so much going on
 

that at times it makes my head spin. I have so many different issues going on that it has me rather out of it at times. There is so many different things to take care of and some of them are major things. As the saying goes, "when it rains it pours." Well, that has certaintly been my case. I am finding out all kinds of things that make me wonder, "what the hell!" I wish that life was much simpler. I'm beginning to realize just how little control people actually have over their lives.

I am really getting down about not being able to go places on my own and be independent. That really has me feeling so helpless. It is hard to be alone when going through a serious surgery. I can only take it one day at a time though as I have been.

Barbara

Barb
I think you have done a great job. And just give yourself a little more time.
You will be able to get out again soon. Donna

Thanks Donna. I hope so. A girlfriend may come by tomorrow and take me out to eat lunch. That will give me something to look forward to. I enjoy her company.

If another person tells me to listen to music to pass time I will scream bloody murder. I honestly do not know what people are thinking I have been doing for the past 3 weeks but listen to music when I can not do anything else. For crying out loud this is getting on my nerves so bad. I just wish that one person could walk in the shoes I've been wearing the past 3 weeks and let them then act like it's no big deal. Just listen to music. HELLO! Why would I need to to told to listen to music anyway. Am I some kind of embesole and can't think of it on my own. I know none of you here have told me that but I just needed to vent about the others telling me that cause I'm too nice to say something to them.

barbara

Dear Barbara,

I'm sorry that you are going through this.

'Wishes for a full and speedy recovery.

M.

Thank you Mari,

I can not even go to sleep and end this miserable day. I can not take this any longer and am ****** off at the world. There are tons of people who I am always there for and when I need someone to help me they act like they can't be bothered. People can't even pick up the phone and God forbid if I ask them to do more than just pick up the phone. EVERYONE I KNOW has somone, a kid, a hubby, a mom, a sibbling, a best friend. At least someone has someone else and they will never know the rough road I walk all alone. I am completely alone all on my own. Not one soul can understand the hell that brings. I am sick and tired of being the strong person for my weak friends. My weak friends can not ever be there for me. I have not one soul to be there for me, zilts. If I were to die tonight there would be no one to take care of my after death arrangements. Don't you think that doesn't bother me? How do you think I feel when I have to get a next to stranger to be the person the docs talk to in case of an emergency. I don't even trust this person to be talking to the docs but they won't take you unless you have a person they can contact. I don't think anyone knows the living hell I go through a lot of times. People think because I am a strong person that I don't feel the pain of loneliness or burden to shoulder everything on my own with absoluteiy no help at all. If I complain people don't want to hear it.

Dear Barbara
 

loneliness is terrible. i wish you had closer friends. come a certain age, it is hard to make friends, too, i notice. :( good, strong, bonds that is.

~ waves ~

Thanks Waves. I canceled my eye doctor appointment to day so I can sleep all day.

barbara

Barb
When you feel like it post more. Let us know what you feel. Its what
we are here for. I am always one that can listen to others.

I'm here for you.

Donna

Will your eye heal in a long time frame? or is this a short waiting period or a wait and see kind of thing.
When are your restrictions lifted?
could you wear an eye patch if that would help?
When can you drive again? the eye patch might help you....when that time comes if your vision is still not right....I don't know.
Thank you for trusting us to vent your frustrations to us.
come vent when ever you need to.
(((((((HUGS))))))
bizi