Leave Behind
 

"You're so pretty,
if you weren't married, I'd rape you."
Were the words
Your friend said to me tonight
You sat right there
You heard them spoken
And didn't offer even one word
In my defense
I'd waited for you-
Earlier in the evening
An hour and a half past
the time you'd promised
To pick me up
I have to admit
As I've done a thousand times before-
That this behavior
Came as no suprise
So off I went
Walking out the door
To the place you were at
Total walk: about a mile and a half
It was late, it was dark, it was cold
But it didn't matter
There was something
To be told
I went there tonight
To tell you off to your face
to tell you to get right out of
My place
I'm sorry
That it ended
This way
But you pushed me so hard
That I just had to break
So now things are bitter
And I'll be feeling so bad
That I'll give you back
Everything that you
Have
The things I provide
The things that are mine
The things I want to force you
To leave behind
(written, 3/9/07)

Wow, Cgirl! Very powerful. I don't know enough about your situation to really comment on it, but it sounds like maybe you need to stand up to him some more. Don't you think he probably knows you have a problem with feeling guilty about things that aren't your fault, and is using it against you? Just a thought. I wish you nothing but the best. Good luck!

Idealist