See tdoc first time in 5+ wks today
 

Hi,

I am depressed and tired. . . . sleeping in bits here and there for weeks now.
I really don't want to sleep.

I am going to my appointment purposely looking like a mess.
Normally I might made sure that in general my clothes and hair are mostly ok -- I would therefore look like I normally look to her.

This time I am going to makde a point of not cleaningup for her.
In case I am not able to communicate to her verbally about how badly I am doing, I will help her SEE how I am doing.


I really need her to do some intervention and not the cr*ap she's been telling me about how well I am managing.


Hubby is doing a night of DVDs at a buddy's apt, so I will be by myself for a few hours in the afternoon / evening. Maybe I can sleep when I get home from tdoc. If not, maybe I can go to a sauna at the gym and purge some tears and sweat from my system.
I'm trying. I'm really really trying to stay alive and stay sane.

M.

Dear Mari
 

I think you have a good strategy about showing your T how well you are not doing. I do hope she comes up with a different tune and that the session is helpful to you.

Keep trying to stay alive and sane. I want you alive and sane. I realize it is a struggle for you right now. :o I keep hoping things will become easier for you soon.

(((HUGS)))

~ waves ~

wondering
 

Dear Mari,

not sure if you are back yet... maybe you are sleeping a bit. (that would be good!) i hope you will check in later and let us know how the appointment went. and your day overall.

~ waves ~

Dear Waves,
We have another appt. for Monday. She will do relaxation / hypnosis then.

Today she told me to sleep / nap -- whatever I need (sometimes I won't sleep when I get like this but I will nap, so she said nap).

I am going to do that. Hubby is gone for the evening with two buddies to watch movies.


M.

Mari
I'm so glad she was paying attention. And I'm so glad that she was
listening. I sure hope that you can get some napping in.

Donna:grouphug:

I am glad she's gonna see you again Monday and that she's understanding you're in crisis since this stroke. You need lots of support and encouragement right now and relaxation therapy might help with the sleeping problem at least for a little while. You are amazing you know. I admire you so much for perservering through all the hard knocks you've had this year. Take care and let us know how Monday goes and how you're sleeping. :)

Dear Mari,
I do hope that you were able to rest this afternoon....post when you are up to it..
so glad that you are going to see her again on monday....I think you could see her weekly...or as often as you can manage.
The semester is almost done right?
this should be a needed break from everything...maybe you can get caught up with your sleep.
I will be thinking about you and sending good wishes your way....
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

seems that...
 

tdoc is being a bit more receptive, huh?

i hope you manage to get some really good naps between now and monday, and the the hypnosis helps.

(((hugs)))

~ waves ~

need to do some house cleaning
 

Hi,
Tdoc said I need to get some stuff out of my place.
She said I had the same problem in my old apt.

I need to have control over my environment in order to feel like I have more control over what is going on with my other issues.

I called my old cleaning lady. She said ok. She's coming next week -- maybe more than once.


M.