Discouraged,overwhelmed,and tired
 

There is a situation that developed suddenly. I don't want people to judge me. I feel a great sense of loss. I don't want to be awake. I don't know what to do about this circumstance. I am so tired. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Steve,
I am sorry that something has happened to you.
we're not going to judge you....we all have our issues.
post what ever you want to/need to....
we will listen.
((((hugs))))
bizi

Steve

Bizi is totally correct, we are here for each other. Now I just wish
my c on my computer was here for me.

Donna

Dear Friend, :hug: :hug: :hug:
I'm sorry about the loss.
It is good that you came here.

Mari

One of the ways that I try to feel better is to divert the bad thoughts,and throw myself into my hobbies. I have alot of antenna hardware on the roof above me. It took a great deal of work,and money. At the time that I put these antennas up for my Shortwave,VHF,and UHF hobbie,I had the money.

I think that the person who owns this house wants me to take them down. This goes for my back yard lights,and cameras. One of these cameras is like a window for me because I have a monitor attached to it,and I like to look at it. I don't feel so alone with that camera,and monitor.

I haven't felt like this since I went to the Wellness hospital last fall. I feel a deep sence of loss,and discouragement. I don't know why I feel so bad. I have no laughter,and no peace. I don't even have a counsellor. The other one retired. I just have such a bad feeling,and problems on top of problems. It's like it's the last straw,but worse things can happen. I don't know why I feel so bad.

I should have gone to church today,and then gone to the grocery store. I didn't go anywhere,and I don't feel like going anywhere.

They are putting a new siding on this building. The workers might judge me because I'm upset,and worried about my hobbie antennas,and I don't have a job. They don't know my circumstances,but will probably hear gossup about me. I'm on SSD.

I feel just really bad. My knees also are injured due to where,and tare from the sports that I played back in school,and at work when I had a job. I can't work on that roof to take the antennas down. I may fall because of my knees condition.

I feel like a dark cloud has moved over me. I just keep thinking about this,and can't get it out of my mind. I don't feel like going anywhere,or doing any thing. I don't feel like being awake. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Dear Friend,
Can you reach out to someone in real life? Someone at church? Another counselor?

Let your pdoc know what is happening.



M.

Dear STeve,
try not to worry about what the workers think about you....they are there to do a job and mind their own business....and you can certainly tell them that if it comes to that.
I am glad that you have a hobby.
I do feel sorry to hear about your depression, I thought you had a counselor.....wish you had one now.
keep posting, we are listening.
bizi:grouphug:

I think I can talk to the new counsellor. I wouldn't know where to begin though. I feel uncomfortable with the way counsellors are coming,and going in the State Region 10 facility in this county. They where over billing me,and I just got that straight.

I have a sinus/bronchial problem,teeth problem with the gritting of my teeth,one of my eye's is getting blurred. I'm feeling small lumps on the left side of my body. My knees are hurting. I wish that I had parents again. My dad is still alive,but he's in a nursing home.

I thank you all for resonding so quickly. I have been so quiet resently. I haven't felt like talking very much,except to my friend who lives near the Gulf of Mexico. BF:hug::hug::hug:

Thank you Bizi. I did have a counsellor,but she moved to another part of the state. Someone at Region 10 said that she retired. BF:hug::hug::hug:

maybe you can try to get a new one?