Friday June 27th - Weekend Check in
 

Hello,
What is everyone up to?
I'm miserable. Not sleeping. Sleep for a few hours and wake up and can't nap later. I don't understand. I'm exhausted but not sleepy. That rarely happens to me. Usually I can fall asleep anytime and anywhere.

Then early this morning, hubby and I sort of picked a fight with each other -- over nothing important. I forgot that when he is under stress he is nearly incapable of helping me. I'm still crying.


I have to see tdoc later and I don't feel like it. Maybe she will help.
M.

Hi Mari, Sorry you're not sleeping. that can be so rough that there's no hope for the rest of the day because you're so exhausted from not getting a solid eight hours. :(

I am doing kinda roughly, sick and tired of being sick and tired with no hope of changes ahead that will make things better. I wrote more in my I'm so aggravated thread and don't want to vent here because Jackie is on the move and I have to go after him around the house, keeping him off Jack while he gets to wake up. Not fair, but that's the way it is. :(

Hope you get a decent nap in soon Mari, I was thinking about you this morning wondering how you've been. I wish things were better for you, hopefully they will get better soon. :) :hug:

Dear Mari,
I am sorry that you are upset.
I know how upsetting it is to fight....
and your not sleeping is not helping at all.
Thought I would have slept well last night related to my cold meds and drinking a bit of liqour...oh well.
It is the summer time, I thought there should be less stress for you guys,,,:(
how is your diet going?
Is that causing any stress?
What about your yoga, have you been able to do that at all?
good luck with your therapist today...
maybe you will feel better after her session with you.
I hope so.
bizi
:hug:

Mari,

I'm like that a lot, can't take naps at all. I hope you can soon again.


Pam, keep holding onto hope.

tdoc
 

I showed up at the tdoc's agitated and as angry as all get out.
She observed that my life has been unraveling ever since I made the cut in klonopin from 2.5 to 2.0. (She had said this two weeks ago as well . . . )

So maybe I will give it a try and go back up on the dose to 2.5. (When I saw the pdoc he had told me that I should play with the dose a bit and let him know how it goes the next time I see him.)


I'm p!ssed off at hubby and the world in general and I don't know what is going on.


I called my old cleaning from when I was single and told her to come the first chance she is free. I don't care one bit if hubby has a problem with this.

Then I called my girlfriend and told her to come over tonight and help me get rid of some old clothes and try to organize a few things.


Hubby is with his buddies.
So the heck with that.
We need a cleaning lady here and from the looks of this place, I think she might have to come three or four days in a row just to move the status of the place from total disaster to manageable.



When I got up to leave when the session was over, the tdoc asked me if she could touch me. Then she gave me a hug.


M.

:hug:Mari,

Hugs can do wonders. Here is one from me.

It is good that you have things planned.

ahhh.
I am so glad she gave you a hug.
Did it make you feel better...that she was listening to you...
((((HUGS))))
bizi:hug: