I am so scared
 

I went to my classes today and in the first class my teacher talked about stuff that triggered my depression. I've been down all day since then. I can't seem to shake it off. I don't know what I am suppose to do. I have to have the class for my degree and yet it makes me feel really bad. I'm just trying to force myself through it but here it's only midterms and I'm so depressed I see no way out. I just really hate myself right now. I just feel so down.

Any way, I am going to go try to work on some homework to see if I can get my mind off of things. I've been going to classes all day so i doubt it will work, but I guess it's worth a try.
Wish:(

Oh, Wish...
 

I wish you weren't feeling so scared. :( I know how our minds can mess with us in such awful ways sometimes that everything possible seems like a very real threat. I hope that by studying, and maybe finding other things to do, you can get outside your head again and be in control of those yucky thoughts. Especially the ones that are making you feel like you hate your own self! My best wishes are with you Wishful!

Idealist

:hug: wish

I do hope that you will be feeling better soon

just know there will always be someone here to listen or just to hug ya

((((((Wish)))))),

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I've been there, Wish. Taking classes that remind me of the bad things in my life. I've walked out. I've stayed. *YOU* need to decide how you're gonna handle this.

My son and I believe that situations are continually presented to us because there's something that we need to take care of or something that we need to look at and resolve in some way.

You know how when there's a car accident and two witnesses describe the scene -- one says a red car caused the accident and the other says a white truck caused the accident?? It's the same way with us that have long-term depression. Every time you examine your life and reasons for what's happened to you in your life, you see another viewpoint. Every therapist, every teacher (especially the writing and psychology teachers) has helped me work out another part of *ME*.

I've been fighting depression for close to 50 years.

How about as a reaction this teacher and to this class -- instead of pulling the depression toward you and wrapping up in it again, you look at it as an opportunity to solve some more of the riddle?? This would be a great time to start a blank book about the reactions and thoughts you get from participating in this class.

Wish, I know how hard you work and I know how hard it is to keep a "normal" life when you're also fighting depression. Depression takes a huge toll on everybody -- the depressee, the family, the friends. It's beyond 'hard'.

One day they're gonna find out which two wires are crossed in our heads so they can stop this darn depression in it's tracks. In the meantime, we have to work EXTRA HARD to understand depression and how it works in general and how it works in *US* so that we cope.

I wish you the best, sugar. Just don't pull the darkness over your head again. Try to welcome every experience into your life that will help you understand. BIG HUGS.

Barb :hug:

I've been trying to cope with this depression all day. Usually my art class helps me to feel so much better after my English class but today it didn't really help much. I did try to take a nap though, that didn't help much either. Homework isn't going that great. I've been trying new things to help me cope with this stuff, but today it's just hit me hard. I'm still feeling pretty down, but I will live. Tonight I'm going to take 2 melatonin to help calm me down. That should put me to sleep pretty good.
Wish

Big hugs Wish!

Today is going much better for me. Though I didn't have English class today. I have it again tomorrow though and I'm afraid to go. I will live though! I will still get up and go to class and make the best of it just like I have done all semester long. Any way, I'm glad today is going better. I hope it stays this way for a while.
Wish

:hug: wish

one day at a time is often the only way to take it!

glad you are feeling better

Wish,
you are a strong person in my eyes.
I am glad you are doing better today.
You will survive tomorrow and come out better for it.
Keep up the good work.
Hope