My son lost his half brother today
 

We are in shock, it is devestating all over again. After losing our De, his full sister, now he lost his brother. There were only 9 months between them, the reason my ex and I divorced. He grew up in school with ex's two other boys, but his father did not have a close relationship with our children. Holidays only when they were older my kids would call to go down...if they were available. But the boys always were brothers.

Just before dawn, after a night out, the boy made it less then a mile from his home and hit a tree. My son's sister in law called, but has not called back,
It is just such a heart ache for me to lose these children and to have my son and his father lose two now. There is also a 1 1/2 year old left behind.

I was just beginning to bring myself from deep depresion and now this just made my heart feel like it is being ripped out.

Pray for the family my dear friends,
Di

oh (((((((DiMarie))))))))) I am so sorry to read this:(

my heart aches for you and your son:hug: and I pray their will be light even in this darkness

(((DiMarie))) I am so very sorry. :hug:

Oh Di. So much loss. I'm so very sorry to read this. You try to keep strong. We'll be thinking of you. :hug:

Oh, so sorry :(

Only God knows why this things happen right ??

Praying for you and your family. God Bless.

:hug:

I am so very sorry for all the losses you and your family have suffered. (((DiMarie))) :hug:

Thank you so much, eberyone of you are so dear,
I know he was not my natural son, but he was my childrens brother and my heartaches for my son and for their family so much. It is late at night, early morning now and I can not sleep. I know this child is not in his bed and has been gone now for 24 hours in heavan.





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Those that know me, know for the last 2 years since my dd passing I have not been the old me. I try, but a part of me is missing. I guess the loss is bringing up the emotional toll of missing DeAnne and my son losing his brother now. I am so shaken I do not want to sleep that something may happen.

I have been difficult two years for my family too. We never leave the house unless we have to. Then it is put off and find excuses. I need a safe person to watch for me on each end of the route. It has to be local, or my dh has to drive me. My son has not worked since his sister passed he is in therapy. dd fights therapy, we are thinking of a companion service dog, but I have all of de's cats here. Samson and Dehliah would never accept a doggy. Momma Scarlet keeps wandering off down to the trailer where De lived. Last Spring she was Mothering baby ground hogs under it.

My youngest dd is online homeschooled but will rarely go out. No friends, no roller skating She was in a photo club with me and went to the 1 year anniversary dinner two weeks ago. But wanted to go right home. She is convinced she has a cancer, that a light outside or helicopter is Aliens, she freaks at shapes of shadows, I have to sleep with her in the livingroom as she can not stand to be conered in her bedroom. She is now a grownup beautiful 13 year old with below the waist length hair.
But she can not even let a dentist LOOK in her mouth with out fright or flight kicking in ripping off the dental bib and lunging off the chair. Will not take any medication but Childrens Tylenol, is just getting over Shingels...

If any of the kids go out they all have prepaid cell phones or are on my plan and have to call when they get there. If they are longer then they should I have a panic attack and am calling. They have to call that they are awake in the mornings, and Ok and if traveling back, on the way home.

My son was going down his fathers bar on a dart league once a week and I would not allow him to drive if he had a drink it was less then a mile away I would pick him up.

My hair has turned so gray I need to dye it 2 shades darker or it looks white and ages me.
I don't post like I did, I lost control of the clutter with so much going on.
I was just getting to the point of doing 15 minutes a day of tossing, sorting and pick up. I don't want to lose that, but I wish I could wake from this nightmare and concern that something is going to keep happening to the kids, dh or me.
I can see my therapist this week, but I have been laid off for 8 months, dh plant filed bankruptcy, so the copays are killing me.

I am so sorry to whine and cry away like this, but when will it end? I am terrified, sad and scared.
My DeAnne has him with her in heaven, but they should be here with us. We should be going before them. I guess it is opening the wounds again I try so hard to hide.
Thanks for being my friends, Keep us in your prayers :grouphug:
Di

You're not whining at all, Di. Please don't feel that way.

It sounds as if there's been an awful lot going on that any or many of us wouldn't have known about. I'm so truly sorry that it's been so difficult in so many ways in your life. You hold on there. I know it's hard but you just hold on there for dear life and keep talking.

It might help you heal some from what's happened in the past and might be a lifeline for the present time. You're cared about very much here and as I said once before, you may not even know some of us very well, but we (I) know you and sadly grief brought us to say it, but believe me you were cared about long before then.

Have you all been involved with any family therapy or counselling at all? There has been so much happen and perhaps that might help some. It sounds as if many of you need some help to deal with all the sorrow. :hug:

Di, you hold on there please. Keep talking and do know that people from far away are thinking of you.

Love,
Lara

((((((((((((DiMarie))))))))))))))

I pray you will be able to find a peace by releasing the heavy weight you have been carrying. Please know we are here for you. You are a precious caring person and we love you.:grouphug:

My friend...:grouphug:
I am tearing up reading about the troubles your whole family is going through.
I hope and pray that something good will happen to lighten the load and lift your spirits soon.

:rolleyes: That reminded me someone... ME !!!! I was just like that when I was 15... I read that was typical of a depressed person... I thought I had terminal cancer all the time... :rolleyes: Poor little sweetie girl !!! I know how she is feeling !!! My thought are prayers are with her tonight...

Di, we so love you so much here. :hug::hug::hug::hug::hug::hug:

and one more :hug:

:D

I understand how you feel and why, but, hum, you know, as hard as it is even for me to say it, we only have one life (sometimes I even say "thank God it is only one !). You know me, you have read my posts... I can be veeeerrrryyyyy blue sometimes... so, it is hard for me to give advices like this, but please, try to enjoy every minute you are here... try to see it like this:

sooner or later, you will reunite again with all your loved ones... and, we dont want you to arrive to Heaven with them saying "Wait, Am I already here ? Im glad to see you, but know I miss the Earth..." :D If you know what I mean... Gosh I now it is hard... I know we dont want to be here anymore sometimes BUT, BUT, BUT... I still beleive we are here for something and that everything happens at the right time, SO, try to follow a little shining light day by day like, enjoy your son, your little daughter, your cats... a simply tree... minute, by minute...

In the mean time, Im going to send you even MORE hugs !!!

:hug::hug:

God Bless.

How is your son doing ?

P.S oops.... I pasted 76 hugs and only 15 are allowed... :p great, you know I wanted to send billions !

Thinking of you still. Keep strong.

Me too Di Marie. You've been on my mind and I hope you're doing OK.

I'm so sorry that you've gone through so much, and I don't know if it helps or not, but I wanted you to know that I care.

Sending you my love. :hug:

Hi Di Marie~ I am so very very sorry for all of the losses you and your family have had to endure. Your post touched my heart so much. I am praying for you all and am asking God to give you strength to get through all of this.

Sending prayers to you and your family.

Just came to give you a hug !
 

I am so very sorry for you all
 

:(:( After reading what you wrote i feel very sad for your loss i hope you and yours can make it over this and hold each outher tight as you can.You have to go on your other son needs you sooooooo very much and your husband to i can not takr your pain away but only say how truly sorry i am to hear your pain i hope in time you all are able to smile again peace be with you and yours Sherry

Sherry my goodness what a loving person you are. In your time of such a horrific emotional time, you share your kindness and love for my family. It was an emotionally draining time and so emotional, but here we have such great supporting friends.

My ex husband seems to be the hardest affecte. His second wife turned away from me and I gave her my shoulder to be there understanding her loss like no one could in the family. She did not answere. I had so many emotions from the loss of our daughter (ex and mine) I had all the hurt open wounds for these children that we never should have to bury.

But I read your post, and from my police work, I know how the victims of abusive men are affected. I am so sorry that your family is in this emotional truma.
It sounds trite, but if there is anything we can do for you, please ask. They prayers are unconditional.
But if you have the courts address and the name of a local newspaper there I would love to send letters.
PM or post the information and I will give any support I can.
Seems to be how I function best, to keep busy and supporting in any manner I can.
My prayers and hugs are with you So very much
dianne :grouphug:

I am so very sorry to read about this do know when ever you want to talk we are here for you i am so very deeply sorry stay strong Sherry:grouphug:

Thank you
 

well here you go the t.v crew that taped me was chan 11 i will give you her direct number her name is Andra Gustie 907-3146
Judge namd AARSETH i have a form i have to mail out to judicial conduct there e-mail address is mgreensteinacjc.state.ak.us and the number is 9072721033 and they have a fax number too 907-2729309


Alaska commission on judicial conducy
1029 w. 3rd Ave suit #550
Anchorage ,Alaska
99501-1944
wow thank you i know when you think of other peopls pain it takes it off your self for a while you work for the police Dept? never a dull min yh well if you ever want to talk look me up i will be your friend SSherry:grouphug:

Sherry,
Contact NAMI too! Their attorny's can help I hope.
I will take a form too, can you scan and email, or fax it to me. I already sent to the News desk of the paper about Information I understand from NAMI presentations. That I thought it was dispictable! Sherry, if you were a victims mother do you think you would have been treated better? I hate to think that, but for heavens sake where is the compassion an understanding.

I am so frustrated over my own dd 13 anixiety/panic moderate agoraphobia that I am considering strongly for a service dog. I would have done it already except for the cats. My dd three cats I am raising now are sketzy of dogs and strangers. I would never want her to face a hurdle like this.

You let me know what else I can do. Do you by any chance have an attorney interested in dealing with the media to deal with this?

I know from the Judicial board here it took years of bizzare behaviour to finally take down one of our female judges. There were dozens of defendants to her probmatic reign. I was victimized by her when she applogised to my abuser for HIS inconvienance. She thought I was trying to extend my order. She never considered how he did thi actions thinking the order had expired.

I hope that a discrimination charge to the Judge will help you in all future court dates. I would think too, she should recuse herself. how can she be fair to your son, when she may be ticked about your pup situation.
My hugs to you and prayers for all, so much burden for your family.
Dianne

I am so sorry DiMarie. Your story is heartbreaking. Sherry's too. :(

I keep you both in my prayers. :hug: