Dejavu
 

Hi all,
I had my first brain surgery in 1997 when I was 17. It was an aneurysm towards the right side of my head. Before that I was a normal teenager doing all the stuff.. After that surgery my left limbs were affected badly. In fact I could not move my left hand at all, but although restricted I could move my left leg a bit. Years passed and I recovered through physiotherapy to some extent, and I could somehow walk by holding someone's hand. But I couldn't walk on my own at all. Then again in 2006 the aneurysm recurred and I underwent another surgery. After all these four years I have recovered somewhat but I still remain dependent on others.
Now on to my actual concern. Before my first surgery, I used to experience a strange kind of feeling. That is at any point of time I had these strange reminders in my mind which suddenly used to creep in unintentionally. These thoughts were of experiences of things that had already happened in the past of which I was a witness. It was a dejavu kind of a thing. I used to become motionless during such bouts, and used to vomit after the bouts. But after the bout and vomiting was over and everything was normal, I always failed to say what was in my mind during such a bout.
But after my first brain surgery, these bouts of dejavu recurred but this time there was no vomiting. Even now after my second surgery I have such bouts, the only difference being that I don’t vomit. The only thing that happens during such a bout is that I get the feelings of my past experiences. I become absolutely motionless during such bouts. But strangely, after such bouts I fail to recollect what was in my mind during the bouts.
I am absolutely clueless as to why is it so. Why am I having such experiences? Plz help..

I have no idea really, but I'm wondering if maybe this might be connected to some kind of seizure? Have you mentioned this to any of your doctors, and have you been tested for seizures?

I know that with some kinds of seizures people can experience smells and tastes, so that's why I thought of seizures.

I know how you feel, I am actually afraid of myself at times. The more stressed I get the more it occurs so I feel it is my brain scrambling from stress. Then for days it doesn't occur and it is a relief. The job I have is very stressful and I am looking for other employment before the stress does me in. I am tired of doubting myself and fearing what will happen next. I know the job stress is an issue as sometimes I will go work in another department and the stress there is much less, and it is a great day at work. In fact the staff comments on how rude and cruel my department's staff can be, so I know it is not just me stressing myself out. Unfortunately with this economic demise, finding another job without a long drive to work is not happening at this time.