Help! I'm getting to tired of it all. It hurts to talk about it now. It hurts to much
 

I need advise. I'm just tired of it all. I posted so much. Now I just don't want to post. I need help. I'm not getting it from this Nurse Practitioner with social services. My sister let me have it again. My brother in Law said she's a sick women. I'm sick also. Alone. Going broke. Waiting for SSD. Tired. Confused. Angry. Dread. Feel doom coming. Things are not coming together. Was better. Now going down. Tired. It just gets more complicated. Pain. BF

I'm so sorry for your hurt and pain, Brokenfriend. :hug:

The best advice I can give you is to get some sleep. The problems are still there when you awaken, but you are refreshed and better able to deal with them.

I wish I could find a magic wand and fix everything for you.

Praying for you, BFriend. :hug:

:hug: BF :hug:

I'm so sorry you're going th rough some hard times Brokenfriend. Can you ask your Nure Practitioner for a referal for some more in depth therapy? I know it's frustrating waiting on SSDI, but once it happens it will change your life, for the better I hope. Hang in there, like Twinkletoes said, try to get some sleep, things always look better in the morning. :)

I'm keeping you in my prayers Brokenfriend. Be good to yourself. :)

I'm so sorry BF. :hug:

I wish I had the right words to say, but you know that I've been going through something similar myself with my own sister.

Please talk to us BF. We're here for you no matter what.

what is helping me a bit is to tell myself that God loves me unconditionally. Can that help you at all? It might help with feelings of isolation. This is painful to write but maybe you should give up on your sister. I gave up on mine and hardly ever think of her. When I do it becomes too painful again.
I believe in golden safety nets although i forget them at times.Help comes when you least expect it. Unlike most people I believe that sometimes God gives us more than we can bear and then the help usually comes. The impossible becomes possible. I remember once I was so down I snapped. I was in great physical shape. I said to myself nobody can take away my happiness. I started taking walks and enjoying nature and became so possessive of my happiness even though it appeared my world was caving in.
Now I tell myself God gives us what we need not necessarily what we want.
Sometimes that works.
I am so happy for you that you have your health. I wish you could get in a better place.
Bobby

Dear Friend,
Stay away from the sister.

The people who can help you are the nurse practitioner and the others who can provide you medications and support. Flatter them, bribe them, pester them -- whatever it takes -- until they get you on some medication that makes you feel better.


Mari

Thank you all. That's interesting Mari. Good idea!!! BF

Dear Friend,
I know that you are going through a difficult time. And I know that these kinds of times can be made worse by family that is horrible.

But one way to look at is that for now, you can't change family. That leaves your best hope with the medical system. Get them to help you. They will. It might take some prodding and pleading on your part, but you can do that. Ant it will be worth it.

What happened to the Abilify that you were one? Did you stop it? Did you get something else? I hope so.

Is the place you go to offering you hope?

M.

I'm thinking of you BF.

I remember telling you that I've been staying away from my own sister...ignoring her emails, and not phoning her.

I actually feel so much better just to have this short reprieve away from her.

I daresay I'll give in and talk to her again soon, but I do hope that she gives me a bit longer time out before she starts on me again.

I think you'll feel better.... just like me if only you can have a little time away from your own sister. I know I have.

Hi Mari
 

The Abilify made me dizzy. I could not walk right. I also noticed my driving way affected. I had two dizzy spells soon after taking it. Then I developed dizziness all the time. It scared me. I stoped the Abilify,and the Kolonipin about a week ago. I do better on Xanax.

My Dr. is on a long vacation. I talked to his secretary who thinks she can scold me for using my own initiative to stop the medication. That's OK. She isn't in my shoe's,and didn't experience the strange dizziness.

Before the dizziness set in, I knew something was wrong. I could not think,and talk very well either. I've been on powerful med's in the past,but that Abilify was not the right stuff for me.

Mari. Thanks for caring. BF:hug:

Hi Koala 77
 

I need to be careful. I've figured out a few more things today about the situation. I think she reads my posts. She said something that she could have only read here. BF

Thank you DiMarie
 

I hope that you are doing OK.

You sound like you have made wise decisions. I'm sorry for the heartache that you have been through.

It's nice to meet you.

I'm going to pursue a better therapist.

I hope to be relieved of guilt trips,but to realize that she's ill,and forgive her. I need to realize that I offered my best help.

Thank you for your post. I'm very sorry that you have been through it too. BF :grouphug:

How are you doing BF?

Has this been a better week for you? I was just wondering 'cos I'm feeling a little better about my own sister this week! I must admit that I've not contacted her, and when she phoned today I let the phone ring out. I could tell it was her because of Caller ID. I just need this little bit of time out to get my head together.

Hi Koala77
 

Unfortunately,it's been a rough week for me. She insists on talking about money above all that is true,honorable,and just. I'll never understand it. It must be a form of control, obsession,and unhealthy ideals. She's been hell bent on running the subject into the ground.

I'm glad you are doing better. Please keep me posted. Brokenfriend

Hi BF,
thank you for your compassionate words. I know with many meds the doctors hate when we try to adjust to help ourselfs. Like you said they are not in our shoes. I know at a NAMI convention there was a pharm rep from Amblify there. I have to search the information he gave me on it and from the enclosure I related on the brain talk forum Oct 2006.
I know when my daughter passed away and I had trouble with racing thoughts and anxiety the doctor perscribed Lexapro and it took me a month to tittle up to a dose I could take and it did help. But, I was breaking pieces and using every other day.
I had ativan for panic and anxiety for a few years and now take that one a night.

Valium I have as a muscle relaxant for my chronic pain injuries. I don;t like to take medication. I have the chronic pain, asthma stuff, thyroid med, lexapro and now the one for cholesterol. After a life time of good cholesterol it went up to 245, a hundre points since my test two years ago. Menopause doc says and heridity.

But, if your being read here, take it to your advantage to how you feel and express. call it a letter to yourself.
or if you want privacy use another user name for personal stuff. That is allowable for privacy.
When dealing with sisters, don;t forget we are woman too. Men and women have dfferent feelings, priorities, and emotional expressivness.
Your a kind person and supportive, live life, do things to make you happy too. don;t spend more then 20 minutes a day on the heavy stuff.
di

Dear Friend,

Thinking about you.
M.