I have had enough
 

i try to be a good father but not goood enough obviously



I have tried my hardest to resist thr lure of suicide fot 20 years.............but god help me,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,it is so prevevlant now,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

(((David)))

I'm sorry you are feeling bad today !!

Fighting for 20 years against suicide is something to be proud of... You are strong, have a huge heart, think very wise....

Why do you feel you are not a good father ?? You seem very wise and sweet man to me, and to be honest, several times I've dreamed with having a father as strong and responsable as you....

I hope you can start feeling better soon !!!

:hug: we love and admire you here A LOT !!! :hug:

David Please go to a Hosp. or call a suicide hot line... Please keep fighting .You ARE a fine father and protector of your family .You provide for them and LOVE them. You ARE a Great parent. These feeling will pass .This is a temporary urge .David please fight the urge please seek help.
Read some of what peter has left for us that alffe mom and others shared here in the fourm... Stay strong .
We are here for you.
Sending strength Prayers and protection from any type of harm to you and to all my family here. Seek help if you need to. :hug:
PEACE
BMW

Thankfuly i fell a sleep through drink. anger amd sheer upset....


I LIVE TO FIGHT ANOTHER DAY

to Blue majo, Barbo. BMW, & MY DEAR WAVES,,,



At times i wonder why i stay on this forum.....and your replies are why...


thank you so ....so .....so much......

and Da-duck

The Living Years
Robertson/Rutherford

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uGDA0Hecw1k


Every generation, blames the one before
And all of their frustrations, come beating on your door
I know that I?m a prisoner. To all my father held so dear
I know that I?m a hostage to all his hopes and fears
I just wish I could have told him in the living years

No crumpled bits of paper
Filled with imperfect thoughts
Stilted conversations, I?m afraid that?s all we?ve got
You say you just don?t see it, he says its perfect sense
You just can?t get agreement, in this present tense
We all talk a different language, talking in defence

Say it loud (say it loud)
Say it clear (oh say it clear)
You can listen as well as you hear (as well as you hear)
It?s too late (its too late)
When we die (ooh when we die)
To admit we don?t see eye to eye (we don?t see eye to eye)

So we open up a quarrel
Between the present and the past
We only sacrifice the future
And it?s the bitterness that lasts
So don?t yield to the fortunes
Sometimes see is fate
It may have a new perspective on a different date
And if you don?t give up and don?t give in you may just be ok

(So say it say it say it loud)
Say it loud
Say it clear (oh oo say it clear)
You can listen as well as you hear (as well as you hear )
(Because it?s too late its too late)
It?s too late when we die (oh when we die)
To admit we don?t see eye to eye (we don?t see eye to eye)

I wasn?t there that morning
When my father passed away
I didn?t get to tell him all the things I had to say
I think I caught his spirit later that same year
I?m sure I heard his echo in my baby?s newborn tears
I just, wish I could have told him in the living years
(So say it say it say it loud)
Say it loud
Say it clear (come on say it clear)
You can listen as well as you hear (as well as you hear yeah)
(Because it?s too late)
It?s too late when we die (its too late when we die)
To admit we don?t see eye to eye (we don?t see eye to eye

(Hey So say it say it say it loud)
Say it loud
Say it clear (oh oo say it clear)
You can listen as well as you hear (as well as you hear)
(Because it?s too late)
It?s too late when we die (oh when we die)
To admit we don?t see eye to eye (we don?t see eye to eye

Dear David
 

i'm glad you fell asleep. :) sleep is good.

and you sound a little better... i hope that persists... stay with us... keep posting.

i am enjoying the poems. ;)

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~

David
 

Please hang in there. It sounds like your going through a very ruff time. You can make it through this. Gosh it gets so difficult emotionally sometimes. You can make it through this. BF:grouphug::grouphug::grouphug::hug:

Poem
 

Good poem David. Did you write it? Hugs.

Love that song... haven't heard it in years.

Hang in there indeed. It's all we do most days, but that makes us survivors..right?