crawling out of the jello
 

july '07 a rock loaded 15 ton dumptruck t-boned my honda civic. no immediately visable injuries. i entered stephen king-land. more horrible than can be imagined. i figured the concusson would make me stupid. that's logical. ok. but i did not expect to also retain the mental awareness of the pre accident me. seperate. an observer, unable to scream for help while "stella" conversed minimally but lucidly. i was made out of different molecules than everything else. the worst days i remember best. crazy hallucinations. incapable of telling anyone. too real and normal to me like alice in wonderland. then needed a colon resection. unobservant doctors delayed the emergency surgery while concussive delerium communicated with infectous delerium sending me into the deepest chasm of hell.
i need to know....um.....i don't know.
neuropsychologist did tons of tests showing post concussive syndrome and the low energy neuro feedback has been extremely helpful. psychologist, not so much. freudian crap.
anyone else have bizzarre reality for more than a year? or at all? added personality? non recognition of pain like childbirth times 100 adding fire and brimstone?
doctors don't see past their clipboard, lawyers say soft tissue damage is not prosecutable. surgeon sez surgery had nothing to do with accident. i don't understand anything. or until another thought takes its place.
big truck hit me. don't know what to do.
wheeee. catharsis. too much info? sorry.

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After 4 concussions, 1 which was Stage 3, I have spent the past 1 1/2 years in an altered state of consciousness. I still have visual flashes and hallucinations, but others around you do not understand and thats the most frustrating part of it. Seeing others with plenty of energy is very frustrating because Post Concussion syndrome drains every last bit off your energy because your body is trying to repair all that damaged tissue. I changed as a person after being carried off of that football feild. As far as advice goes, sleep is KEY in the healing process, Excursive also helps because it supplies fresh oxygen rich blood to the damged nurons in the brain as well as the damaged cranial tissue promoting excellent encouragment to the healing process. Taking vitamins and eating heathly are key when recovering from PCS. Most of all, and this is the most frustrating thing in the world, healing from a concussion takes time, and I mean ALOT OF TIME, YEARS. I have been in a sate of Post concussion syndrome for going on 3 years now due to my addiction to highschool sports which almost got me killed, BUT IT DIDNT, and thats what I take strength in, the fact that I am not dead! So be strong and dont forget to exercise your mind just like your body, it is the same concept, the more you work it out, the stronger it gets, so reading and other mind busying tasks are great if possible. Give yourself time to heal and dont get discouraged!!!

-Beastlyb
Bryant

Nice post! I've got to check out that Excursive...