Independence
 

Wow ! I guess I didn't realize how much I depend on other people for help....Yesterday was a pretty good day , so I got out the tractor to mow a field (usually have son mow for me) , half way through a pulley on the mower breaks so that put a stop to that . After this short bit of mowing of course I can hardly move , so the rest of the day is spent trying to recoup . Now to the tractor , no use in even trying to fix this myself , which is very disappointing as a task as this in the past would have been fixed the same day and kept on going . Now something this simple requires finding someone who can "help" you fix it . AND I HATE IT !!! I have been fighting this RSDS for going on 11 years , you would think I would have grown accustomed to the need for assistance . But I have not....I miss my independence very badly . I want to be the one people call for help not the other way around :( sorry for the rant , hope all are having a good day ! Take care

Hi! I can relate to the feeling of lost independence as I had to watch my 75 year old dad once again mow my yard while I sat inside being useless. He has told me several times that he likes to be able to help me out, so I guess that he thinks that it is okay to do. I wonder if we ever get use to having to ask for assistance? I used to be such an independent person and was always helping everyone else out, and i really miss that along with so many other things. I just hope that the people that help me get the good feeling that I got when I was the helper. Hope your night is good. Lisa