Where is Brokenfriend?
 

Hi, Friend,
I'm wondering if you went to Emergency Services or found some other way to get help.

I'm thinking of you.

Mari

check in when you can.
 

Hope you're okay BF. Check in when you can and take care. :hug:

Computor problem
 

My computer froze,and died on me last week. Thanks for your concern. I'm on a rebuilt Dell PC that isn't up to par yet. It's working somewhat.

EM services has not helped me yet. I'm disappointed with the system. Things are moving very slowly,and I'm in pain.

I tryed to communicate with my dad,and he blew me off. He was filled with accusations,anger,and rejection. That's the way he treated me when I was growing up.

All I said was I wanted to visit him,and I was being mistreated by my sister. I'm not going to call him back because he was very angry,and irrational,and throwing accusations at me. Don't understand. Then my computer broke. BF

I don't mean to sound so negative.
 

I don't mean to sound like a old skipping record,but these things are getting worse. I feel the fight draining out of me. I don't feel like doing anything. All that I hear is negative. I don't even feal like moving around. I want to sleep.My feelings are all numb,except for the dread.

I have not felt like this in more then twenty years. I just wish my family understood. I wish that I heard something from SSD,because my money is going down. Social Services isn't helping me to much.

They must not really care to be truthful. It looks like I'm about to hit bottom. When that happens,I hope that someone helps me. I realize that our economy is bad right now,so I'm scared that SSD might reject me in the hearing,then what am I going to do? No ones telling me anything. I'm very scared. I do not wish this to sound like a drama. This is reality to me,and I'm tired,and scared,and cannot get it out of my head. BF

:hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug: :hug:

bf, have you contacted all your local churches? oranizations like the vfw? they do help non vets.

hang in there buddy.

Hi
 

Thank you Curious. I'm not a veteran. I went to military school. If I where a veteran,I would have help,and resourses. There are no churches out here where I could get santuary,but if worse comes to worse,I'll go to one in the capital city where I was born. Thanks. I'm trying to continue to hold on hoping for something to get better. BF

hi there,
did you notice that curious said the vfw helps NON vets as well....
so maybe they could help you.
I am very dissappointed in the social services people not helping you.
what about a therapist? do you have one? can't remember....
I am sorry tht this is so hard and I wish your family showed you some bit of kindness...it sounds so awful...I wish you could break all ties to them...
bizi

Oh!
 

I didn't know that. Thanks for the info.

Thank you Bizi. How are you doing? I've missed not talking to you. Thank you for your kindness,sympathy,and help through my hardship.

It means allot to me to talk to all of you. You all are the only people who don't judge,and criticize me right now. Thank you. This is a life line through my struggles.

I thank all of you. BF:grouphug:

Dear Friend,
There are probably groups in your area in addition to the VFW that would take care of you.
I think you need help learning what is in the area and in reaching out.
'Wishing you some good things soon.

Mari

Hi Mary
 

I appreciate it. I feel like I'm loosing my strength. I'm down in depression on top of the pain of this anxiety. I'm hurting so much right now. I'm not sure what's going to happen to me in the near future. I feel like I'm shutting down,and loosing interest in everything,and wanting to sleep.

This is not my fault. I'm being blamed for my difficulties between the lines,and my Dad,and sister are irked with me. I thought that they use to understand,but my condition is being dodged,and the money issue is being focussed on. I've been waiting for SSD,and I keep waiting. I don't know what to do. I may loose my car,and personal property. That's all that I have,but It doesn't seem to matter to the family members anymore. I don't know why these events are happening at the same time.

I've listened to the media news recently,and have read between the lines when they talk about budget cuts. All of this grieves,and scares me more. I don't know. BF

we all care about you if that helps at all....you can't choose your family but you can choose your friends.
Bobby sending hugs