What does "IT" want
 

When I was diagnosed with TN after a jolting attack which had hit me taking a drink, I was put on 100 mg. dilantyn and 30 mg, Amitriptyline once a day. That is all I needed to quiet the beast. Ten years went by filled with Dancing, shopping, and working on a busy Hospital floor. Life was good until one day when I was at the Mall and suddenly felt the familiar twinge of ten years past..I stopped talking and fell into a very somber mood. It would be months before I talked with confidence again. I laid down and didn't want to move. I didn't know what "It" wanted. I came to the conclusion that it wanted my life. Bless, Doodle bug7

I can sympathise with you there Doodle bug7, I'm sure that's what mine wants too. I just want the thing to realise its unwanted and unloved and to move out for good so that I can have my life back. Try to keep your chin up, and focus on the hope that one day you'll be free of it x