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so in my search for help for my constant mental problems, i wound up on this site:P
im still a little nervous though, but i hope thats okay!
im Distantmalice, or Carry.
you can call me whichever. i have a mind that torments me and feels like a different person.
i have a super nintendo and comic books about demon fighting that i love:)
i had pink hair, but i chopped it off.
anyhoo. uh..yeah! thats all:P

uhh i suppose i should talk about my problem then:P
lets see. ever since i got out of high school, i've been constantly tormented by my mind.
it tells me things. horrible things.
i can't get it to stop.
just recently, it came back full force.
it doesn't feel like its a part of me, but it hurts so much. my body feels like its going to split apart any second now. i want the pain to stop.
i want my mind to stop calling me horrible things like murderer, rapist, pedo, etc..
supposedly to my mind, being socially awkward and shy means that i am these things to it.
i keep telling myself that i've never done these terrible things and i never will, but my mind persists on calling me these hurtful things.
please, i don't know whats wrong with me. please. if anyone knows. please tell me.

Carry
 

First you are not alone. Second are you seeing anyone, psychiatrist or other medical professional you trust? If not you need a little help here as we all do sooner or later. Having these thoughts must be awful and I feel for you. On an up note you realize that having them does not mean you are doing them. I do believe there is a sub-forum you may want to look thru.

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See general mental health and support forum. Hope this helps.

Hi there
sorry to hear of the struggles you are having

Our community here is geared more toward neurological health, but we have another community at PsychCentral that may be of more help to you.
There are many forums and support groups there
Here is the link (you will need to register there again)
http://forums.psychcentral.com/