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Praying for you just now and for your husband and ALL of the needs of your family and the care givers who watch over you all. Life can be so very VERY difficult, and I have found the only means by which I can feel comfort in fording every stream, crossing every highway, providing every meal, assuring a roof over our heads is to give myself up to God. While the notion of surrendering myself to God's leadership in some circles may draw derision and thoughts of mysticism and hokey-ness, I personally KNOW the very real truth of being one with God so the load may become light.

Just today, I attended the Burial Mass for my Mentor in professional life, Aldo, a VERY devout person of faith with whom I shared MANY PRIVATE MOMENTS these last several months as the cancer which had returned came to claim him. He had taught me over the course of 30 years of practice the right way to ethically practice law as a principled person of faith. When I returned to his knee not so much as student anymore, but as colleague and friend who was thoroughly concerned with his health.... it was he who sought after and obtained blessing from me since he knew we were both kindred spirits of faith although not of the same church.

We spent hours and hours together sharing our faith, wandering back over war stories of the lawyer, revelling in our blessings, and holding hands as we prayed. He told me not morre than 12 days ago of his knowledge that God would open wide the bright blue sky to receive him home, and I replied that the brilliant light in the center of that opening would be Jesus reaching out for him. This coming from a man who was thought to be in the throes of dementia at the time. He was focused. Recollected the name of my wife and spoke of the blessing she is to me as his wife is to him [I write this in the present tense, because that was the context of our discussion]. Now he has "gone home" and his wife feels happy for him, knowing he is no longer in pain and that he is in glory.

This is a very real very recent example of how and why I know I have faith. Sharing in the passing of this intellectual giant of a man, who enfeebled persisted in his faith, I felt totally humbled and in awe.

Back to you.... I know prayers lifted up by those of us here on your behalf will flow for you and your family. An attempted suicide is a cry for help to arise from anguish and realize life more fully. Personally speaking, I know God helps with this as I am one of those people, who in the depths of pain and withdrawal from meds slipped into deep depression and anxiety.... side effects of the very withdrawal I so wanted to and succeeded in completing.

Without God, I would be gone from my family. With God, I am filled to the maximum in the richness of spirit that I cannot withhold sharing it with folks I meet. I visit elderly people who otherwise might feel left by the wayside. I aid others who are seeking employment, because they feel lost and alone. I KNOW my presence with Aldo was tremendously appreciated by my friend, even unto the end. AND ALL of these I's written in this paragraph are attributed to the faith which saved me from myself. From self harm. From self pity. From the temptation to give up.

So, my friend, I reach out my hand to you in the spirit of Christ who strengthens me and let you know my prayers are flowing for you,
CARING VERY DEEPLY,
Mark56:grouphug: