To Shane:Just depressed @ all the pain/feeling I'm a burden..mostly missing my son
 

I am usually very optimistic, but here lately the pain has been so bad and I think my stress level has a lot to do w/it. I didn't get to see my son this Christmas...the very first one we weren't together. It is a long story so I won't go there. It is a very ugly one too. He, now won't have anything to do w/me. I am his mom.....:( and it hurts so much for him to disown his family here. We have always been close until this year. His dad filled his head w/things @ me that were untrue. He wanted revenge and he took it out on his own son...how could he hurt that baby like that? It is so wrong:mad:
He needs love and have his mom to talk to when he needs her. I don't understand how he could have turned him away from me, but I do in a way because he had to live there because the judge ruled it that way since his wife was a judge also...you can see the picture a little clearer now. The justice system...why don't they really investigate these things. Why do they put children in abusive homes. That was the reason we went to court because he told me he was abused there and all I was trying to do was protect him. It is just not right. Well, I love him so much and my heart is hurting to just see him and I guess his dad did get his revenge..but vengence is the Lords and he'll get his. I know he is miserable, but it isn't right for my son to be too... His name is Shane..."Come back Shane"...we all love u so much and miss u...MOM

Hi and welcome to NT!

It is beyond tragic when divorcing parents use their children to hurt each other. As a Mommy myself, I know there is nothing I can say that will ease the pain of being seperated from your son, especially at this time of year.

I hope it helps you a bit emotionally to come here and just talk. There are members here who have experience dealing with custody isssues, and as they return from their Holiday festivities, I'm sure they'll chime in with practical advice.

Remember that none of this is Shane's responsibility. He's only a child, and no matter what, he needs you to go right on loving him, behaving like an adult and acting is his best interests like the super Mom you are.

:hug::hug::hug: