprised at the emotion that is still there. Tells me there is still some healing that is needed.

Well spoken BMW about guilt - Acceptance takes me in a different direction than trying to make it go away. Never quite been good at accepting what hurts.

Ok, I'm gladly ready to let go of the thread killer title. :D
Based on how many posts I've done I don't know how I figured I was one.

I love that you are everywhere curious - seeing people in different forums makes it feel even more welcoming and comfortable. :hug:

You and I have talked on the epilepsy forum, the headache forum --- hmmmm I didn't see you on my face-lift forum, did I? But I didn't know you had that pituitary tumor and annie. Good grief! - I'm sorry to hear that.
How's it going? It was a brain tumor that cause me to develop epilepsy.

In the hospital for my last surgery for the nasty oliog brain tumor in my left temporal lobe I was in a room with a young woman dealing with that annie stuff. Have you had surgery for that? How about the tumor? Am I being too nosy?
You're already in my prayers --

Hi Wren
 

Yes, we have chatted on those forums. And no you are not being nosey - ask as many questions as you want. Is there really a face lift forum? I could use a tummy tuck forum.....

I remember you saying it was a brain tumor that caused epilepsy for you. I'm in the beginning stages of wondering if that's happening to me. I get that deja vu - I see a neurologist next week and will hopefully have a plan for finding out if I am in fact having seizures...just don't know right now - only a guess on my part. Both annie and tumor are considered small so we are watching them but have had headaches now for almost 8 months solid - that's quite a hingy dingy experience. I suppose I could be down in the dumps about it all and boy was I in the beginning. I have a prayer posse of about 10 people who pray for me when ever I ask. I welcome all and more prayers - thanks for offering :hug:

Off topic - what is a oliog brain tumor.

Question - What's the forum decorum for going off topic? hehe that ryhmed :grin:

Welcome Crwstar, though I am sorry for your need to be in this particular forum. I have lost 4 people I loved to suicide...never mentioned that here before...I think it is because the most recent, my Dad, is the most heartbreaking.

I had a friend in school, Eric. He called me and said he really needed to talk....I like you, was too busy. I did say I would call later that night. When I did , it was to find out he had hung himself. That was 24 years ago and yet every now and again the thoughts come back to haunt me. I have let go of the guilt with Eric. I truly was busy, and he didn't stress his desperate need..if he had..I WOULD have made the time. I have forgiven myself, one just can't be everything to everyone.

I am sorry for your loss and hope through sharing you are able to find more peace :hug: Nikki

crwstar, we tend to just let the conversations flow like in real life. they wander around.

a new thread can always be made.
:hug:

If you find either a face lift or tummy tuck forum..please leave a link to it! :D

So glad to "see" a new family member here....happy 4th!

do they mail out coupons? give group discounts? :p

we can talk about that in woman's health btw....

ummm...yeah, crwstar, wren is talking about queen kong, aka curious...she is yappy...when she quiets down, she might listen....LMAO...

oh, and she can't spell neither...

now, if there is going to be a tummy tuck forum and face lift forum, I'll have to demand a p-nile enlargement forum...

NOT FOR MOI!!! It's for my "friends" :rolleyes:

(((Crwstar))) It's very nice to meet you. Sorry I'm late in saying hi. :Wave-Hello: Really, I'm the only sane one in this group. :D

I'm also sorry for the reasons that brought you here, but just so glad they DID bring you here!

Much love and hugs.

Hi Nik-key,

I am sorry for your loss and empathize with your heartbreak :hug:

I have to remind myself that if my friend Lauri had told me where she was I would have made a point of being present for her. I think her heart was so distressed with what was going on she just couldn't face life anymore and I on some level understand that mind set.

I also know 4 people that have taken their lives - 2 by hanging and 2 by pills. Make no mistake the world is not a better place without them.

I am hopeful that through sharing that more peace will be experienced in my heart and mind.

Thank you for your welcome.:wink:

who moi
 

Lol, oops did I leave that out - tummy tuck forum is for my friends :D

hehe, I'll be sure and leave a link when I find one :D (searching now :smileypray: )

Hi Doody - thanks for the welcome :hug:

You are most welcome :hug: I already knew that she didn't tell you how bad she was, just as Eric didn't tell me. The guilt ate at me for years and years......With the next two, I know this may offend some people, but I did understand why they had done so. I had none of the issues I had with Eric. They were at peace, and I wished it for them :hug:

My Dad took his life in March, that I fear I will never get over. So much more personal......it is tourmenting me to the core.

I am sorry you have lost so many, and yes I think through sharing, one does find a peace perhaps they didn't even know they were seeking. Wishing you peace in your journey :hug: Nikki

Hi again Crwstar. I too am sorry that you have need to come here, and like most of us you also have other medical conditions to deal with. That pituatory tumour must be a tad scary especially with an annie in there as well. Do keep us updated as to how both are going.

My cousin took his own life with a gun a while back, my father took a deliberate overdose of Morphine but was resuscitated thank goodness and I also had one of my patients hang himself in the bathroom on my shift, before I gave away my nursing career last year.

I just wanted you to know that I understand some of what you may be going through. I probably don't even know half of it, but I do understand some.

Welcome again. I hope you like it here with us, but don't believe a word that "Moi" says! http://i288.photobucket.com/albums/l...h120104322.gif

I was just joking Moi! http://i288.photobucket.com/albums/l...iley_kiss1.gif

Hugs to you :hug: and I know this is your thread, but I hope you don't mind me sending out some extra hugs to Nik-Key today as well.

Hugs Nikki. :hug:

Hi Crwstar!

Welcome to our little but lively family....

i'm the shy one of the bunch...:rolleyes:

:D
Abbie

Looks like I've some catching up to do :wink:

Sometimes its harder to write anything and I just sit in front of the computer cause my neurons aren't firing as quickly. My jumping in and disappearing had everything to do with my headaches and I'm being tested for the possibility of deja vu seizures. The tumor is scary - aneurysm even more....good news is they are usually benign.

K77 I'm sorry to hear of your loss - words sometimes aren't enough to quiet the sea of emotions we feel when we loose people this way or any way for that matter....I offer a HUGE hug and a deep thank you for understanding, I have no doubt this forum has plenty of that

Hi Abbie - Thank you for your welcome as well. On any given day I can be shy too.

I have been lurking here and would love to respond to a lot of the posts but it feels overwhelming to even think about that. I'm new here but would like to send prayers and hugs to BMW, Nik-key, Bp and K77......I'll go lurk and see if I forgot anyone - Oh and Moi I do think you are funny as well as insightful- You guys have made me laugh on more occassions than I can count...:grouphug:

See you later....:Wave-Hello:

Welcome to the forum Crwstar

As you can see, we like to play double-dutch once in awhile - but we also know how to comb our hair and pay attention when necessary. :cool:

Go ahead and test your legs, and feel free to jump in any time you want with whatever you'd like to share. I suggest you try out some of Curious' magic chocolate. She'll have you jumping around like a monkey in no time. :D

Hi
 

KathyM,

Thanks so much for the welcome - I just may give that magic chocolate a try. I finally figured out how to let others know a little more about me in my profile - didn't say much but its a start :wink: I'm a pretty private person so this is a decent stretch for me.

I send a :hug: your way as well.

Crwstar

So nice to see you posting i hope you stick arround

David

Hi DMack
 

Thanks - its going to be pretty hard to get rid of me :D

I think I'm here to stay and will hopefully share some of my own trials with life.

Crwstar