Just angry
 

I am so, so, angry. I don't know where this is coming from, unless it is the Navy Yard. I get so bothered by the wretched stuff going on in the world. Now they are up in arms because the dude that shot everyone up has mental illness. I am so sick of this stuff. I am so sick of TV too. I reduced my cable as low as I could go (lowest fios package) I am thinking about getting rid of it all together.

I want to run away from all of this. I hate it. I have been isolating totally since it happened. Yesterday my neighbor came home who was it of town. I was weathering his garden while he was out town and he came over to let me know he and his wife were home. I said ok thank you and, then another neighbor came out and another came home....I had a little attack and just ran inside. I was just getting too many questions and got way overwhelmed.

I love my yoga teacher training course. It is one weekend a month. The class is winding up meeting every Wed and every Sat for extra practice. I can't do it man. I can't have that big of a commitment. I like the class because it is only one weekend a month. I have to stay true to myself and do what I can despite who else in the class is doing what.

I hope you all have a good day.

Hi,

I have a very low tolerance for news, so I understand. Often I am not upset by one specific thing. In general, after a few minutes, I feel bombarded by negative and/or violent and/or tragic and/or ominous *stuff* that I have absolutely no control over. If the news-du-jour involves "victims" there's nothing I can do for them. My feeling rotten is not helping them. I can only help myself by staying as clear of the news as I need to.

I am sorry about your yoga class. It should be something good for you, not an added source of consternation. Just do what you can do. Be true to yourself, indeed. :hug:

Feel better. :hug:

waves

Hi,

The tv news shows are not in existence to provide information. They exist to make money and they do that with sound and visuals and editing cuts that produce anxiety. They want us to keep watching and they have gotten good at it.

I have not watched any news at all this week . . . mostly I have been too busy and focused on managing myself . . . I do not want to know about this event.

My sister and my friend gave me barebones info over the phone and I read a time line on the internet.

I am letting other people handle it. I figure the authorities, activists, reporters and such can do their jobs while I stay out of it. I trust them to do what they usually do.
I can let this event and its ramifications stay out of my orbit. This is probably the first time I have done this to this extent and it feels great.

'Sorry that you are hurting.

Mari

continue to take care of yourself. WE don't have cable so that is not a problem we can watch public broadcasting if we want but mostly don't watch tv in general so it is not an issue. I listen to npr on the radio fair and balanced reporting in my book.
go to yoga whenever you want to not when someone else goes.
stick to your guns...it is supposed to be a source of stress release not a stress creator!
bizi

My husband likes to watch the news. But I don't.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I know what you mean. I watched very little of this weeks event. It's to upsetting,and hearing people who don't know what they are talking about is sickening.

We've come a long way. We are trying to put the stigma of mental health issues behind. The public needs to have balanced education on mental health issues. BF:hug::hug::hug:

first tdoc watched Nightline
 

My first tdoc told me that he watched Nightline (This was many years ago).

He said it was "orienting."
I took that to mean that it grounded him. . . . or helped him get his bearings before he went to bed for the night.

In other words, he used that show as a tool for how he dealt with his day.
It might have been the only news show he watched.

M

Thanks guys,
 

It is so frustrating. I am grateful for you all.

I am thinking very seriously about eliminating cable to just basic local channels. Granted, I will just get the news....the thing I wish to avoid but I won't have the Real Housewives or other mean spirited shows that I continue to watch and get upset about.

As far as yoga goes, I canceled an extra weekend long workshop that I signed up for. I don't go to all the training that people are attending. I will do what I can and see how I do. I have the physical energy but not the mental.

Yesterday I told Trip to the vet to make sure he didn't have an infection from the Pit-bull bites and there were two new "just out of high school looking girls" and I swear they were snickering at me. I almost lost my mind and said something to the . Thank God I didn't.

The other day my neighbor came across the street and was talking to me. I have explained to him and his wife before about my fear of people and sometimes I can't be around them. Well, just in from out of town he came over to tell me about his trip and thank me for watering his flowers. Then he patted my back and I said Zion, I am feeling tortured by having to be out here, I need to go I side. He kept talking. Then he said, what happened? Something terrible happened to you while I was out of town. I said no John, this is my life, this is bipolar. Then he offers support and an ear to talk to-- the last thing in the WORLD I want. I have explained to him time and time again. He just doesn't get it and that is ok. I will continue to stay on lock down. The problem is I washed my car in my drive close to 5pm. John was talking to me, them another neighbor wanted to talk, and another. I just felt like people were coming at me w knives and John kept talking. I got a little rude and took care of myself and went inside. Then I had to pick up the bucket, brushes, sponges.....and John came BACK.


I went to my psychiatrist yesterday and he says I need to act like like everything just fine if I don't want anything back from society, don't reveal anything. To me this is interesting. I have never thought of it. I always say what I am feeling. I am gonna try not to say what is going on. I am going to say everything is just fine.

I am going to go to the new house this weekend, find AA, a yoga class and enjoy the town. books to read, yoga to practice....that is is.

I hope you all have a nice weekend.

Good luck with the new strategy.

I agree with your pdoc that too much disclosure can invite unwanted attention.

If you have to walk away from situations, it's ok to do that too... maybe try not to wait until the last minute when you are already frantic. Better to walk away calmly when you start getting yellow-alert feelings. If you want to offer an explanation, stay away from personal stuff. Use trite excuses like you have to feed the dog or check on some cooking.

You have a good weekend too! :)

waves

The new place will be a new beginning fresh start. place to set into motions some new rituals etc. also a chance to learn how to better respond to neighbors, in ways that you can deal with.
sorry your neighbor was not listening to you.
bizi