I'm so tired of it all...
 

I usually try to keep a good train of thought going, but it sure seems like life is not helping these days. It is just way too much to get into and my hands would get tired before I typed it all out anyway.lol

I would scream but then that would just scare the beejeezies out of the dogs, the cat, just stays hid. I would throw something, but I've spent several years collecting these tea cups and antique glass. I would just smack the stupidity out of somebody, but I ain't got bail money...and besides, they might have a bigger stick.

I actually know how a caged animal feels...I know this to shall pass, but I swear if I think it one more time...I might just slap myself! Trying it could be worse just doesn't make it any better at this point.

Well, I still got my swing, and I still can fix a cup of hot tea...but its midnight and I should be asleep instead being a pain is the ***. At this point in time, I would gladly trade places with Captain Jack Sparrow on that island...

as long as nobody stole the rum...yep, this to shall pass because it could be worse...and there's a silver lining behind every cloud...oh wait, its supposed to rain...



Oh well...time to change tactics...

Momma!!!! Can I go to the island with you? I'll make us a swing out of palm and fallen trees. :hug: Sometimes I feel like running for the hills too but it does pass. Sometimes life just gets so overwhelming that we can't see that silver lining that some people talk about. We all care about you here and know you too can't always have the positive thoughts flowing 24/7. Let us be here for you.

PS: I don't have your daggum number. Can you send it to me so I can call you tomorrow?

(((Momma)))..I promise, if I can come to the island too, I'll stay out of sight on the other side, and I won't swipe your rum (well, not all of it anyway)..
You know we love you, and will be sending positive vibes your way!

if we all bring a few items with us to the island we could make RUM BALLS

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS MOMMA<

great big ones sweetie... HUGSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

we love you dear!!

I understand, probably, I get feeling too much and feel noone really knows what I go thru each day, then I try to focus on others that must go thru much more and keep it going!!

even if it rains, it might pour MOMMA, but then that rainbow and silver lining will show real soon!! CHIN UP CHIN UP>.like that song on Charlettes Web...hugssssssss,sarah

Oh Momma,
It is bad sometimes but it is good too. Good will come back.

I wish I could come and have a "cuppa". For you and myself.

I'd love a cuppa.

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That swing seat area looks gorgeous! I had my graphics turned off in UserCP and I just switched them on again to take a look.

Some days are like that. I hope the day got better for you there!

I'm right there with you Momma. I've been in this bad place for awhile and I'm trying really hard to pull myself out of it.

My pastor gave a really great sermon a couple of weeks ago and it was like he was talking right to me. He was talking about going on a caving expedition and the guide was leading them from the big opening of the cave into smaller and smaller parts - alot of places where they had to crawl on their stomachs. The only light was from their flashlights.

They got into one room where it was about 3 feet high and they were really cramped and uncomfortable, but at least they weren't on their stomachs and the guide told him to go over to a hole in the corner. He had to turn off his flashlight and tuck it away and the guide told him to drop down through the hole in the floor. He said he just hung there by his arms for a minute and then dropped down. He said he dropped down about 5 or 6 feet and his feet splashed in some water and the guide yelled down and asked if he was OK and told him to turn on his flashlight.

So, he yelled up that he was fine and he turned on the light and was stunned by the beauty of this huge room he landed in. He said it was spectacular and there was a huge underground lake. He would have missed seeing it if he hadn't trusted his guide enough to drop out of the uncomfortable room into this one. He could have just settled for existing in that cramped space that wasn't so bad, but by trusting his guide, he found something so much more.

He went on to say that we can feel so trapped by our circumstances and troubles that we are afraid to move past the place we are in because we are afraid of being in a worse place, but that is the very point in time we have to trust our guide to lead us to the big beautiful place. I feel like I've been in that small cramped room for the last couple of years and I'm working up the nerve to let go and fall through the hole into the better place.

I hope this all made some sense to you because I don't feel like I did his sermon justice, but it really spoke to my heart and I wanted to share it with you because it feels like you are in the same place as me right now.

I totally understand and can relate to what your pastor was speaking about. Sometimes we're so comfortable with the "familiar"....even if it is bad....that we're afraid to change anything. I've been there before. It takes courage to let go and just let things happen.

Sorry things are so stinky for you now Momma.:( We are here for you
if you need us. Things will get better....they really will.:hug::hug::hug:

I hear you, Momma.

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we are all here for you .... this down moment will pass .... it always does ...
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I keep hearing about rum balls-how do you make them anyway? And are they a Christmas treat?