Does anyone have this problem?
 

I was balancing my check book,and I started checking everything. Date,check number,and amount. The more I check these amounts,the more I check them out again.:confused: Then I forget those digits,and I check,and check till my brains get tied into a knot. (((Typical OCD)))

It's worse when I send bills because I check the letter,the bill amount,and the check behind the bill amount to make sure the check is behind the bill amount. Then I check the check a couple of times. Then I tap my letters shut,on top of licking the glue.

I check my files the same way. The biggy use to be,did I have everything in my whollet.

I'd check,and check,check,and check again. My brain would want to bust after enough checking.

Am I the only one?

Life problems are the same way sort of,so I veg out watching TV,and that seems to help.

Sometimes I have a problem in life,and I try to figure it out,and I make a mountain out of a mole hill. When this happens,I know that I'm going to have two,or three more OCD thoughts like that. (((Gosh)))

When I read,sometimes I'll read a sentence over,and over. When that happens,I have to stop reading because my forehead gets tight.

Junk mail trips me up sometimes. My IQ is ok,but I look at these letters over,and over again sometimes.

I have what I call Religious OCD problems. ((Mostly false condemnations))

I get embarrassed about things. Then these things that I get embarrassed about,just sort of stick in my head,and the thought's get bigger,and bigger.
Then they jump to something else,and then something else,etc.etc.:eek:

Then I feel rejection because I'm alone. I feal abandoned from Family. I am. They stay away from me. What am I doing that makes them want to stay away?:confused:

Then there are the small panic attacks,and the medium sized panic attacks. People don't enjoy this either.

When they say smile,and the whole world smiles with you,I'm amazed at that kind of shallowness. I mean I'm dealing with a problem that is not scientifically documented as to what it is exactly.

Last night was a bad night. I felt bad,and I mean really emotionally sick,and suicidal,and I reminded myself that this is just temperory. It was more of the way that I felt when I was a teenager decades ago. Why last night? My NP is trying different medications on me. It seems like the more someone tries to help,the more I fail them,but I don't mean to in the lest.

Now It's decades later,and I'm still alone.

There's not much that I've ever been able to do about this fragmented mental health issue. I've talked about the anxiety in my chest,but there are all kinds of problems.

Let me stop here. Some of my posts where so long when I first got on here,that people probably skiped over those posts. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Oh me.
 

No one? I may have written about to many problems at one time. BF:hug::grouphug::grouphug::hug:

This sounds so difficult. Im sorry you have no family members for support.
Shame on them! I will keep you in my prayers.:hug:

I can relate to some of the things you mentioned. I have both anxiety disorder and OCD. I also sometimes feel like I've been abandoned by my family, but I'm really not. My husband keeps pointing that out. I get paranoid about things, and it seems to get worse as I get older.

I know what you mean. I was getting better,but things changed after 9/11,and I started getting worse. I also don't get support like I use to. All we hear are troublesome things on TV,and some of these fears are learned.

I feal a little more paranoid as I get older also. All that I hear about me,and other people are bad. People are always rushing to judgement,and asking questions later. It's sad. It's almost like people can't say anything good about people anymore. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Hang in there. You can do it. you are doing it.

I can feel lonely in a big crowd.

I have learned to be more open to those people who do come around me. I've also learned by ME not being open, for whatever reason, I lost a lot of opportunities to be close to a lot of people. So now I know this, and I try to hug as much as I can.

If they mean anything to you, they're worth a hug. :wink:

...it's kind of catching. Now they expect it. I had to take that initative, though. I even hug the ones that act like they don't hug. Now they look forward to a hug more than anyone.

If you can find a positive thought, savor that for a long time. Recall it as often as you can.

Think...think... positive.

:icon_lol: may you find laughter in your day.

Welcome Broken Friend to a very non exclusive club! I can't tell you how many obsessions I have because to me they aren't a problem...only for others. Checking the stove cos it's gas, checking the doors are locked, when making a coffee it is 3 spoons of everything and stirred 33 times or I have to throw it out and start again...(or if I spill any of the spoons I have to start again too :whacko: I know...

We moved interstate some months ago and are renting for a while...since we've been here I have paid an extra 6 weeks rent over and above the normal "In advance period". I have been through my rental deposits 33 times every day checking them off and reconciling them with my bank accounts to make sure I haven't missed a week anywhere and that we are paid well in advance.

I think I need a pill for this...but I don't know if there is one or if I could manage to take only one considering my penchants for 3's and 33's...could be dangerous! LOL!

Maybe you just have a really cool calculator you like to use, nothing wrong with that! That'd be my excuse and I would adhere to that religiously...

Well dear new Broken Friend, as long as it balances in the end...it's all good

((((hugs))))
Rhiannon

I know what you mean RhiannonsMoon. Luvox has helped me with my OCD. That 3,or 33 problem must be very aggrivating. I hope that you can get a treatment that can help you with this. BF:hug::hug::hug: