Feeling negative.
 

I'm feeling a tad down in the dumps today.

After having half my bowel removed towards the end of last year and then most of my nose removed (and rebuilt) in January, it looks like cancer may have struck me once again.....3 times within a year, and all in different places. Not good!

Cats may have nine lives, but how many lives does a Koala have? :confused:

I went to my local GP today for my six month check up after my nose surgery, and she thinks she's found a malignant melanoma.

First there was the cancerous lesion in my bowel in September and the ensuing hemicolectomy, I lost half my bowel. With the deep basal cell carcinoma I lost most of my nose. With a malignant melanoma I could lose my life.

I'm supposed to go back in 2 weeks for yet another biopsy...maybe. I'm getting so darn sick of this.

I should have had my follow-up colonoscopy already but I've put that off twice. I just can't decide what to do.

Hey, I'm 6 months older than my mother was when she died of cancer. Maybe it's meant to be.

Dear Koala,

I am sorry to hear this. Maybe it will only be a basal cell and they can get it out without much problem. Let's think optomistic here. I get them all the time, in fact I have to get checked every 6 months.

Sending positive thoughts your way that it's an easy one this time. You need a break :hug:

Nah! This one isn't a basal cell. If the biopsy comes back positive, this is the nasty one.

This time it's actually a melanoma............just whether it's benign or malignant that's the question.

I am going to keep positive vibes going your way that it will not be malignant. And that it will be the only one you will have....no more little spots for our Koala. :hug:

hi Anne,

thought I'd stumble inn a little bit and just adding some positive vibes to you as well...

(((BIG HUGS)))

Thank you FG. I truly appreciate your support.

I booked the biopsy for two weeks time. That'll give me time to decide if I really want to know, or whether I'll just leave it be. I can always cancel.


Thank you Moi as well. I just saw your post as I was correcting my grammar. Thank you.

Praying for you this morning (morning here)

Morning here too, but shortly to bed (yeah, I'm a crazy night owl).

Sending you my hugs and prayers :hug:

Thank you B2U and thank you dmplaura. The way I feel right now I can do with all the support I can get.

I feel as if I've been through so much in this past 10 months. Did I mention the MS relapse and the fact that I had to give up my career? I'm just getting so fed up because as soon as I get over one thing, another one seems to come out of hiding.

Oh....and it's 8:30pm here in Oz Land at the moment.

:hug: Koala :hug:

You definitely deserve a break. I agree with FG....let's think positive about this. I know it's easier said than done.

You are always in my prayers. Please don't cancel your appointment. Don't let this carp get the best of you......give it heck!! Meet it head on and don't give it an inch of room.

You know your NT family will support you.

((((Koala))))

Just know that I am thinking about you!


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Oh dear Koala you do deserve a break....Im praying you will get one.

:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

our love, thoughts, and prayers are with you, dear Anne.

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Oh no!

So very sorry, Anne. You poor thing. :hug:

Praying it is benign. You're right: you DO deserve a break.

May you feel the strength of our prayers today. God be with you, dear friend. :grouphug:

I am soo sorry...

I'll be praying too..

pete

Oh, man, no. Anne, I'm so, so sorry that you have yet another battle ahead of you!

Count me in on the positive camp, you've done remarkably well through a lot of nasty stuff (not just medical) and you have the panache to pull yourself through this. I'm counting on you! Please don't give up, we need you.:hug:

:hug::hug: Praying for ya. Sorry to hear all this stuff is going on.

I am so sorry you have more to handle. You've certainly had to handle more than your fair share lately. I hope and pray it is benign.

Oh Anne, I'm so sorry you're going through all of this :(. Please don't cancel your appointment. Although I haven't faced a life threatening illness, I have dealt with many of the same issues you have in the past couple of years. I lost my mom in April, I lost my ability to work anymore that same month, my husband was dx with Crohn's disease in April also (our youngest son has had Crohn's for about 10 years, he's 17 now), we are in the midst of filing for bankruptcy, I was dx with MS in May of 2007, my son, with Crohn's, had an emergency bowel resection in November of 2006 following an uncontrollable relapse, and we moved a 1000 miles away from all of our family and friends in October of 2005. I understand how sad you are :(. When you are dealing with so much grief and loss it is very easy to make the wrong sorts of decisions. I have been seeing a counselor who is helping me deal. She has told me not to make life-altering decisions right now. Please keep your appointment. I'm not in your position but I know this definitely a life changing decision that could mean everything to you and your family! Much :hug: , love and prayers are heading your way :).

Thinking of you Koala and hoping for the best!:hug:

Anne, I'm so sorry. You will be in my prayers. :hug:

:hug: Koala :hug:

You are so greatly loved and this news makes me very sad to hear. Stay the course and fight the battle. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Jeannie

No words, just many :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:'s and prayers to you.

HUGSS and prayers, and fight it baby...cancer can be rough, as I know with my big sister..but fight it with positive vibes....hugsss and we are here hun, thinking of you...sarah

Oh K, I will be thinking of you everyday and praying for you. Please keep your appt. We are all here for you. Many hugs. :hug:

Dear Ann,

I'm praying for you that it's benign. I'll keep you close in my thoughts and prayers that it is. You've had such a tough time of it, it just isn't fair. :( You know that you have many people here who love you and care...

:hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

Hi Koala,

As anyone who has been to he!! and back will tell you, life tends to go in these cycles. Terrible things seem to happen over a few years, then we have years of more stability & good stuff after that. I think you are almost over that hump now, so keep persevering through this next obstacle.

Hugs and prayers coming your way. :hug:

Cherie

Koala
I'm so sorry for yet another health scare to be faced. You've come through so much already. Please don't cancel your appointment.

I'm hoping, praying, sending positive thoughts and vibes and love into the universe to and for you.

Here are some healing hugs too:
:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

:hug:'s

I know that so much hitting you in such a close time span, it can really wear you down, but don't ignore or put off your appt for this.
Think positive thoughts as often as you can.
:grouphug:
You've really been thru the wringer lately.

:hug: Koala:hug:

I am so sorry you are having to go through more of this:(

keeping you in prayer that it will be benign and that you will find hope and strength. I can sure understand how hard this is for you and especially after all you have been through.

(((((((((((((Anne)))))))))))))

:hug: my furry friend.

don't wait. you are a tough koala, not an ostrich. no putting you head in the sand.

catching this nasty stuff early is a good thing.

you know we are here for you. many many prayers being said.

Anne, sending healing hugs and prayers your way. I know your tired and frustrated but please keep your appointment. I have to remind Jim during tough times that the doctors are there to help him live and enjoy life even though getting to that point is painful and long. The good Lord gave us life and only he can decide when our time is done on earth. Until then you fight and stay positive that this is just another hurdle to strengthen you and teach us all something.

Lots of love and hugs from me to you. :hug:

(((Anne)))
I don't think it's odd that a koala and a moose snuggle up for a hug.:hug:

We are here for you, beautiful. Keep us posted.

My Dear little Koala bear...(((((((((((((Anne))))))))))))

Sending all positive vibes to wipe out those distructive negative ones..

You are in my thoughts and prayers, forever...:hug:

:hug::hug::hug:Annie:hug::hug::hug:

Sorry for the unpleasant news, dont beat yourself up, please, yes i can see your point and concerns, but part of it is attitude, and you are always positive to me when you chase me off of here,:hug: think positive, please:hug::hug::hug:

:hug: Anne :hug: , you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

On a side note, your story gives me the kick in the pants I need to make a couple of specialist appointments for myself. I've been putting them off because of fear.

Take care...

Pam

Oh Dear Anne~ Not another hurdle my friend??? This saddens me that you are having to go through a bx and emotional stress again, BUT ~ you know that the BX is what you need. Not knowing will not make you feel any better.

I wish there was something I could do to make you feel better, but you already know how much I care about you and how dear you have become to me.

Please try and get the bx asap and we are all praying that it will be benign.

You are in my prayers and I'm never gonna give up on ya. You've had so much, but keep that lil Aussie spirit going. We are here for you. Dang ocean that keeps us apart!!!!

Hugs and prayers to you my buddy, Anne.
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Thank you everyone for your kindness.

I'm sorry if my apathy comes through in my post, but I just feel like I've had enough. So soon after those two operations I'm not sure that I can go through all this again. It's so easy to give up and I'm just so tired of it all.

I'll probably be better in a day or two when I've had time to digest all this, and then next week we're going interstate to meet one of my Australian board buddies.

Everyone is so kind here and one of the reasons that I love NT so much. :grouphug:

We love ya cause your'e Koala and you are a genuinely kind, loving person.

K-bear.....:hug::hug:....you can feel down and you can count on us to lift you up because we :heartthrob::heartthrob::heartthrob: you. But please do not stop fighting. You are just too special and we need you so you must keep fighting and keep those appts.

You are in my thoughts and prayers always. :hug::hug: