I'm 28 and I'm a stroke survivor
 

This is so hard. I know people say it will get better. THEY LIE!!! Having people around don't help. It just reminders you what you lost. If some can help, I can sleep, I can't get rid of depression and emotional rollercoaster. Everytime I have to talk about my stroke or rehab, or my job, or anything that reminders me I lost everything ,I cry. I cry everyday, and now I'm eating too much sugar. Can anybody help? Thank you.


Carmen Q.

carmen- i understand, i had my stroke 3 monthsago. i cry a lot too. it stinks. i am able to walk but am still struggling with my left hand. i am reminded regularlytoo by those around me how i should be happy with how far i have come and that it will get better, its hard to stay positive when your world has been flipped upside down and the future seems so uncertain. your post made me feel like i am not alone..thank you

So blue
 

I'm not sure what to say here.But I am comforted to hear someone my age speak about how it feels.Every one I know has 1 of 2 comments about my having had a stroke
1)I am very lucky to be alive and I should take everything slowly and not feel guilty or be hard on myself.

2)They cant understand how I feel but if I need any help, just ask.

Number 1 makes me feel like I must not appreciate what I've just gone through.I have to admit that I don't feel that way, I feel very helpless and dependent and yes I am alive but my quality of life is so different.All I feel right now is annoyed that I can't just get back to being able to do what I used to and want to do.I don't feel guilty, just as though I am lacking being a part of the living world.

Number 2 makes me feel like I am suddenly seen as a being handicapped.I lost the ability to control the area from my ankle to my toes on the left side.I am able to walk but I become tired so fast it causes problems doing what needs to be done.

I feel sad everyday.I cried maybe only twice.I am not sure how to express how I feel.It's not like myself,that's for sure.I don't feel as though I am me any more, more like I am trying to get back t myself.My emotions seem to have turned off too.In a situation I can recall the emotion I should feel but it does not arise.I just realized how oblivious I've been since I've come home.I understand I can't change what happened to me but I can't seem to figure out how to become me again, how to feel again, something besides sadness and hopelessness.I can't seem to find any joy in anything anymore