My dear friends, and fellow suicide survivors....
 

"This is my wish for you: Comfort on difficult days, smiles when sadness intrudes, rainbows to follow the clouds, laughter to kiss your lips, sunsets to warm your hearts, hugs when spirits sag, beauty for your eyes to see, friendships to brighten your being, faith so that you can believe, confidence for when in doubt, courage to know yourself, patience to accept the truth, Love to complete your life."

I have been through another fight with the beast. I guess I will always fight him. I went so far down the road that it's scary sometimes. I had my plan pretty much laid out, and had myself convinced it was the way to go. I had the means right in front of me. And, I thought long and hard. If I attempt again, I believe I will succeed. There is something in that, though, that is sobering.

The reason that I put this out here is to thank my friends here who post about their experiences, because, again, it was thinking about the pain my act would cause to the ones who love, and care about me, that made me stay my hand. Helping me to understand your pain, gets my mind off of my own pain, and helps me to reach out to the one who does love and care about me, and whose life I could easily ruin if I were to succeed.

So, THANK YOU, for sharing your insight, and pain with me, and helping to save my life, yet again. I pray that someday I won't have to deal with this beast anymore, but, in the meantime, I have my friends here, and God, and one who does truly love, and care about me. :grouphug: :)

:hug:

I'm so glad you are OK.

I wish I had known you were in such a struggle. I've missed you, mistiis.

xox

(((mistiis))) You've given me misty eyes, mistiis~please be safe~build as many barriers as you can between yourself and means of self-harm.
Do you have a written plan-steps to take when you feel yourself starting to slip? Please take care of you the very best you can!

(((Mistiis))) It's exhausting to fight the beast...remember our Pter wrestling with him...and winning, just as you have done yet again.
Thank you for winning...it gives one hope that maybe we can do the same. :hug:

Dearest mistiis-You can't leave me! I am still getting to know you,what would I do with you gone from my life?Please,don't leave me.My daughter that I lost to cancer,told this to me one day.Amy said"mom,with every person who crosses our path,they leave a little of themselves with us." Please believe,you are important to alot of people.Just get thru one day at a time,morning always brings us a brand new,clean canvas,to continue writing our life out on.Before I got G.B.S,I tried suicide soo many times,starting at the age of 12-13,but I failed every time.If I would have suceeded,Who would have been there for my Amy?

ahhhhhhhhhhh (((((( mistiis )))))))
I'm glad you made it over the hump once more....!

thanks so much for being with us!
xoxoxoo ♫ Addy

{{{{{Mistiis}}}}}} We love you much!!!!!!!!!

We do
 

Yes we do love you Mistiis! Stay with us and you won't be sorry!

Thank you all for your loving support. It means a lot to me. You are all stars in my heaven......:grouphug:

mistiis, you are loved. Thank you for caring about me, even when you are in "the bad place."