Update... :(
 

Hey all....

I went to my Tdoc today.... I'm still shaking my head... my Tdoc understands what I am talking about but doesn't understand why my Pdoc didn't do anything or make any changes... heck... he didn't even update my file no notes from Tuesday...

Tdoc says I am better than I was 6 months ago... but WORSE than 3 months ago... she's afraid I am falling backwards and there is really no safety net in place....

What a day...:(

Hopefully my night will be better.... my niece(3) and nephew(5) are supposed to be here anytime now... oh ya.. they are bringing their mommy and daddy with them....:D

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Abbie

maybe you can ask your tdoc to talk to your pdoc????
beth:hug:

She's going to talk with him...

I guess I'm lucky... my Tdoc is the Director at the Mental Health Hospital Outpatient Clinic where I go...

I go back to see her next Thursday...

Hopefully I won't have all of my hair pulled out by then...

:(
Abble

Abbie

sounds like a good visit.

Donna

Hi, Abbie,
Is it possible to get a new pdoc?
I'm not saying necessarily that you need a new pdoc. I'm just asking if it is possible.

I thank goodness that the tdoc wants to help you.

M.

Thinking of you, ((Abbie))
 

Dearest ((Abbie)),:hug:
I hope you will find the quality of care you desire and deserve.
As you know, it is so important the pdoc and tdoc are on the same page, if at all possible! I hope the conversation goes well between your tdoc and pdoc! I hope they can "pull together " for your sake! It's vitally imporatnt you have an available "safety net" whenever you may feel it may be in your best interest!

Would you please let us know if there's anything we can do to help with a "safety net" for you right now, or in the near future?

I am so glad your niece and nephew...and thier parents...are coming to visit you! They are at very interesting ages!:wink: Sounds like a potentially great time for all!?:D
Have fun and enjoy your time with them to the max, Abbie! Time flies!:winky:
Healing Hugs!:hug:

I have spoken with my Tdoc... She asked me how my appt with the Pdoc went... I told her that Pdoc was pretty short kind of like he was distanced...

She asked me if he was polite... Yes... he was just very short, like his mind was elsewhere....

As far a new Pdoc... no, there is only one at the clinic where I go and he travels around... 2 days a week where I go and 3 days somewhere else.

I trust my Tdoc to get things straightened out....

As far as a safety net.... I still don't see one...


My niece and nephew have not made it here yet.... they decided not to come down until today.... should be here around 6pm... I can't wait...
my niece growls at me like a bear... it's way to cute... my nephew is a BIG Monter Truck fan... he has many of them in Hot Wheels form... But his favorite one got lost and I can't find one to replace it... I'm still looking.

Oh well... enough rambling...
:hug:
Abbie

Dear Abbie,

I'm so happy to hear from you.
It sounds like the tdoc knows what she is doing AND it sounds like being a liaison between patients and the pdoc is kind of her job / role. She has probably done this lots of other times.

Have fun with your visitors.
M.

I hope things get sorted out for you Abbie, it's not fun to be struggling and not have some form of a satefy net in place. Have fun with your company! If you need to talk we're here for you. :hug:

Hoping you have better luck finding that monster truck for the nephew.

I think for one thing its giving you something to look for.

And sending hugs to you.

Enjoy the kids and adults both.

Donna

HI abbie, thank you for checking in...we are here for you...you are never rambling ok!!!!!
so quit that talk....
you get to say as much as you like...
we are good listeners.
Have some fun with your family.:hug:
beth

My sis called and said they wouldn't be in until noon time tomorrow...

Auntie is getting pretty impatient... :D

You would think that with 11 nieces and nephews I'd get a little tired of them... NOPE... LOVE EM ALL!!!!! Oldest is 21 youngest two will be 3 in October.... (not twins...one is my oldest brothers and the other is my youngest sisters... both girls and both my buddies)

Oh... number 12 will be here in early August... it's a Boy!!!

Hope everyone has a GREAT weekend!!!
:hug:
Abbie

you're so lucky to have a big family :)
august will be such an exciting time!

take care
manda

I just wanted to check back in...

Things for me are not going to well....

I have a Pdoc appointment at 4pm tomorrow... I really don't want to go.

My brain is fried and my emotions are in overdrive...

All in all.... I am just tired of caring about me.

:(

Oh abbie,
you can do this.
Hang in there...
we are rooting for you.
please be patient with yourself.
I need you here.
(((((HUGS))))))
beth

Dear Abbie,
Take one step at a time.
Focus on today.
Then when tomorrow comes focus on tomorrow.
(sometimes we never need to look at the big picture)

Hold on.
You've been doing that. You can keep doing that.

M.

Dear Abbie
 

I know how that feels.

I also know it can last a long time, but that it does go away at some point.

I hope your tdoc has straightened out your pdoc for you by the time you get there, so that you will have a good appointment. I understand not wanting to deal with him at the moment. But there is hope... tdoc did say she would talk to him.

So, I wish you a good outcome from your appointment, and that your pdoc comes up with a creative and effective change in meds that will help you out of this funk.

meanwhile... :hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

I am sending hugs.

Donna:grouphug:

I'm back but my heart is so heavy... I havn't stopped crying...

I finally get a Pdoc that I am a little comfortable with and I find out today... that he is leaving.... this was my last appointment with him.

He was very nice and said some very nice things about me.

He did write refill scripts for me so that I have them if needed between now and the time they find a replacement Pdoc.

Inside I am screaming...I am crying....

All of this has added to my pain.... HOW MUCH MORE AM I GOING TO HAVE TO ENDURE....

Pdoc kept telling me that I am a fighter... I told him, that I've never been a quitter...but I'm running out of fight.

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Ohhhh Abbie!!!!
 

I'm so sorry!!!

:( :( :(

I just don't know what to say right now.
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This is really the last thing you needed right now. I hope you are at ease with the next pdoc... :Sigh: ... and that s/he can straighten things out quick. :o

And remember, we are always here for you.
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~ waves ~

Oh abbie,
I am really sorry for you...no you did not need this right now....
any idea when they find a replacement?
(((((HUGS)))))
beth

I was told a new replacement doc "should" be here in 6 weeks....

I go to an extended outpatient office in another county as it is extremely less crowded than the main outpatient and main mental health hospitals.

In the mean time... I have no idea what to expect.... I am beyond scared, frightened, and lonely.

I imagine the main mental health hospital has an on call Pdoc in case of an emergency....:confused:

Oh Abbie, I know just how you feel, I had to wait THREE months for my new pdoc appt after the T-doc who Rx'ed meds for me left her practice here and moved. I really floundered hardcore while waiting because I had to get off aboilify without any weaning supply, it was sheer He-LL and I feel so awful for you right now. You CAN make it though, have faith in yourself. I know it's not easy but you can get through this, make sure they get you IN to the new Pdoc ASAP. :)

I am sorry this happened, but at least you got to say goodbye. Goodbyes are so darn hard. :( Sending you lots of love and hugs Abbie. :hug:

Yes, Abbie,
They will.
You can call and find out the process right now when you are in a non-emergency.


Do you have an office number you can call to find out the procedure?
Or maybe your tdoc can get you phone numbers and / or find out the procedure for you.

M.

I will try to remember to ask my Tdoc on Thursday....

Right now... I'm trying to block out and/or bury my emotions about all of this.... It's all way to much for me to handle...

I knew this week was going to be a rough one... I just never imagined it would be this rough.

:(
Abbie

P.S.... If you have an extra moment and an extra prayer or positive thought... I could sure use one. I need to get through Friday with a positive outcome. I'm praying for strength and peace for me... and understanding, compassion, and a positive outcome from the judge.

:hug:

Dear Abbie,
This does indeed sound stressful.
Sending good thoughts and prayers your way.
M.

sending you good thoughts for a successful friday.
((((HUGS))))
beth

with you in spirit
 

Dear Abbie,

I have been and am and will be keeping you in my thoughts this week, and pray that things will go well for you Friday.

((( hugs )))

~ waves ~ with you in spirit

Dear Abbie,
'Hoping that you are getting through your week and that you have a good visit with the tdoc.
Keep holding on.
M.

I am back from my Tdoc...

I walked in and what do I see on her computer screen??? MY BLOG!!!

We talked about the darkness that is surrounding me. As well as the fear, doubt, and self loathing.

She made me promise that someone would contact her tomorrow after the hearing and let her know how things went.

I told her if it was good I would call...but if it goes as my messed up mind is expecting...I would have someone else call her.

I could tell my Tdoc is very worried.

In about 18 hours or so.... I should have an answer... I can only pray that the big man upstairs holds me in his favor and guides the judge to be kind, considerate, understanding, and favorable.

THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU FOR ALLOWING ME TO ASK THE MANY QUESTIONS THAT I HAVE AND FOR LETTING ME LEAN ON YOU WHEN I AM WEAK....

:hug:
Abbie

Abbie

I too am sending prayers for tomorrow.

Donna

No new is good news right???

Hearing went "ok"....

Won't know anything for a couple of months...

:(
Abbie

Oh gosh...
 

Dear Abbie,

I wish things had been settled today. Couple of months waiting "in suspense" is not exactly the best medicine for you. :rolleyes:

I am really glad the hearing went "ok" though. :)

And thank you for checking in and letting us know.

((( hugs )))

~ waves ~ wishing you well