So today Friday is the day.....
 

Yep, Friday morning....8am is my appt with the neuro. This should be interesting....I'm anxious to see if she is just as invalidating as the last neuro I had *sigh*. I'm praying not!!!

I was able to find all my paperwork on my test results from 2002, from bloodwork to MRI's to evoked potentials and EEG and lumbar puncture. During the last stint of testing, I had sat down and written out things that had happened during my teens and adulthood that separately, meant basically nothing, but when looked at together over the years, could very well have been preludes to an MS dx. The last neuro wouldn't even look at what I had written. :mad:

So, yep, I got it all together now, in a nice neat package and will hand it all to the new neuro in the morning. I'm really nervous about this. I keep thinking it's all in my head (yeah I know I know, but you know what I mean LOL). I keep telling myself I'm just lazy and looking for an excuse to not go to work, looking for an excuse to not having a life, looking for an excuse to feel sorry for myself.

I told a good friend the other day how I was thinking in that regard. She pretty much raised her voice and said..."Now wait a minute, you, of all people NEVER complain about illness. You push yourself and push yourself and you never cease to amaze me what you accomplish when I know damned well you are hurting!". Now, while hearing this from my dear friend is very validating and wonderful and I love her so much for saying that, I still can't keep this fear at bay that I'm being stupid and silly and lazy.

I don't want to have MS, but dang it, if I have it, I want to be treated NOW...not another 7 years from now when things may be so bad there is no hope at all. Am I looking at this the wrong way?? Heck, I'm not getting any dang younger here....I'm going to be 53 soon. I have 2 new grandbabies on the way this year....I have to be able to be there for my grandbabies and their parents...damn damn damn.

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seara

Just wanted to wish you luck,Seara. Hang in there.

I know you want an answer, and I hope you get one soon. However, I know people that have gone for years and still do not have answers to what is happening. If you don't get an answer, just remember it is not the end of the line. You still will be the same as you were yesterday and today, getting a dx, even an incorrect one, will not change you.

Good luck tomorrow and I will keep you in my thoughts...and sending you bunches of 'Momma' hugs...:hug::hug::hug:

It's a new year, and hopefully this will bring you new answers and closure seara. :hug:

I wish you the very best of luck with you appointment today Seara and I hope you get some much needed relief and answers! You will be in my thoughts and please keep us updated when you can!

Good luck! I am thankful every day that I was dx'd before ever thinking I could have a problem (is that what MS is, a problem????)

Anyway, my prayers are with you and hope you get some answers this morning.

Good luck at the neuro's today. We will be thinking of you. Let us know how it went. :hug:

I am one that is undx... and have many disabilities, sxs, and problems...
good luck at the apt...your thread reminded me I should find all my stuff..as I meet yet another neuro this month. Hugsss and good luck, sarah

How did it go, Seara? :hug: