Confused.....lost.....hurt....
 

I just found out today that my Tdoc quit where I was getting therapy...my appointment had to be rescheduled that's how I found out.

I've already seen two Pdocs---each only one time.... I now hear that the second one was only there on temporary status and she's gone... so I will be meeting with Pdoc #3 the first week of October.

I have such a fear of new people that I am already freaking out... I am having the "why bother, why try" feeling right now. It seems that I get in a "groove" with therapy and then have to start all over....

Right now... I'm standing on the edge again... not sure that jumping is not the best thing.... don't worry...I'm not going to jump... probably just climb back into my cave.

:(
Abbie

oh abbie,
how dissappointing...
I can't believe they did not tell you.
Write things down in a time line so it won't be so hard retelling your story with the new ones.
This has to be hard....
you have done this before and you can do it again.
hang in there sweetie
((((HUGS))))
bizi

I just lost my therapist and was in the waiting room and heard how wonderful a therapist at the clinic was. I asked for her as a replacement.I have gone to her twice now and looking forward to seeing her again. Strange how things work out. The next one you see might be better. I still don't think it is fair though. Stay safe in your cave until you have to come out
bobby

Ya... the office person that I spoke with was also surprised that I had not been told....

My new appointment is with the new head Tdoc for the center.... this fact has me doubly wigged out... I don't deal well with new...let alone having to deal the person in charge.

I will try to write things down...but I know I am going to forget a lot... my brain is pretty scrambled right now....

:(
Abbie

Do you have a time line or history of symptoms and such on your computer?

I started one when I had my comp claim, in case i needed it.
my brain was foggy due to stress and symptoms at the time.

A nice thing about doing it on the pc is if you forget something you can go back and add it in the right place in sequence. And you don't have to rewrite it all over again.{ plus my handwriting is really bad now.:) }

I did mine in MS Word back then - but now I use the free Open Office.org program.

Dear Abbie, :hug:
These kinds of transitions are hard.
I feel for you because I don't like dealing with new people either.
M.

Thank you all...

All of my journal and notes/timeline are on the laptop that caught fire.

I have not even tried to start a new one on this computer.


I was finally able to fall asleep early this morning.... I'm sinking in a depression right now... everyone is leaving me friends and doctors....

I can't take any more...
:(
Abbie

Dear Abbie,

You don't have to come up with a time line from scratch for now.
The docs will know what questions to ask.

Here's a suggestion if you are up to it:
--write down a list of everything that is a problem right now (big and small)
--write down a list of your meds

You can type up these two lists and hand the new person the lists. Then let them ask questions that occur to them.


Mari

Good Idea Mari.

And Abby for one of those things, please make sure you add. Coming to a therapy appt. and finding out my doctor skipped town. And I'm just left in the dark and foggy world,
till someone can come rescue me.

Its not somewhere I ever want to be again. Can we make it a place that I don't return to.

I don't think that is a unresonable request but maybe not worded right.

And it is something you have the right to ask for. Even though I am pretty sure you would say. "I can't say that"

Donna

Abbie, do you go to a clinic to see your pdoc? If so that could be the reason why the docs keep leaving. Often pdocs will do their residency at clinics and leave when they are done. I had the same problem one time and had asked for the pdoc who always stays at the clinic who is usually the head pdoc.

befuddled2

OH me
 

It's not fair. They should at least brief,and debrief you,and assure you that the medications,therapy,and counseling are going to be upheld. I'm sorry that this happened. BF:hug:

Dear Abbie,

It won't matter much whether this person is the head tdoc for the center or not. You need a good tdoc and you need someone who will be there for a while. Like Donna suggested, ask the tdoc how long she/he intends to stay.

But really, maybe you will like this person more than the last person. It could happen.

Mari

Thanks all!

It's been pretty rough... The last time I talked to my Tdoc she assured me that I could call anytime if I needed to talk with someone... I really needed to talk with someone the other night but who was I to call???


I finally cried myself to sleep after taking max dose of my meds....


I see the new Tdoc tomorrow at 1pm and I am doing my best to be calm but it's really not working.... I am circling from depressed to hypo near manic and back to depressed.... I HATE THIS.


Only thing I know about the new tdoc is female, head of clinic....
I have no information what so ever about the Pdoc...

I go to an outpatient clinic that is part of the mental health hospital. Pdoc works two days at outpatient and rest of week at mh hospital. First Pdoc I saw had been with the mh hospital for years... the second was filling in and was from Chicago---I think.


Well... I better go... the more I think about all of this the worse I feel...
:(
Abbie

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Thinking of you ABS!!!!

I believe in you.

You are a special person. And you can do this.

Donna

Dear Abbie,
Oh I am sorry I did not see this thread....
Oh I feel for you.
keep us posted with the new professionals in your life.
I hope they work out jsut grand for you.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I'm wondering how your doing.


We are each inspired treasures,
with creative gifts to share,
The world needs your gifts!


And so do I.

Donna

BP wise I'm doing pretty good.

I'm sorry I haven't made it back to let you all know how things went.

I met with the new Tdoc...she seems to be a really caring and knowledgable person... She told me all about her and her background... I asked her if she is planning on sticking around....she told me that yes her family had just moved here and had bought a house. Her husband is a new professor and he wants to tenure there.

She did tell me that she doesn't know who the new Pdoc is...couldn't tell me if it was a male or female.. only that this Pdoc too would only be here temporarily....:(

She asked me to tell her as much as I felt comfortable... I was able to share a little... I told her that I get quite anxious/panic around new people.. around groups, around loud noises... she told me she would meet with me anywhere...ie...if I wanted to sit outside at their picnic table that would be fine. :)

She asked me what my diagnosis was...she knew she was reading my folder... I told her BP...she asked me if I agreed with the diagnosis... I told her that I agreed....as I can see it in me... I just don't like the stigma of it.... she said she understood. She told me that from reading my folder that she was impressed by the progress I was making... It's only baby steps in my opinion...but she said that it was still progress.

I meet with her again next week.... I'll let you know how things are going or not going....

:o
Abbie

P.S... my parents made it back from Alaska and brought me a head cold... so if you don't see me for a couple of days... :o

Abbie

I'm so glad it went so well. ANd I'm so pleased she is sticking around awhile.

She honestly sounds like a gem. And just what you ordered for starts.

Hoping you get a miss on the head cold.

Donna