This is it?? Is this what life consists of now??
 

Troy died on Oct 19, 2010 & now yesterday it was 3 months since he went to his Maker. Is this what it's like for all of you too? To dread the date of our love ones death; then we count the weeks & then months & then the years. Reliving in our mind what happened that day & time?? I think of my son numberous times each day; I try not to think of the details of his death. Most of the time I can remember other things; & then something sparks the memory: like a commercial on TV of a man laying in a hospital bed hooked-up to alot of tubes & IV's; or seeing a policeman in uniform; or hearing or seeing an ambulance.
Yesterday I went over to Troy's girlfreind's house to get the things that I told her I'd like to have: a shadowbow & a magazine rack. He made them when he was in shopclass in highschool. His Little league & Teener league ball pictures & his basketball pics too & his trophies. He was very good in sports. She also had alot of other things packed up of his--- things that I had forgotten that he had. He lived in Pa. --- But he was a BIG Denver Broncos fan & he collected all of John Elways plates & cards & mugs & alot of other Bronco stuff.
I knew that her & Troy was not getting along very well when he died & I now suspect, that is why he tried commiting suicide in Sept.; but I'm so thankful she left me have his stuff back. (At first; she put a padlock on her closet)
Yesterday was hard; looking at his things & also being in the same room where the cops tasered him. very hard.

We are still waiting for the autopsy report; it's 13 weeks today. The medical examiner said it'll probably be sometime between 12 & 18 weeks. I hope it's soon.
I'll keep all of you updated. Take care & God Bless You.


And please; I ask again to "pray for justice for Troy"

Thank you.

OMG ~ I'm so very sorry for your pain. Nothing is worse than having to bury your child. I just cannot imagine the pain you're in. I've lost my beloved husband, and I lost my granddaughter ~ but thank God I've never lost a child. I just cannot imagine it. No one can unless they've walked in your shoes. :(

Saying "I'm sorry" doesn't seem like enough ~ but I don't know what else to say. I really AM sorry. I wish there was something I could do for you. I will say prayers for your healing. All you can do is take it a minute at a time. A day at a time is too long. I wish you the very best ~ and God bless. Hugs, Lee

Leesa; sorry for not replying to your post sooner, I try to keep busy with my daily doings. But, I do want to thank you for your thoughts and words.
I really appreciate. Thank you again.

I'm so sorry!
 

Jaycojade,

Hello, I'm Crew and I'm new here. I just to tell you how incredible sorry I am for your loss. They say it gets better and I think it does but seems to spring out without warning it seems. I am truly sorry for your loss... Crew :hug:

Finally..... some news.
 

First~~ thank you Crew.

Yesterday I "Finally" received the autopsy report (it's been 5 months). And they found no illegel drugs or any alcohol in his system at all. There is alot more that is good news, but I can't say at this time. When this whole horrible mess is over & done with I will have my say. For now; please continue to pray for justice for my son Troy. Thank you & God bless.

JC, I will pray for him and you and I hope you find comfort and support here...J

prayer
 

I am so sorry for your grief. I have lost a child also due to differnet circumstances but it hurts the same. Grief does its roulette wheel, and emotions go up and down. It seems people can live with grief, and it subsides, but never completely goes away. I will pray for justice for your son. Again my heartfelt sorrow over your loss. I hope you find peace in your life again. ginnie

Like the others, I will of course pray for you & Troy--also pray that true Justice will reign supreme over this situation.

I hope you can find strength in the love others feel for you & Troy. This is such a human story of tragedy & unremitting loss that it's hard for even a stranger to bear. I hope you have a support system equal to the need.

Take very good care of you.

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:rolleyes:
C.G.. . . .a work still being worked on