depression meds
 

ok,I will just jump in. I am in trouble...I am walking that fine line between I might be ok, and the one where I know I won't.I've been fighting depression for over 30 yrs. Now i;m 52, divorced, 3grown kids with kids of thier own. Right now I live in my mom and dad's house with my 2 older sisters. My parents passed in 2010. My older sis is paying for my doc visits and $4.00 meds at Wal-Mart. She bought my effexor at first. Now she can't, and I have been in a downward spiral since. I just got dx with MG about 2 weeks ago. This has bben the reason I have been unable to work for the last five years. I didn't know it at the time. I have tried to find resources to help pay for my meds, but so far I haven't had any luck..haha..luck huh?
I am in the process of trying for my disability appeal, so I have no money, or medical insurance. I just want to give up. This has been a very long and unhappy chunk of time in my life. I don't even think anybody would come to my funeral. I'm so sad and lost. My sisters don't understand how they hurt me with their silence and their showing me that they don't need me. I don't want to go back in that hole. I'm not strong enough anymore. Why can't people see when you're that close to the edge..Or do they and then just don't care. I thought things would change after our parents passed within 4 months of each other. But I still feel like I am not significant.

Hi Dewcole
 

My heart goes out to you and your circumstances. I too have battled depression most of my adult years and I can absolutely understand that feeling of being unnecessary. I've felt those exact feelings. It's so easy to become isolated within ourselves, especially when it appears that our family around us seem to see right thru us, as tho they don't care or comprehend, which only adds to the feelings of being useless.

This really becomes difficult, especially when I'm in the midst of a heavy cloud of depression. But then, when it lifts for awhile, I'm able to somehow see that it's not that the family doesn't 'care'....it's just that they don't understand. They don't know what it's like to be surrounded with the walls of pain that we know. It is terribly lonely.

I'm sorry you aren't able to have the meds you need at this time. You are actively pursuing this tho, and something will eventually come thru I'm sure.
Do you have anybody who can help advocate for you? To help state your case while applying for aide?

Please don't give up....and try not to measure your worth by what you perceive your family to be thinking. Chances are they simply don't have all the facts and are unable to really understand what you are going thru.
There are people who do understand, especially right here at NT. It helps to talk about it with others who know what you're going thru.

This is the time of year when we seem to get hit the hardest with depression.
We have to believe in ourselves and stay as strong as we can. I just recently came out of a very severe state of depression and it still feels very 'raw'.
It has a way of sucking the life right out of us.

You are not alone in this.

Caring,
Rae
:hug:

Bless your heart -- I'm so sorry you're suffering so. I know how difficult it is not being able to buy medications.

Have you contacted the manufacturer of the Effexor? Most of the time, these companies will help people who have no insurance. They might even give it to you for nothing. Try calling them -- it's certainly worth it.

Montel Williams was also a spokesperson for an organization that helped people who can't afford their meds -- but for the life of me I can't remember the name of the organization.!!! It was "something" like PPA -- but I can't remember for sure. :eek: Maybe if you did a search on HIM or PPA (or similar) you could come up with something

I wish you the very best. God bless & take care. Hugs, Lee