I finally broke.
 

I told my manager to fire me yesterday and he refused. sigh

My boss and I got into a fight over training his new secretary. I don't think she's had enough time to have all of the basics of the job under her belt and I don't think it's fair that he has such unreasonable expectations of her.

So he had my manager tell me to just let her drown and it ****** me off. BAD.

Gave myself a migraine. I am going to dope up on Valum for the next couple of days and just live with being high. I can't go on like this. I really can't keep letting this all get to me. I am burnt out and I know it. I just don't know what to do about it.

Wes's gallbladder appears to be acting up but it might just be an ulcer. So ten million tests and more stress.

Plus I am going to the attorney tonight to see if I am in violation of my divorce decree if I let Wes stay away from his dad. Long story short, dad kicked Wes out again and Wes told his dad that he is no longer his father.

sigh.

So, I go in to see if I need to modify my divorce decree or get the courts to appoint Wes a gardian. Some one impartial to protect him from his abusive father.

PTSD is through the roof over that one. How dare the ex treat OUR child like he used to treat me? *** (explitive defining donkey) hat.

Not depressed, not dissappointed. Just ANGRY. And sick. grrrrrr.

Hang in there, you are doing the right thing as far as Wes.

Job stress isn't good, just try to go in and do your job and go home, don't sweat the small stuff as Erma Bombeck used to say. I know easier said then done, but you don't need anymore stress.

If you have to take a leave of absence, you will need a dr's note though.

Your stronger than you think........


Hugs, Nikko:hug:

Please don't over do on the Valium, be careful .........

Don't stop taking whatever meds the p-doc said to either, not a good thing to do.


Nikko:hug:

Dear Mrs. Bear,
The job tension sound horrid. Maybe the valium will help you temporarily.

Can you get a liaison (i don't know court terms) so that you never have to deal with the ex a again? Maybe you already don't deal with him. I hate when fathers make their own kids' lives miserable. He's lucky he has a mom like you to protect him.

I hope his medical stuff gets resolved easily and soon for him and for you.

M

So sorry
 

Mrs, Bear you have so much too on your plate and stressers...
I wish a big old hug would help, I feel bad that bad things always seem to pile up on people that are kind and have tons of loads to deal with.

If I figure out the answer, If I can help in a minute I would send you the resloution, in the mean time, you are in my heart and mind...
Tackle just one thing at a time, the most important to lesser. I am also disappointed in work...hands are so tied as in your case. We care too much, others don;t give two sh*ts.
Sending you love,
Di
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ahh mrs. bear.
I am sory that you too are having to deal with ex crap....
It doesn't seem fair at all.
I wish that wes gall bladder goes ok jsut something else to worry about.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Went to the attorney. He's says let the kids decide if they want to go to dads or not. If the ex decides he wants to do something about it, then he'll take him on. But he say's from the sound of it dad is all bluff. He told Wes he has every right not to go and no one can make him.

Wes feels so much better now.

And his tummy only hurts when you push on it. The ultra sound didn't show any obvious stones but we have to let a GI doc read the results to see if the found any abnormalities.

Then, if Wes still hurts and is having trouble eating, we get a hyda scan like little Con did.

I am just hoping that we can avoid surgery with Wes. He goes completely manic / psycotic when he's had anesthesia. That's why the ENT doc wouldn't take out his tonsils. Nobody dares put him under anymore.

I feel better today. I am still going to see the pdoc though. I am bouncing up and down way too quick. Very abnormal for me and I don't have time to loose it. I gots kids to chase and a job to hate. ;)

Mrs. Bear, I am glad you feel better today. I also hope all goes well with Wes. I don't know what to tell you about the job except that I hope it gets better for you.

befuddled2