Destroyed by psychiatric meds & suicidal
 

Hello

I am just wondering if anyone else has been in my position. Last year I entered a psychiatric unit because I was self harming and had severe stress but I was treated for psychosis and depression which I didn't have. They gave me too high doses of what I believe to be anti depressants and olanzapine. I had a horrible reaction to it overnight literally I had a rush up the back of my head, I felt a coldness over my brain where it melted my brain, my gums were bleeding and my heart was racing so fast. After this happened I could no longer see tomorrow, my emotions disappeared, my appetite went, I no longer enjoy doing things I used to love doing I have become basically a cabbage. I have tried to kill myself but failed I have no quality of life at all I have lost my children and business because of it. I just want to know if there is anyone out there who is still alive and may have been thru a similar experience that managed to get back their emotions and actually feel human again because I certainly do not and i still want to kill myself.

Dear Sam
 

Hang in there, and don't give up. I would call my doctor right away and tell him how you are feeling. You medications may be doing something more to you in reactions, that harm you. I am no doctor, I just recognize a cry for help. NT will be here for you to try to support you. The moderators may be able to better direct you toward some help. Be calm, I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. ginnie

Our sister site may contain more knowledge on psych meds and reactions /side effects, and how to overcome them.

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Hi Sam,
I'm so very sorry you're feeling in such a dreadful place right now.
I'm not sure how long you were on the meds which caused such a bad reaction and don't know if you're on any other ones now, but considering how you say you're feeling I absolutely agree with what ginnie has said about possible negative responses to any meds that you may still be taking now. I suggest you find urgent professional support - like right now.


http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/thread4982.html
What to do if you are alone and thinking of suicide

I have no emotions or memories they have been destroyed I am in such a bad way there is no-one that can help me the Doctors think I am making the story up they refuse to accept that medication has had such a bad effect on me. I don't want to kill myself but Im left with no choice the effects have been hideous I am a shell of what I was and my children know it as they keep asking why can't I be like I used to. it's heartbreaking.

Does anyone know if taking high dose fish oil could possibly help along with mono atomic gold ormus. I have nothing to lose.

Fish oil is always a good idea. Many people are low in essential fatty acids.

However I would not recommend the Omus gold, as it appears to
be very fringey.

You could request a B12 test and Vit D test. These nutrients are often very low in people. Get your numbers of the results,
and your B12 should be at least 400pg/ml. If they are reported in other units those should be converted. So you can come here for that. People with very low B12 can have mental symptoms and depression. So I would get these done ASAP.

Anemia is not required to have a diagnosis of low B12. Anemia does not appear until low B12 has been around for while. Doctors have outdated ideas on treatment and diagnosis of this condition.

I hope your doctor will do this testing for you.

I just want my brain back but it's not happening I have tried everything but am concluded that suicide is the only option for the misery that I;m in.

You mention you have children. Suicide is a horrible legacy to leave them with. Please don't.

Sam, I would absolutely and definitely, if I was in your position, get the tests that mrsD suggested and she's so right about how doctors have outdated ideas about diagnosis and treatment of B12 especially. My own daughter was having so many health issues and very down and anxious. She was trying to study and kept saying that she felt as if part of her brain was missing. True story.

Not one doctor in years bothered to mention that her B12 levels were extremely low. Then we came across a female GP who jumped onto those tests the moment they came back. My daughter wasn't exhausted and flat and suffering memory problems because she was tired from life, she was exhausted and flat because her B12 levels had been so low for sooo long. She's not quite there yet, but she's making tremendous recovery at present. The change in her is noticeable. It's not a myth that low B12 can cause so many problems, it's science.

Sam
 

I admire you because you are strong enough to reach out for help. Perhaps someone will come forward who has shared our experiences. Hang in there.